1. Background
Reverend John Macky, an Irish
Presbyterian,
was sent out to New Zealand to take charge as the first Presbyterian Minister
of the Tamaki district. This area consisted of the village of Otahuhu, the
districts of Mangere, Otara, and Papatoetoe and the nearer fringe of East
Tamaki and Flat Bush. His first service there was held on 27th August, 1854,
in the store shed of Baird's Wharf on the Tamaki River. The Journal
of Revd. John Macky is his diary describing his journey out to New
Zealand and early settler life in the Otahuhu and Tamaki districts.
—South Auckland Research Centre
So ends the journal of John Macky as recorded in a copy taken from
the original that has been lost. It may well be that that original will
show up. It was understood [to have been] made available to Neil Lloyd
Macky [C.4.d] about 1939 when he
was preparing the Family History for The Auckland City Centenary.
Donna reports that her copy of the Journal has the following
history:
I just spoke with my mother about the Journal and this is what she
remembers - She and my father were in NZ in 1971, visiting at the home
of Dane & Elizabeth Macky. While there another visitor arrived,
a relative named Henry or McHenry (she says to ask Elizabeth) this man
asked my mother if she had read Father John's Journal... then asked her
if she would like a copy... of course she said, yes. A few days later the
man returned with a tattered copy, which he gave to her. She read the
Journal, which she recalls being poorly typed, while travelling around
NZ and then brought it home to Napa. Shortly after their return home
they were visited by Victor & Pat Hercus - my mother showed them
the Journal and Victor asked if he could take and copy it, which he did.
There is a letter from Victor, dated 6 April, l971, folded in the Journal
that he returned to my parents. In the letter he thanks them for letting
him copy the Journal. My mother seems to think that the copy that was
returned was actually a re-typed version which she recalls is easier
to read.
Comparison:
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Donna's Copy |
Auckland Libraries' Copy |
There are differences between the two copies. The Auckland Libraries'
version is more complete— some entries are longer and there are
additional entries not in Donna's version. For example, the 14th June,
1861 entry:
Donna's Copy |
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2. Transcript
Transcribed by Donna Messenger née Macky
[B.3.a.1.B],
Ian Macky [B.1.d.1.A.2] and
Wanda Hopkins.
Thanks also to Laura Foster, Research Librarian at the Auckland Libraries
South Auckland Research Centre
who provided scans of their alternate version when Donna's copy was illegible
or had carbon problems. Page numbers refer to Donna's Copy.
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10 April 1854 |
This day we bade farewell to numerous weeping friends and
acquaintances, and in the William McCormick steamer
from Londonderry to Liverpool commenced our journey to New Zealand.
The weather was very fine and auspicious but our hearts were sad -
we were leaving our country and our home probably never to return.
Those dear ones we were embracing alas it may be for the last time were
shedding bitter tears our own were flowing amain and the feelings of our
breaking hearts could find no utterance but in short fervent ejaculations
mingled with sobbings.
To the mercy of God we mutually commended each other, and with the
hope that our meeting again if not in this world would be in heaven and
be boundlessly joyful and tearless. We gazed upon each other with the
last intent fond look and waved a last Adieu.
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11 April, Tuesday |
We reached Liverpool at half past seven o'clock in the morning after
a very pleasant passage of seventeen hours in which I suffered less from
seasickness than ever I did on a steamer on any previous occasion. Still
I was not entirely free from that malady for which though dire there is
so little sympathy. I believe no one of our party suffered so much as
myself the children gave promise of being very good sailors on the long
voyage which they were shortly to enter and my dear wife though mentally
dispirited and her heart overwhelmed and in perplexity yet mercifully
preserved from bodily sickness and discomfort.
Our party bound for New Zealand consisted of my father, mother, and
sister Dorcas, Mrs. Alexander, my sister-in-law, and her four children,
Mr. Joseph Cochrane, my brother-in-law and my wife, our five children
and myself with two female and one male servant for the party and two
young men, members of my former congregation in the fore-cabin. We left
Liverpool for London about three hours after our landing and managed
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cold water and conversation with a few other
simple appliances to pass the time in the railway carriage pleasantly
enough. Our little Lizzie was naturally enough dissatisfied with the long
confinement in so small and crowded an apartment and contrived to make us
aware of her feelings by sundry ebullitions of the genus crying. However
we all were in good health and tolerable spirits when we reached London
and after an hours delay at the Terminus during which time J. Cochrane
was busily engaged procuring lodgings, we were whirled off in cabs to
Frederick Street Pentonville where most of us remained during our stay
in London.
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12 April, Wednesday |
This day we went first after breakfast to the office of the Agents and
owners of the Cashmere Messrs H. H. Willis & Coy and were rather startled
when they informed us that they were expecting she would leave the dock
next day however our minds were set at rest on that point ere going to
see the Ship as we found she could not possibly be ready to leave before
Saturday. We gave orders about the fitting up of our cabin and spent
the remainder of the day in making sundry purchases necessary for the
voyage. I was able to go through great London with very little concern
for its sights and wonders inasmuch as business was pressing which must
be attended to and there was little time to do it. The cabs of London
though of bad notoriety are a necessary evil and restricted as the cabmen
now are in their fares by a carefully regulated and equitable scale of
charges there can be little imposition practiced by that fraternity if
a moderate degree of caution be exercised by those who employ them. It
struck me as a matter worthy of notice and as giving a good idea of the
difficulty of becoming acquainted with all the localities in the World
of London that scarcely one of the Cabmen could drive without enquiring
the way to our lodgings in Pentonville.
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13 April, Thursday |
Spent much the same as yesterday. The children altogether confined
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elsewhere. Letters from
Ireland today from those who love us, but whose faces we will see no
more. My dear wife still much depressed and my own health and peace
of mind beginning to suffer. May God strengthen and support us for all
the trials we may have to encounter and Oh; that we may be fitted for
our various duties so that we shall esteem it our meat and drink to be
doing the will of our father in heaven. May God comfort the sorrowing
friends we have left behind us.
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14 April, Friday |
Good Friday all business suspended in London. A fraction of the people
engaged in God's worship the millions seeking their own pleasures. On
this day however I do not blame them if their consciences be not grieved
the day is of human institution and therefore wholely different from the
Sabbath to the careful observance of which as a day especially devoted
to God's worship and service we are morally obliged. This day took the
children to see St. Paul's, that magnificent temple of worship of the
true God ostensibly but an object of admiration for the grandeur of its
structure and the vastness of its dimensions - The Monument - The Horse
Guards - Westminster Abbey - Houses of Parliament - The Tower.
Afterwards went to the ship likely to be our home for months to come
and completed to a certain extent preparations necessary for going on
board next day. Thoroughly tired of London.
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15 April, Saturday |
In the morning bought some additional cabin requisites, got the
remainder of our luggage aboard and being determined to leave with the
ship went on board ourselves. The Cashmere left the St. Katherine
Dock about one o'clock p.m. and was towed by a steamer to Graves End where
we are riding at anchor. We have a great deal of confusion on board
but are cheered by the information that this will give place to order
in the course of two or three days. This is to be our first night
aboard ship. God grant us his favour and protect us while we remain
in her.
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16 April, Sunday |
Few of the passengers in the ship. I went ashore to Graves End. Its
Easter I was surprised and shocked to see so many shops open in every
street the Sabbath is very much desecrated here - Steamboats and
Railway Trains constantly running, crowds of people on the wharves and
in the pleasure gardens in the river steamers all sorts of amusement,
fiddlers, harpers etc. Went to a Methodist Chapel and heard an evangelical
sermon there is an organ in the chapel the music very good this was the
first place I ever saw the people sit down during prayer the pews were
too narrow for kneeling in and I suppose they preferred any posture to
standing. Why it is not in me to say. In the evening heard two street
preachers one evangelical and the other a sermon. A more villainous
looking fellow than the latter I never saw.
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17 April, Monday |
In London bought some things still necessary for the voyage and
returned in the evening to the ship. A large number of the passengers
now on board the vessel being expected to sail tomorrow.
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18 April, Tuesday |
A further delay in putting to sea. The Government Inspector has required
a new fire engine to be put aboard and some other alterations to be
made. Satisfied by this circumstance that this inspection is not a mere
matter of form and that we have reason to believe that everything for
our safety and comfort has been provided. This evening J. Cochrane and
Anne Alexander came aboard. We can't as yet speak very comfortably of
our feelings and Rebecca is still very dispirited.
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19 April, Wednesday |
The ship has not yet sailed. The difficulty of getting cleared out
the only explanation. Engaged today in putting some more things to
right in the cabin and was to Graves End in the afternoon with Anne
and Rebecca. There are very fine and extensive baths in this town A
great luxury and certainly not less a necessity for health than for
enjoyment. Still in great confusion not auguring well for comfort.
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on account of Rebecca's despondency.
May God give her peace of mind and restore unto her the joy of his
salvation.
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20 April, Thursday |
This morning was waked up at 4 o'clock by Willis's people who were on
board to have accounts of freight etc. settled previous to the ships
sailing. I managed satisfactorily my freight account and have reason
to speak favourably of the liberality of the Agents who remitted a
considerable amount which I suppose they might have insisted on. The
steamer to tow us to a point where the wind was favourable was now
alongside the anchor was weighed about half past four we left Graves End
and in about six hours we were able to set sail and dispense with the
further assistance of steam. The wind was very favourable though light
and we made about seven knots. May God mercifully speed us on our way
and preserve us from all dangers.
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21 April, Friday |
Wind still with us. The day delightfully fine. Getting down the
Channel as rapidly and as pleasantly as the most sanguine could have
anticipated. This day a British steam Cruiser passed us with a Russian
Barque in tow which she had captured. We had no means of ascertaining
any particulars. This circumstance however plainly reminded us that
the peace of Europe is broken and God only knows when it shall be
restored. Not many complaints of seasickness, can't complain of our ships
accommodation.
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22 April, Saturday |
Getting on to the hearts content of our Captain who is a very worthy
man and most anxious to promote the comfort of all his passengers a
fresh breeze very sick and confined to my berth all day.
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23 April, Sunday |
No religious service aboard seasickness very general among the
passengers the wind favourable and good. I am selfish enough to wish it
were not so good my sufferings are considerable.
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24, 25, 26 April, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday |
Confined almost constantly to my berth unmitigated seasickness
accompanied by sadness and sorrow. Poor Rebecca still very poorly cannot
comfort her may God help her. Wind uninterruptedly good and fair sailing
along the Bay of Biscay and coast of Portugal sighted no land.
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27 April, Thursday |
Wind not so strong. Sickness proportionately less able to go on
deck felt very cold owing partly to the very weak state to which I have
been reduced. Very great confusion has hitherto prevailed children very
disorderly persuaded that going to sea is a very miserable thing at least
in the commencement of a voyage.
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28 April, Friday |
Was able to be on deck before breakfast felt very much stronger the day
very pleasant atmospheric warmth considerably increased. This day sighted
Madera and sailed pretty near to the end of the island the coast is very
rock bound and there is scarcely any cultivated land in view a large white
building was visible in considerable elevation in an apparently barren
district some thought it a chapel, some a Convent. The wind light speed
not more than 4 knots.
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29 April, Saturday |
Health of all passengers considerably improved beginning to be better
acquainted with each other all very agreeable, at least manifesting
a disposition to be so. A good many appear anxious to have religious
ordinances regularly observed. The Episcopalians most so. My dear Rebecca
and a Scotsman in the Steerage the only Presbyterians who appear interested
in the subject. Feel disheartened on this account God give me strength
to preserve amidst discouragements - Wind still light.
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30 April, Sunday |
A beautiful morning wind - very light and rather more easterly -
sighted Palmas Ferros and Teneriffe of the
Canary Islands
at different times throughout this day. Preached under an awning on
the Quarter Deck at half past ten. The attendance good and the whole
service comfortable enough. I had often been grieved at home at the
careless lifeless manner in which the psalms were sung and hoped that in
our services on board this would not be the case, expecting confidently
the assistance of my brother-in-law. However in this I was disappointed
and the singing was so wretched that I was heartily longing even for the
music of Fahan.
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passengers who appear to be of the High Church Party of Episcopalians.
Dr. Sealy read the evening service of the Church of England. The singing
of the hymns was good my brother-in-law leading I preached by request.
I believe I am in the way of my duty in present circumstances in yielding
so far to the prejudices of this people in order to promote the spirit of
Christian Union and that they may receive the Word from my lips.
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1 May 1854, Monday |
The day very fine. We are within two or three degrees of the
Tropics. The heat is considerable but the Cuddy is remarkably well
ventilated the awning is over us on deck and we now know the advantage
of having a stern cabin as with one of the windows open during the night
we can sleep in comfort covered with a single blanket and sheet. We are
not making much way. A whale has been seen and numbers of porpoises. The
Nautilus or
Portugese Man-of-war
occasionally glides past us not sinking beneath the waves and anon
raising his fibrous tiny sail with which he steers his course fearlessly
over the waters. My reading has hitherto been very trifling since we
sailed and moreover very cursory. I am reading James Earnest Ministry.
All are now well on board but my dear Rebecca and the nature of her malady
(whether mental or bodily) I cannot discern. Oh, how earnestly and with
what tears and groanings I have prayed and do pray for her restoration
to health and strength.
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2 May, Tuesday |
Not yet entered the Tropics but will during the night. Wind very trifling
but still making a little way. Saw a steamer this day in the distance,
homeward bound. Our Captain thinks she is one of the Oriental Steamboat
Company's vessels. This day reading The Memoir of Leigh The Missionary
to New South Wales and New Zealand. Oh, that I could possess the fervent
zeal which actuated him through all his course. We have all reason to
feel comfortable as far as our treatment on board is concerned and our
intercourse with each other. We have now regularly reading and prayer in
the Cuddy immediately after breakfast conducted by me and I have prayer with
my own family in the cabin in the evening. God hear our Prayers!
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3 May, Wednesday |
We are now within The Tropics but the atmosphere is less tropical than
the last few days as the wind is much fresher. Our speed last night and
this day has increased considerably and we are now (9 p.m.) going 7½
knots. My thoughts have been very much today on past scenes and places and
persons whom we have left behind us. A coterie of passengers meet every
evening to sing on the quarter deck not sacred songs however thus far this
singing of such songs usually termed profane is innocent and pleasurable
is a question which I feel considerable difficulty in answering to the
satisfaction of my own conscience this evening while listening for an hour
I could not perceive that any but right feeling had a place in my mind.
There are emotions not strictly speaking religious but which are never
the less conducive to the progress of religion in the soul, or at least
perfectly consistent with the holiest exercise of religious principles
which are oft times excited by many songs generally considered profane.
Notwithstanding that this is my feeling I fear that song singing is
generally abused and it must be a self evident abuse when it interferes
with the performance of any command of duty. The reflection I think ought
to settle the question as far as singing in this ship is concerned we have
no Psalm Singing, no joining together daily to celebrate Gods Praise in the
manner of his own appointment. Therefore our singing is abused and is wrong.
But were there no song singing would it be better if the same time were spent
in idle conversation or listless watching, would there be any improvement?
I think not. Perhaps I shall soon see a fitting opportunity for introducing
something better I know from my position it would be foolish of me to attempt
to dogmatise or hastily innovate. How hard it is to display on all occasions
sufficient firmness and invariably to exhibit the ministerial character.
May I be helped to do so. This day I endeavoured to keep the children
pretty close to their books, but still further improvement in this regard
is demanded.
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4 May, Thursday |
Wind fair, increasing towards evening. Making 7 knots.
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Saw two sails
today. One crossed our stern, coast-ward, probably bound for some part
of Africa the other ahead of us on the same course as ourselves. How
pleasant it is to have the sense of utter loneliness relieved by even
the sight of a sail at a distance and how vast must be the ocean on whose
bosom so many ships are constantly traversing and yet so seldom falling in
with one another. We have not yet felt any inconvenience from the heat of
The Tropics but I believe we could safely do without any covering in our
berths even with an open window. The moon is now on the increase and the
nights are beautiful. On either side the quarter-deck are trusses of hay
for the sheep and when the heavy dews are falling it sends forth such a
delightful perfume, that sitting in the balmy evening I could almost fancy
myself in some sweet meadow far away from this restless ocean. But this
day dream soon passes and I am alive to the reality of our situation. We
have many things to be thankful for but some regrets intrude.
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5 May, Friday |
Last night and this morning the wind blew pretty fresh and we are
getting along at nearly 9 knots. There are some renewed indications
of seasickness with some of the passengers sister Dorcas and myself
included. However I feel convinced that an increase in motion does not
affect me nearly as much as formerly and that in time I might become a
good sailor. No sails in sight today. We are passing between Cape Verdi
Islands and the coast. Land is not visible. The nearest of the islands
is 150 miles distant and the coast still more. I had this day prayer in
the steerage in which about 12 passengers united. Every morning after
prayer in the Cuddy I intend, God willing, to visit the Steerage for the
same purpose. This evening very warm on deck even when everything was
quite wet with the heavy dew. The moon is much more directly overhead
in these latitudes (as the sun is) than we ever before saw her. Great
numbers of porpoises gamboling round the ship today. As yet no fish of
any kind have been taken.
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6 May, Saturday |
This day wind not so good but still very favourable. We have not had
one hours contrary wind since we left Graves End. Let God be praised
for his great goodness. Saw a whale this morning about two miles on the
starboard.
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I believe it is by the man on the masthead who is constantly on
the lookout that a whale is first recognised as such. Whaling is a game
made up of minding, expectation and excitement and I should think the two
former generally constitute nine tenths of it. In this however I may be
mistaken one only seeing two whales on our course cannot be regarded as
a criterion I believe they are pretty numerous within the Tropics at this
season. Attendance at prayer in the steerage rather better today. Not more
than a few minutes on deck till after tea, engaged in the cabin preparing
for preaching tomorrow. May God give me the preparation of the heart,
and oh that some may derive comfort and edification, and others awakening
from the word of my lips. May my dear wife be comforted.
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7 May, Sunday |
All the more favourable for preaching on the Quarter Deck. Preached
from Hebrews 6.19 Which hope we have is an anchor of the soul
etc. attendance pretty good preached from the same text in the
evening. The service of The Church of England read as formerly by
Dr. Sealy. The Psalms and Amens chanted the latter especially made
me feel very uncomfortable as if I was where I should not be However
in matters indifferent the Golden Rule of Moderation must be observed
and he that chanteth not must not despise him that chanteth. My fellow
worshippers on this occasion hold Christ the Head and are at one with me
in all the great essential doctrines of Christianity, and I trust that
in those things in which we differ I shall be able to keep the unity of
the spirit in the bond of peace.
Wind improved towards evening. Sabbath dinners quite sumptuous in
their way this day our Captain treated us all to Champagne drank of it
and felt better for it.
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8 May, Monday |
Getting to the end of the Trade Wind after which we will be some days
in what are called the Variables until we get into another trade. Saw
a sail this morning astern of us steering more Easterly than us either
bound for some part of Africa or else taking
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a different course which
is sometimes the case as seamen differ in their opinion as to choice
of direction in order to catch the Trade. A porpoise taken this morning
harpooned by Sedgewick the first mate who seems to pride himself a good
deal on his activity but if in command I fear it would be a pity for
the sailors serving under him. Walker the second mate is a nice mild
agreeable fellow and I do hope he may have a prosperous career. The
porpoise is very much relished by the sailors who are glad to have
anything fresh. I believe part of it when well cooked might easily be
taken for pork. They are seen in great numbers a good many Black Fish
seen today which yield an oil equal to that of the whale.
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9 May, Tuesday |
Thermometer at 81 degrees all feeling the heat very oppressive
except the seamen wind light but favourable as it has invariably been
since we left. Met a ship today homeward bound. Great excitement on
board preparing letters for home and great disappointment when it was
ascertained that she was not a British Ship and that no letters would
be sent by her. She was a French Barque but had no flags for signalling
so that no information was given or received on either side, except the
display of the National Flag. Making pretty good way notwithstanding
the lightness of the winds I believe much better than usual in these
latitudes being now in the Variables. We are now about the eighth degree
north latitude. Attendance at prayers in the Steerage improving. This
day Chris's hat was lost out of the cabin window and our valuable servant
nearly went after it The Captain has promised to have the cabin windows
nailed to prevent accidents.
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10 May, Wednesday |
A heavy shower of rain this morning about 6 o'clock. It had been
preceded by a short squall of wind. They collected off the Quarter
Deck nearly a barrel of water. The wind fell away afterwards nearly to
a calm but after two or three hours perceptibly increased so that we
made nearly 4 knots. Passed a vessel about 6 miles distant going in the
same course signalled her but they either could not make out the signal
or were too uncivil to reply further than by displaying
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something like
a black ball. They recognised her from this and the colour (yellow)
of her painting to be one of the Blackball line of Packets generally
sailing to the Mauritius. This day was sultry and the evening warmer than
usual. Feel it very difficult to read much on account of the heat the
days are passing without much interest and I regret to add unprofitably
besides. I trust if this warm weather were past I will be able to do
more myself and make the children do more. We are in about 6 degrees 30
minutes North Latitude.
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11 May, Thursday |
The wind was tolerably good during the last night very light this
morning. Heat still very great all complaining of its exhausting influence
a baby born on board this morning the mother, wife of a man called Shaw
in the Steerage one of Mr. Hammerlin's servants. The husband is a civil
quiet man and appears very thankful for his wife's safe delivery. Sam's hat
went overboard this morning I believe he could not help it as a sudden
gust of wind lifted it off his head. This trifling accident led to some
remarks I deemed rather severe on Sam's demerit by Jos. Cochrane and I
permitted myself to lose my temper a man in whose heart the feelings of
the father never kindled is unfit to speak to a father about his children
and he is influenced either by ignorance or ill nature who speaks of a
child to his father as a blackguard and a scoundrel. I am aware of Sam's
stirring nature and the natural forwardness of his disposition and his
proneness to be opinionated but he is very affectionate and warm hearted
and possessed of very quick natural talent and considering that he is not
yet ten years of age, I trust by the grace of God I need not despair as
others seem to do that he may yet possess and manifest more wisdom and
steadiness. I have learned however the necessity of exercising greater
control over my temper.
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12 May, Friday |
Wind light - very sultry - Three vessels all outward bound in
sight - some of them sufficiently near to speak with.
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13 May, Saturday |
Making pretty fair progress - heat very uncomfortable. Engaged till
the evening making preparation for preaching tomorrow.
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Carried back in
thought very much to the quiet room in which I used to study at home and
made to feel how much I would value its comfort did I now possess it.
God enable me to trust to his mercy that all things are ordered for
the best and that the Lord will graciously provide all things needful
to us.
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14 May, Sunday |
About the warmest day we have had yet. Preached in morning and
evening from Hebrew 11.33. My spirit was greatly overwhelmed on account
of my dear Rebecca and I prayed with great earnestness that she might be
enabled to receive the promises through faith and be comforted by them.
A few minutes after evening service a Swedish Barque (The Adelaide )
from India laden with rice bound for Cowes for orders passed so close
to us as to give us this information of her by signals and to learn
our destination through the speaking trumpet. It was very interesting
to witness the whole procedure and to hear the kind interchange of
civilities between the Captains. It spoke to my heart what brotherly
kindness universally exercised throughout the world would accomplish.
Oh, for the time when all men shall be brothers.
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15 May, Monday |
Wind fair but light - crossed the Equator about 11 o'clock tonight
at about 23 degrees West Longitude. The event celebrated in no way
except some drinking among the sailors which is certainly a great
improvement on the barbarous practices of former times which I believe
are nearly universally exploded. Our voyage has thus far been satisfactory
and yet at no time of my life do I remember passing a time of greater
mental suffering - my dear Rebecca's illness continues.
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16 May, Tuesday |
Making good way for these latitudes - nothing occurred worth
recording - still warm - sleep without any covering - windows and
doors open.
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17, 18, 19 May, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday |
Miserable, miserable days. Rebecca very poorly. God relieve her and
pity us both. I can remember nothing of these days but their misery.
May we be strengthened for trials.
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20 May, Saturday |
On 20th. of last month we sailed from Graves End and we are now
in the 13th. degree of South Latitude. We have great reason to be
thankful that our way has been prospered and that we have had so few
bodily discomforts. Preparing today for tomorrow's services - never
did so at any former time with so sorrowful a mind - may I see God's
hand and be submissive.
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21 May, Sunday |
A very good breeze yesterday and today ½ wind S.S.E. Preached
morning and evening from Luke 13.33. My dear Rebecca heard me both
times - I trust she is somewhat better - the Doctor has given her
a draught every evening for some days. After preaching this morning
I baptised Shaw's child which he named after the Ship - George
Cashmere . I believe the Episcopalians were rather pleased with the
simple impressiveness of the service - one of them would have liked the
Lord's Prayer to have been used - I didn't know how far I should conform
to this very general prejudice among them in wishing this prayer to be
used more frequently in our devotional exercises. I have no objection to
it myself except the fact of using it to please men - but after all this
may be scripturally right ½ All things to all men.
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22 May, Monday |
Wind good and fair S.E. by E. half a point. Some expectation of seeing
Trinidad tomorrow. It is an island belonging to Portugal almost utterly
barren and now uninhabited. Some convicts used to be sent there but it
proved too expensive a prison as they were not able to raise sufficient
food in the Island for their support.
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23 May, Tuesday |
Wind still good S.E. making very good way. Passed Trinidad late in the
evening - not visible - probably would have been had it been daylight.
The motion of the ship has been considerable the last two or three days
but notwithstanding I have scarcely felt even uncomfortable so that I
am not likely to be such a martyr to seasickness in the Southern Seas
as I feared I would be. Rebecca seems rather better today and I would
fondly hope by God's blessing she may gradually be relieved from the
mental depression.
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24 May, Wednesday |
Wind light towards evening - making little way - the temperature
sensibly falling - nights rather cooler - not wearing any covering in
our berth yet - the boys lie quite in a state of nudity.
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25 May, Thursday |
Morning delightfully cool - wind fell away towards evening - getting
out of the Tropics tonight. Thank God no cause for complaint.
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26 May, Friday |
Wind still very light. A pretty heavy shower of rain before
sunrise - sun warmer today. This day spoke with two vessels - with one
by signals - the other with the speaking trumpet. The first was the
Sea Kelpie from London to Mauritius out 45 days - she promised
to report us as having 104 passengers all well out 35 days. This vessel
was very slow in signalling - and our officers were nearly out of
temper with them. We had been waiting for them all morning. In about
two hours after we met and spoke the Fides of New York from
Calleo to London with Guano - a large and good looking ship. She had been
out 75 days. Also promised to report us. These short meetings tend
very much to vary the monotony of a dull lazy day at sea, but we regret
that they are so very short - a mere 'How do you do' and 'Good bye.'
Feel very languid this evening and fear that dear Rebecca's spirits
have been rather unfavourably affected by some cause. I do pray God
she may soon be herself again. What a dull voyage this has been to me.
Except ourselves none dull - all are contriving ways of enjoyment and
in some of them I have participated. Reading, Dress, Conversation etc.
I am sorry that cards have been introduced in the evenings. I do not
see my way in interfering in any way to prevent it. I must not appear
a meddler - they play only for amusement - no gambling - could not
be persuaded they are doing wrong. I think myself 'the appearance of
evil' and association are here the strongest argument against cards.
I bear a silent testimony against them in never being in the Cuddy while
they are on the table. Rebecca still taking a composing draught each
night.
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27 May, Saturday |
Wind light and contrary. Preparing for tomorrow. Thoughts reverting
to - whether or not to pass scenes and oppressing me, with regret.
Memory involuntarily starting before my mind in quick succession places
of meeting - kind humble faces of men and women who loved me and gladly
waited on my ministrations - my days of visiting - my light heart when
the day was past and I returned to my home. All this is too much for me.
But Oh. My God art thou the strength of my heart? and will not I put
my trust in thee? Even if it be not thy will that I shall ever again
have as kind a people and such a pleasant home - Oh do Thou cause the
light of Thy countenance to arise upon me and this will put gladness
in my heart more than all earthly comforts. My God give me a strong
persevering enduring faith and fit me for my trials, and my duties.
If it be Thy Holy Will fit my dear partner to bear with me the burden
and heat of the day and may she be strengthened in body, mind and spirit
to endure whatever of inconvenience vexation and hardship may be mingled
in our lot. And do Thou mercifully Heavenly Father be the guide of our
dear children's youth and their portion forever.
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28 May, Sunday |
Wind very light and still contrary. Preached morning and evening
from 2nd. Kings - Is the heart right . The Sea Kelpie
had again come up with us - and some signalling passed between us.
There was considerable differences between the longitude according
to their reckoning and ours. Theirs was 35 degrees west and ours 32
degrees 30 minutes west. Our Captain has two chronometers and at the
islands we sighted he had very little alterations to make so that they
were going well. There must be some great inaccuracy on the part of
one or the other.
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29 May, Monday |
Wind scarcely any better. Towards evening became more favourable
but still very light - making about 4 knots S.E.E. While there was
an undesirable calm without, this morning there was rather a sudden and
violent storm within the Cuddy. A lady and gentleman being the Dramatis
Personae. I would greatly have
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preferred an hour's violent rocking
in a snorting breeze. What a sad exhibition of our Irish propensity
for quarrelling and Billingsgate before our English acquaintances.
This little fracas made me very miserable and was a great loss indeed to
my dear Rebecca whose nerves were much shook and her depression greatly
increased.
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30 May, Tuesday |
Scarcely any wind. A dull stupid day. Commenced to rain before
breakfast and continued drizzling and thick till this evening.
Then however the atmosphere became clearer and there was promise of an
increasing wind. A ship in full sail was seen after us but was steering
much to the Eastward. We have been doing very little for some days past
so that our voyage is likely to be longer than was at first expected.
A dolphin was taken by the Boatswain today.
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31 May, Wednesday |
The wind was good and favourable during the past night and continued so
today. Going 9 knots. For some days a good many birds have been flying
about - those most numerous are called parsons - a black bird with
stripes on either side its throat - thought to resemble a clergyman's
bands - hence the name. This day one or two Cape Pigeons were seen - a
very pretty bird of mixed colours which flies without any apparent motion
of the wings which are extended to their full length but making an angle
with the back. The latitude today is 25 deg. 30m.
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1 June 1854, Thursday |
Wind not so good. Sailing East and one point by North expecting to
pass the Island of Tristan de Acuna to the North of it. Our progress has
not been so good as formerly for a week and more. We have great reason
to be thankful that the health of all passengers is very good and that
no accident of any kind has occurred since we sailed. General harmony
prevails but there is a trifling undercurrent of scandal which I do hope
will not increase so as to mar our comfort.
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2 June, Friday |
Still sailing East by North. A pretty strong wind blowing.
Going nearly due east part of the day. Sighted
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a large vessel astern of us in full sail. We reduced sail that
she might come up with us before evening. The Captain being anxious
to be confirmed as to the correctness or otherwise of his longitude,
the Water Kelpie and Fides having differed
considerably. The vessel which was a very large one proved to be the
Terra Nova from Greenwich to Melbourne with passengers - out
46 days. Her Longitude and ours were exactly the same which was very
satisfactory to the Captain.
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3 June, Saturday |
Wind strong and still contrary. Tacking so as to make about 25 miles
Eastward out of 200 miles sailing. Unable to sit at our Cabin table to
write today on account of the great layover of the vessel to one side.
Studied the text Isiah 30.10. with the assistance of Chalmer's Sermon for
the Scottish Pulpit. Thank God my dear Rebecca is a good deal better
and I am now fondly hoping she will gradually but surely recover from
the depression under which she has been suffering.
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4 June, Sunday |
Wind strong and favourable sailing S.E. Too boisterous to
have preaching either on the Poop or Main Deck. Preached in the
Cuddy - attendance not so good as on former occasions. I regret to
observe the great carelessness of all the ship's officers and can't but
think it is mainly owing to this that none of the seamen attend the
Sabbath Services. Our passengers are all formalists - and there do
not appear to be any who have a scriptural view of the sacredness of the
Sabbath except the Presbyterians. The views of our Cuddy Episcopalians
on this subject are very hazy and the English Steerage and second Cabin
passengers are all either Unitarian or ?.
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5 June, Monday |
Wind still good and blowing in the same direction as yesterday.
Seasickness returned to me this morning with mitigated horrors.
I was considerably better after breakfast. Not easy to maintain the
Center of Gravity these days as the ship heaves tremendously. My dear
mother got two falls in her cabin yesterday but
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fortunately she was not
much hurt. I am reading Macaulay's History of England - a masterly
performance.
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6 June, Tuesday |
The pitching of the ship very great during last night and our berths
very uncomfortable but our progress was very good - going for some
time at 11 knots. Wind continued good during the day. I regret that
I have not marked the Longitude and Latitude of each day as my journal
proceeded but I expect to be able to append this to it when completed
if God will that we shall reach the end of this voyage in safety.
From the direction we have been sailing the last three days there is
still some likelihood of our seeing Tristan de Acuna . We have seen
albatrosses during the last few days flying near to the ship. They are
said to measure sometimes from 15 ft. to 20 ft. between the tips of
their wings - the largest we have yet seen might measure about 6 ft.
They are occasionally taken with a hook and line. There is now a very
great change in the temperature. The children wear their coats on deck
and we can bear a blanket over us at night. I believe we need not expect
to have much less motion than we have at present to the end of the voyage.
The stern cabins on this account are very ineligible.
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7 June, Wednesday |
The wind strong and fair. Made 240 miles yesterday. Latitude 37
degrees South - very cold. This is the anniversary of my ordination in
Fahan 12 years ago. Oh God how little have I done throughout those years
to promote Thy Glory and the Welfare of immortal souls in comparison of
what I might have done - how unworthy and guilty in thy sight - how
little penitent for sin - and how little thankful for many many mercies.
Oh God vouchsafe to me Thy Grace that I may henceforth walk worthy of
the lord to all well pleasing and that I may constantly glorify thee
with my body and spirit which are thine.
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8 June, Thursday |
Weather similar to yesterday. The reckoning shows a progress of
243 miles during the last 24 hours. Tomorrow the Captain expects our
longitude will be East. Children can't be on deck
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so much on account of
the cold - and until they retire to their berths in the evening the Cuddy
is all noise and confusion. I regret to say the Card playing continues
and that no good is being done on board in the way of mental, moral or
religious improvement by the majority of the passengers.
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9 June, Friday |
A gloomy miserable day, cold wet and gusty and on this day the cold
relentless hand of death was among us. A sailor lad William James
fell and was drowned. There was a heavy sea running at the time and
although the life buoy was thrown to him and the lifeboat lowered
with 7 adventurous fellows headed by Walker 3rd. mate the effort was
unsuccessful. Poor James had sunk to rise no more till the last trumpet
shall sound. His father, a seaman, had been drowned about 5 months
previous and his four brothers are sailors. He, it is said, left his
widowed mother in opposition to her wish and was alas like the majority
of sailors a careless thoughtless lad. This accident overwhelmed many of
the sailors and passengers with violent emotions of grief - myself among
the rest. The two or three minutes of suspense before ascertaining who
was overboard and after hearing that someone was struggling in the waves
were the most agonising I ever experienced. I was sitting in the stern
cabin and the children were on deck and I knew them to be so stirring and
venturous (especially Sam). Most earnestly did I pray for the poor boys
soul and I think many prayers were offered for him at that moment and
most sincerely did I feel what I knew would be the poor mother's grief
when the said intelligence will reach her and I wept burning tears at the
sad fate of the unfortunate sailor boy. It is likely that a subscription
will be raised among the passengers for the bereaved parent.
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10 June, Saturday |
Had a relentless sleepless night. Weather improved this morning.
Wind still favourable. Engaged in preparation for tomorrow's
services - hoping to be able to improve the sailors death so as to lead
us to reflect of the shortness and uncertainty of human life.
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11 June, Sunday |
Very fine winter's day. Great flight of birds about the ship.
Pigeons, Malamauks, (?) Undertakers, Petrels, etc. Several of the
passengers showed their disregard of Sabbath observance by spending
the day catching or making vain attempts to catch some of the large
birds. The attendance at the divine worship was better than on last
Sabbath - preached from 2nd. James 20.3. There is but a step between
me and Death .
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12 June, Monday |
Wind still light but favourable. Slight showers but a fine grey day.
Not making more than 6 knots. The moonlight is not very clear - the
moon looking larger than she ever appeared at home - the atmosphere
very transparent.
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13 June, Tuesday |
Still sailing South East by East - wind not strong making 7 and
8 knots. Not able to see the sun today - by dead reckoning expect to
be in 18 degrees E.L. which is the longitude of the Cape. This weather
considered very unusual in this latitude. We have been all along led to
expect coarse weather at The Cape and it is by far the most agreeable
we have had. The most experienced may err in their calculations.
Warm though pleasant enough we would be getting on better if we had a
breeze sufficient to make the motion unpleasant. This evening I was
rendered very unhappy by hearing unpleasant reports of McL. no one can
be trusted. I have never doubted that person.
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14 June, Wednesday |
The wind more easterly and consequently not so favourable. The weather
is still very pleasant. The time is hanging heavily enough on my hands
and there are many things which often make me wish this voyage was over,
or that I had never left home. God knows how far my fear may be realised
or removed - as for pleasant or hopeful anticipations I have none.
I will not certainly be able to look back on my traversing the Ocean as
a time of pleasure. I would rather it were blotted altogether from the
page of memory. I believe God has desired it as a time of special trial.
I have found none to associate with among the passengers - my relatives,
affinity to whose society I have looked forward with pleasure
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are so
estranged from me that we seldom do more than speak and my wife in whose
society I could have found ample compensation for all this had she been
as she was wont to be, but she is so hopeless and despondent that she
has not a word for my ear but what is calculated to increase my misery.
May God be merciful and enlighten my darkness.
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15 June, Thursday |
Very delightful day - much like a fine April day at home - a good
deal on deck today. Any pleasure I might have enjoyed however was marred
by a most unpleasant investigation I was called on to make of a malicious
story raised on our servant by one of the steerage passengers. She was
evidently maligned but nothing could be made of the unmannerly ruffians
who wantonly injured her though the Captain tried as well as myself.
I pity her very much - but am of the opinion we would have been better
wanting a servant altogether as so little dependence can be placed on them
and the additional exertion which the want of one would have rendered
necessary on the part of Rebecca would have been good for her now and
would have been an excellent preparation for the hardships of Colonial
life. Sister Dorcas has commenced reading Macaulay's History of England.
I am getting on with the 2nd. volume but though much interested can
somehow or other get on but very slowly. Day now very short. 8 o'clock
this night wind improving - going 10 knots.
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16 June, Friday |
Wind rose pretty high and we had a good deal of rocking. Sails
shortened at 4 o'clock A.M. continued to blow half a gale till towards
the afternoon when the rain came on. Rained very heavily in the evening.
The night pitch dark. Averaging 8 knots. Some of us very seasick
this morning. I had a narrow escape from being severely hurt by my
foot slipping off the ladder of the poop deck. May we be thankful to
the God of Providence who is continually preserving us. It was on this
day week the poor sailor boy was drowned. How helpless we are without
the help of God - may we wait continually on him.
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17 June, Saturday |
A very dark damp cold miserable day. I could scarcely see at table
today and even in our cabin to read and write was very straining on
the eyes. I was employed in preparation for tomorrow's services as I
would have been at Carnshanagh, but many acquaintances and friends are
this day in Derry and some of them will likely be thinking of us and
talking of my successor who is perhaps chosen by this time. God enable
me to think with equanimity on this subject.
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18 June, Sunday |
Wind contrary today. Fortunately not much of it. A clear and
dry day. Reading in the morning from Let no man deceive himself
and in the evening expounded from Romans 3.21. to end. The attendance
was pretty good - for the first time some of the second cabin passengers
here present who are said to be Unitarians. I believe I do not preach
to please my hearers but with a desire to profit them. My thoughts were
frequently in Fahan today. May God bless all the people there and order
all things for their good.
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19 June, Monday |
Wind still contrary - unable to make anything of it. A dark and
gloomy day - the most disagreeable we have had since we came aboard.
The passengers generally seem affected by the weather - spirits
dull - little chess playing and little conversation. Wind rose
considerably towards evening and sail was shortened in anticipation of
a gale - blowing very fresh towards 9 o'clock P.M. we have reason to
fear a night of rocking and general disquiet.
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20 June, Tuesday |
Last night we had the first real gale of wind which we encountered
since leaving. My dear wife was sleeping calmly by my side and suddenly
stirred during the night. I felt very uneasy but not positively afraid.
The roaring of the wind was certainly terrific but the waves did
not rise what is termed 'mountain high'. The children slept as usual
very well and none of them awoke at all except Sam who asked me if I
thought there was any fear of our being wrecked tonight and if this was
a hurricane. I reassured him and he fell asleep almost immediately after.
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Notwithstanding Sam's stirring disposition, he feels and thinks.
This morning winds still high and the air piercing cold. Moderated a
little towards the evening. Making no way, tacking in order to hold
our own - sometimes to the South West and again to the North East.
Considerably calmer towards 10 o'clock and a general expectation is
therefore entertained of a good night's repose. My dear Mother very
much requires it - She was very much shaken last night.
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21 June, Wednesday |
Wind light but rather more favourable - sailing nearly East but
not exceeding 4 knots. A dry but cold raw day. Everything is sadly
monotonous - and it is certainly a great trial of patience this hope
deferred and especially as we all along supposed that after passing
the Cape we would be assured of good winds. It is bad to expect too
much - when we do so we are almost always disappointed. Goldsmith is
interesting me these heavy days - what a chaste style attained apparently
without effort and how very pleasing because very natural. Strange that
so few follow nature - whether created by authors or morbidly bred in
readers and demanding gratification the present taste appears to me
vitiated because unnatural to be easily understood by the unlearned
seems to be dreaded as a damning quality by the writers of the present
day and words etymologically the most difficult, and abstruse are eagerly
seized and made to do service where simpler words would be very much
more suitable and expressive.
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22 June, Thursday |
Wind still very light. This is the sixth day since we have made
anything of it. Our voyage is likely to be a tedious one after
all - however we ought not to complain - we have had very little
interruption and comparatively little sickness and our treatment on
board is everything we could expect. I would write much more had I a
better way of doing so but I find this to be one of the unpracticable
things on shipboard and study is not less so. Except towards midnight
there is an unnecessary din, confused noises and heterogeneous sounds
sufficient to render impossible the collection of two successive
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and related ideas - except such as the mind has long habituated to
and which come without effort. There are indeed reasons of abstraction
when noises are harmless and the mental ear is deaf to them but on such
occasions my thoughts are invariably detected making a survey of past
scenes, places and persons with such vivid impressions that when the
reverie is passed I feel a kind of surprise that I cannot by a volition
realise the while. But alas; I cannot by a former volition I rendered
this impossible - my former home and people - Oh; how distant they are
and will I ever possess another home - will I ever be loved, by another
people? None but God could answer these questions and may He enable me
to wait patiently till it is his will to resolve them in the revolving
events of his good providence. For myself I fear not - I could conform
to any circumstance and preach the Gospel wherever I could find people
willing to hear me - but my dear wife and my dear children - this
often proves rather much for my faith - may God increase it and make
me feel assured that he will provide.
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23 June, Friday |
Sick and confined to my berth all day. Very little wind and not in
the right direction. The quiet favourable for me in my time of suffering
but not withstanding I would have preferred a measure of suffering had
we only been making good way. Rather better towards evening and have
reason to be thankful it is not worse with me.
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24 June, Saturday |
My health rather improved thank God. The weather still very fine
and the wind against us. Making absolutely no progress. Our Captain
seems rather disheartened by this delay. It teaches us how much we are
dependent on the will of providence and how little we can accomplish
by our own foresight, caution or prudence unless aided by a higher
power - endeavoured to make some preparation hoping to be able to
preach tomorrow forenoon. May we be kept mindful of the uncertainty of
all things here below and especially of that which hangs over the life
of man.
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25 June, Sunday |
The morning delightfully fine. We are sailing South West today - it
is rather discouraging but we must be submissive to the Divine Will and
wait the accomplishment of his gracious purposes. Preached this morning
on the parable of the ten virgins - the attendance was tolerable.
Distributed tracts among the passengers and sailors as I have done on
previous occasions. Having expressed regret to the sailors at not seeing
them at divine service although it came out unwillingly - still it
did come out with some of them that not being invited by their officers
was the only reason for their non-attendance. This I was sorry to hear
plainly answered though I had previously suspected as much and it fully
convinced me that were it not for the presence of the passengers there
would be no acknowledgment on this ship of the obligations of Religion.
I was glad to find that an old sailor - a Prussian - had a New Testament
in his native language. May the tracts distributed be blessed to some
of them. In the evening I had determined not to preach and had made no
preparation but after Dr. Sealy had read the evening service the people
sat expecting and rather than announce myself that I would not address
them I opened my bible and thinking at the moment of the suitableness
of the 14th. Chapter of Moses, I lectured from it acceptably and I trust
usefully.
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26 June, Monday |
Another fine day with unfavourable wind. Thermometer indicating
a considerable rise in temperature. If we can judge of the winter
in New Zealand from this weather it must be very pleasant but it
will require to possess many advantages to equal our own dear home
that we have left. My health is not yet everything I could desire.
I am a good deal enfeebled and a very thing affects me injuriously.
The gossip of our fellow passengers is unceasing and the appetite
for scandal insatiable. I have no sympathy with the lovers of such
commodities but they seem to amuse those who deal in ?????????
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as if
they were of less questionable value. Walked on Deck a good deal with
sister Dorcas today and felt the better of it. Played a game of chess
with Sam for the first time.
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27 June, Tuesday |
Beautiful as on a summers morn, the sun rose today. We are heading
East but the wind is so light we are scarcely making any way. The birds
are so tame today that they are swimming in flocks alongside the ship and
diving for anything thrown to them - a fine albatross was among them for
a little but all efforts to induce him to take a bait were unsuccessful.
Our officers think there are indications of a sturdy increase of wind.
I may here transcribe a few verses I hurriedly wrote on the Death of
the sailor who was drowned on Friday, 9th. June, as formerly referred
to.
Drowned
It was a day of wind and rain,
And waves were running high,
And we were sailing on the main
Beneath a Southern Sky.
All hearts were light for hope's bright star
Had shone upon our way,
And pointed to a land afar
Glad with her own bright ray.
Full half our voyage we have passed,
Nor cause for grief we had
And now the full sail beat to the mast,
Who could then well be sad?
Chief of our ship a man of heart,
In duty firm yet bland
Did well perform the Master's part
And well our comfort planned.
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His mates were favourites with us all
True British sailors both
Ever alert at duty's call
To kindness never loth.
The hardy crew with cheerful song
Performed the mild command
Boldly the slippery decks along
Or while aloft they stand.
That day in various past time we
Clothed time in lightest dress
Some gazed upon the troubled sea
Some read Some played chess.
While thus engaged the cry arose
A man is overboard
And still the vessel onward goes
And still the billows roared.
But' 'to' the gallant ship soon 'lies'
Owning the helm-man's power
The revolving lifebuoy swiftly flies
Brave hearts the lifeboat lower.
But all in vain - the struggle's past
The charm of life is o'er.
He looks that awful look, the last
He sinks to rise no more
And who has perished from our sight?
Ah, whose sad fate was this
Whose day has thus dissolved in night?
For misery or bliss.
When first the alarming cry was rained
This was a fearful thought
And wives and mothers Jesus blest
They found the ones they sought.
Ah, he was friendless the lost one,
A lonely sailor boy.
Few tears were shed when he was gone
Little it marred our joy
But the widowed Mother of the lout
Of him oft speaks and prays
Thinking her darling still is tossed
Upon the storm waves.
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But when to Merrie England's Shore
Our ship again is borne
She learns her son returns no more
Then bitterly she'll morne
And often, often she will tell
Even till she finds her grave
O her son who from the 'Cashmere' fell
And sank beneath the wave.
But while of the sailor's fate we think
And of his mother's woe
Let us not forget how near the brink
Of the abyss below.
There's but a step 'tween us and death
That hand will seize us all
And mayhap sudden take our breath
Be ready for the call.
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28 June, Wednesday |
Wind more favourable but little of it. Expected to increase during
the night - this expectation has begun, to be realised towards bedtime,
naturally tending to elevate one's spirits, when a scene ensues between
our Captain and Mr. Motherell which no one present will ever forget.
Mr. Motherell certainly gave offence but a more terrible castigation
could not have been inflicted by the Little member had it been of
never so much more grievous a nature. With my whole heart I pitied him,
for I well knew it was because of the deprecatory whispering about
his previous conduct which had emboldened the Captain to go far for so
trifling a matter. A slight interference of mine on the occasion was
likely to bring down on me the indignation not only of the Chief in the
affair but of some unconditional admirers of his.
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29 June, Thursday |
A fair wind and plenty of it. We are going nearly 9 knots this
evening. Thank God the distance between us and New Zealand is fast
decreasing. We commenced a game of chess this evening of three a
side - on the one side The Captain, Mrs. Nixon and Joe Cochrane and
on the other Dr. Sealy, Miss Hinde and myself. It is likely to be
interesting. There are no incidents occurring worth recording and were
it not for books this monotony would be terrible but with the variety of
books and good health there need not be much ennui felt even
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on board
a ship by any who are at all fond of reading. I recorded as a fact
often observed by us of late that time is passing with as much apparent
rapidity as ever it did in our lives. We almost wonder to think that
ten weeks have passed away since we left Graves End.
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30 June, Friday |
Wind still fresh and fair. Getting on very satisfactorily.
There seems to be no approach to the media of usual civilities between
the belligerent parties of the other evening. It is passing strange
that even in society so small that a ship's Cuddy can contain it there
would not be uninterrupted harmony even for a few weeks. Alas; for poor
fallen human nature. How much that is hard unkind and malignant is it
constantly exhibiting - some members of our little company breathe only
to their own satisfaction in this polluted atmosphere.
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1 July 1854, Saturday |
Finished our game of chess after breakfast this morning - our side
successful - we played with great caution - perhaps the other side
possessed really more skill but as in the game of life one false move may
turn the balance either way. By the way in this respect the playing of
a game of chess is a very good emblem of what should be the regulation
of our conduct at all times. How many ruined men can trace all their
misfortunes to one false step taken hastily and without due consideration.
Indeed there are very few who have walked so wisely all their lives but
as not to have been guilty of some indiscretions which though the evil
consequences of them may have been in a great measure retrieved by their
after conduct have never the less so far proved injurious as to render
them out run and distanced in the race of life by those competitors who
acted with greater foresight and produced throughout but more especially
at the start. This day wind increased very much towards evening and
a storm is apprehended. I have been preparing for tomorrow for a good
part of the day.
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2 July, Sunday |
A memorable day. Last night towards morning the gale increased
to a frightful extent and about 1 o'clock the storm was raging with
great violence. All were in bed in our cabin but of course sweet sleep
did not visit us. There were great apprehensions entertained for the
safety of the ship from the violence and
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long continuance of the storm.
The huge billows were terrific and when one of them would strike the
ship it was like the shock a cannon shot would produce. At dawn this
morning there was no abatement of the tempest and very few sat down at the
breakfast table. We had prayer but to have preached would have been quite
impracticable. I was surprised to see the insensibility of some and I was
glad to see some touched when I scarcely hoped anything would influence.
I am told some of the sailors were reading the Bible and praying and I do
hope my informant was correct. One wave was so immense that the Captain
felt assured it would sweep the decks from stem to stern. Fortunately
only the tail of it struck us and we escaped with very little damage.
The top of the bulwark on one side was broken off with a huge crash which
made all who heard it think the ship was greatly damaged. For my own part
I thought the ship could not survive long in such a sea and my mind was
filled with a multitude of thoughts many of them distressing. I prayed
almost incessantly and felt that as far as myself was concerned I could
cast myself on God's mercy through Christ Jesus but I greatly desired
to live and wondered that we had all been brought by many apparently
strange coincidences to perish in this distant ocean. Not till after
6 o'clock this evening was there any great abatement either of wind or
sea but after that time both decreased rapidly and we have the prospect
of getting at least a tolerably good night's rest. I trust we are all
truly thankful that God has preserved us and that very trifling injury
of any kind has been done and I do hope that it may have been a storm
bringing to some souls the influences of the spirit like mighty winds
and torrents fierce - breaking down the strong holds of sin and driving
them to Jesus. The Cashmere appears to be a good tight ship - she
made very little additional water during the storm though it would not
be at all surprising if she had. It was to me a matter of surprise that
after so much straining she did not leak at every joining and many waves
struck her with so much force that I thought them quite sufficient to
stave her in. As to the grandeur etc. of the storm I cannot speak as I
did not see it. I neither felt inclined nor deemed it prudent to go out
during
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its continuance and if it be God's will I would never wish to see
the sea raging so awfully as it did during those hours and I am sure I
will never be able to look on a troubled Ocean without feelings of painful
sympathy for those who may be in distress in the midst of it.
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3 July, Monday |
Thank God the storm is altogether past and we have this day a good
and fair wind. There is a considerable swell and the ship is rocking
a great deal. A motion the most unpleasant to be experienced at sea.
Among the Steerage passengers and Sailors I found many truly grateful
for our merciful deliverance. May the great goodness of God not be soon
forgotten by any of us. May our vows made in the time of our trouble
never be forgotten and may our spared lives be devoted to his service.
How heartily I wish this voyage over.
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4 July, Tuesday |
Good strong favourable breeze today. Going 9 knots - dark
weather - very much like December in Ireland. I find I can do very
little in the way of reading or writing. Before breakfast there is
not time or space. Breakfast is scarcely over when the confusion of
preparation for the children's dinner commences and when that is over
a very short time intervenes before the Cuddy is again occupied by the
Stewards in laying the table for our own dinner and when that is over and
dinner past it is almost night and absolutely nothing can be done till
after tea and then the noise of the children playing, general conversation
and card playing is so great and so incessant that anything requiring
much thought is not to be undertaken except to prove a bitter failure.
Yesterday some of our children were loud in their complaints that at
dinner they had not got a share of some roast pork - but this morning
several children were confined with sickness owing to their having
eaten plentifully of pork which was under-done - so that the children
found it was good for them not to have been permitted to get what they
thought it was an injustice to be deprived of. Let me learn patience
and contentment from this circumstance.
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5 July, Wednesday |
Wind still continues favourable. We are getting on very satisfactorily
and have reason to hope that in three weeks at furtherest we will reach
New Plymouth. We will pass the Island of St Paul this evening - leaving
it more than 100 miles to the north of us.
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We had another game of Chess today Mr. Cochrane and Mrs. Nixon being
winners. It seems rather inclined to blow hard tonight but I think it
will not increase to a storm.
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6 July, Thursday |
This morning about half past four I was awoken with the noise of
a very heavy sea breaking on our Quarter and washing the poop deck.
There was very little wind after this but I was surprised to hear after
I got up that there had been a great deal of wind during the night and
that many of the passengers scarcely slept at all including my Father
and my Mother. It appears there was a good deal of alarm among the
Steerage passengers and for the first time I heard a whisper of something
not well calculated to increase our confidence in an individual on whom
very much depends and who is said to have been in a condition last night
disqualifying him for the performance of his duty and at a time when
the consequences might have been serious. Thank God my dear Rebecca,
the children and myself slept well as usual and were undisturbed by any
fear of danger. Beginning to think this day that I must endeavour
to find leisure to arrange some sermons, addresses etc. for my first
public appearances in Auckland should God in his good providence bring
us thither in safety. For a week past my dear Rebecca is going out
much more among other passengers than formerly and is, thank God in
all respects herself again. Father, Mother and she are gaining flesh
perceptibly. Dorcas the children and I with difficulty holding our own.
I often think of our former home and cannot yet but feel many regrets.
God knows when I shall cease to regret if ever. May I be fitted for my
trials. It grieves us very much that we have not with us those things
our dear brothers will be expecting us to have. I can't help it but
this thought very much hinders the gladness of anticipating our Reunion.
God knows I can scarcely account for our not at least procuring some
little present for them but the sad disappointment we experienced on
leaving made us neglect buying things.
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7 July, Friday |
Very cold today - wind favourable - blowing from N.W. Several
showers - decks very wet and slippery. The Steerage is becoming
very uncomfortable and I have very little pleasure in visiting
it. With the exception of one Scottish family consisting of four
individuals - Mrs. McKenzie, her two daughters and son-in-law there is to
all appearances not even a professor of Religion in the Steerage. My own
countrymen are manifestly more careless than I expected. Moses Wallace
has exchanged for a place in the second cabin where he is much more
comfortable and I hope better situated as to the matter of associates.
The carpenter, a Scotsman, and apparently a very civil as well as a
steady laborious able man has repaired the bulwark etc. broken by the
late storm so that the Cashmere looks herself again.
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8 July, Saturday |
Wind fair and good. A bracing cold but dry day. A pleasant day for
taking exercise on deck, but I was in my cabin from breakfast to dinner
preparing for tomorrow and meditating in solitude on a great variety
of subjects. I always find that when left much alone thoughts of home
always intrude and in spite of resistance will occupy much of my time.
Notwithstanding the tiresome sameness of our long voyage the weeks are
passing rapidly away and in looking back I can scarcely think yet so it
is, that we are this day 12 weeks on board the Cashmere .
We cannot reckon on less than four weeks more. They will pass away
however and if they bring us to Auckland it will be with very mingled
feelings I shall look on it and land upon its shore. Oh that there were
no remaining doubts in my mind as to this being my providential path
but alas - I am much more in doubt on this subject than I was before
leaving Ireland. There I was convinced I saw my way clearly and felt
comparatively little regret.
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9 July, Sunday |
A day of squalls and snow showers. On this sabbath morning many
of the passengers and sailors were pelting each other with snowballs.
The moral obligation of the sabbath seems to be almost wholely denied or
disregarded by nearly all the English passengers. I preached this day
morning and evening from Exodus 34, 26, and 27 on the glorious name of
our God as revealed by himself. Oh that we all may
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be enabled to fear
and love that sacred Name and to subscribe ourselves by it.
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10 July, Monday |
A good fair wind carrying us towards the hoped for land. Had some
pleasant and profitable conversation in the Steerage with Mrs. McKenzie
today. How very indicative of their good sense appears to me the very
tone and accent of these Scotch people. My heart warms to them very
much - but when I reach Auckland will the hearts of the Scotch people
there warm towards me, an Irishman. This I very much fear - The power
of prejudice is very great and hard to overcome. One of our Cuddy
passengers, young Mrs. Hammerton is virtually Scotch - being brought
up in Scotland from her childbirth and is a nice agreeable person - but
it almost seems to me anomalous to find her notwithstanding all that is
Scotch about her, an Episcopalian. Her husband is a very obliging kind
hearted fellow - they have two fine children and he is only 23. In this
respect he has shared a little of our Irish imprudence and improvidence
as calculating people deem the qualities which lead to early marriages.
With all my heart I wish that they may never have any reason themselves
to consider their union to have been characterised by imprudence.
His father and Mother, sisters and brothers are passengers. His father
was a solicitor and a farmer in England and taken out with £1000
worth of machinery. His married son is to be his Engineer.
They are to farm and have thrashing machines - sawmills - flourmills
etc. Their cousins Mr. and Miss Hinde accompany them whose father is
vicar of Featherstone in England. Mr. Hinde is also an Engineer and
a Draughtsmen.
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11 July, Tuesday |
Last night it blew half a gale at 4 o'clock this morning J. Cochrane
came into our Cabin to put down the dead lights and we scarcely slept
after. The precaution is frequently necessary but no seas struck our
quarter last night. The wind has not ceased throughout the day but
it is very favourable and we are getting along well. This is Sam's
birthday - he is ten years old today and in his body's growth and in
mental capacity few boys of ten exceed him, and for this we are
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bound to thank God but we are kept humble by reflecting that he
exhibits a good deal of waywardness and forwardness which while they
may be owing in some measure to his mental activity make him impatient
of restraint, show us how much we ought to endeavour to direct his mind
to those subjects which may exercise a sobering and chastening influence
upon him and destroy the natural pride of his heart. Mrs. Carrington,
a second cabin passenger, who has been the most delicate person in
the ship all the voyage gave birth last night to a stillborn child.
The association recalls to my mind the little child born on board on
the 11th May and whom I baptised. He is thriving well and is a good
quiet baby. I addressed to him a few lines which I insert:
To The Ocean Child
Hail little stranger, child of Ocean
Sleeping on thy mother's breast.
Calmly in the wildest motion
As when winds are sunk to rest.
That morn when first we bade thee welcome
To this moving breathing Earth world
Scarce a cloud was in the welcome
Scarce a breath the waters curled
And lovely was that Sabbath morning
When we met for worship as our wont
In innocence thy meek adorning
They brought you to the sacred font.
And while winds here gently murmuring
Prayer of heaven for thee was made
And for thee unconscious slumbering
Vows were uttered to be paid.
Thy father at thy baptism gave thee
The names our ship and Captain bore
Which with his own may heaven save thee
Make thy name 'George Cashmere Shaw'.
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The sea on thy natal morn resembled
Thy own placid gentle sleep -
In its fury we have filled with trembling
Deep wildly calling unto deep.
So when you may hereafter often
Be tossed upon life's stormy sea
May God in love the rough winds soften,
When they blow, dear child, on thee.
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12 July, Wednesday |
Very cold day - wind still fair but fell considerably towards
the evening when we had two or three very heavy showers of hail.
The barometer has been getting gradually lower for some days and I
think there are such apprehensions of sudden squalls that we are not
carrying as much cloth as we might other wise do. The number of the
crew is scarcely equal to the requirements of the ship and certainly not
equal to an emergency. I had a long walk on deck with J.C. today and our
conversation awakened fresh regrets in my mind on account of many of the
occurrences of the last few months and especially the unkind treatment
not to say the positive injustice which I have had to endure at the hands
of the man whom I had always regarded as being at least one of the most
scrupulously honest men I have ever met with. Who then can be trusted?
Who has the ability and the will to befriend me and mine? I am not sure
of possessing any such earthly friend - but I know if we seek God with
our whole heart we will never want a friend whose friendship is better
than that of all the world beside.
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13 July, Thursday |
Wind very dull during last night - improved after 10 o'clock today
and continues favourable blowing from the South West. There are still
frequent showers of rain and hail and the weather altogether very wintry.
The barometer is lower today than it has been since the commencement of
the voyage. It is down to 'Rain'.
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I am amused and surprised at the continuing gossip of our
Cuddy party - not a day passes but some new piece of scandal or
something approaching it turns up. Sometimes the ladies sometimes the
servants - the Captain at one time mixed up in it - Mr. Wetherell
at another - Mr. Sedgewick first mate at another. Some all smiles
today - will be at daggers drawn tomorrow. Some all compliments
and courtesy to an individual when they are defaming on every fitting
opportunity. It is an atmosphere I never liked to draw a breath in and
here I am choked with it. God grant I may escape it if we get ashore.
Before leaving home I got more than enough of it and I fear it will
always surround some people wherever they are. Oh that we all remember
the precept 'By love serve one another' and 'Let all good things be done
in Charity'. Query - Will any person of Discernment who unhappily
possesses the un-amiable weakness of loving to exhibit the failings of
others not try to conceal that disposition from those whose good opinion
is desirable lest the knowledge of it would rather lower the individual
in their estimation?
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14 July, Friday |
Going on prosperously. All the passengers in good health and with few
exceptions in tolerable spirits. Those who are in complaining mood have
themselves to blame as they are dissatisfied with every trifling annoyance
and regard some slight unintentional neglect as injustice of partiality.
In any disputes which have occurred I have hitherto most carefully avoided
any interference and by the Grace of God will do so during the remainder
of this voyage. I have as I believe been treated very coolly by a person
at whose hand I did not expect it but I have not resented it and if
there be any misunderstanding I would be very glad to have it removed,
as it is my sincere wish to retain the friendship of old friends while
I endeavour to make new ones. Nothing certainly is more vexing to me
than to be slighted by those whom I respect and whom I deemed entertained
similar feelings towards myself. I feel how unpleasant I am situated here
and especially when viewed in contra distinction to my situation in
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my own dear home. There I was surrounded by affectionate friends and
people who knew and loved me - here I am not known or understood - I
have no doubt I am regarded as distant and morose - and such is the
bigotry and such the prejudice of these high Church people that I fear
their attendance upon Ordinances in which I minister can only be resolved
into a sort of respectful suffering which is owing very likely to the
good fellowship, attention and suavity of J. Cochrane than to anything
else.
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15 July, Saturday |
A good breeze today and getting on very nicely. Occupied during the
day in preparation for tomorrow. Beginning to feel very nervous about my
first public preaching in Auckland if in the good providence of God we
be brought safely thither. Oh that I were constantly anxious to please
God and to promote his Glory and the advancement of Christ's Kingdom.
May God give me a single eye and simplicity of aim and purpose. The day
is considerably longer which I feel to be a great comfort especially at
dinner as in the shortest days and dark weather it was almost groping
with me. This evening I was able to see easily at our cabin window the
dial of my watch at half past five o'clock.
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16 July, Sunday |
A squally day - very severe showers of hail - not so cold as
some of the past days however - wind right aft and not being able
to carry much cloth on account of the suddenness and frequency of the
squalls - the rolling was very great and rendered the conducting of the
services a little troublesome in the matter of posture. Preached in the
morning from Acts 26.28. 'Almost thou persuadest me to be a Christian'
and in the evening from 1st. Thes. 5.20. 'Despise not Prophesings'.
The attendance was as usual. For the first time the Captain was absent
from both services. He appeared to be generally an attentive hearer but
he manifested no signs of seriousness in matters of Religion - and alas,
the same thing might be said truly of the vast majority of our passengers.
How true it is that 'The world lieth in Wickedness'
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and well may we ask looking not only at the state of the world but at
the state of Christian Churches 'when the Son of man cometh will he find
faith on the Earth'. The squalls are becoming more numerous towards
turning in time and there is little promise of a quiet night's rest.
May our trust be in the name of the Lord.
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17 July, Monday |
Last night after retiring my spirit was chafed far beyond what the
offence warranted and I was disposed to look only at the trifling causes
of vexation which sometimes arise and to receive no impression from the
multitude of mercies and loving kindnesses with which God is daily loading
me and I suffered my tongue to utter unkind and bitter words which even
at the moment my heart condemned. How frail we are - How desperately
wicked and deceitful are our depraved passions and when we went from want
of prayerful watching permit ourselves to be delivered over to the storm
of anger we are like a ship tempest tossed without rudder mercilessly
driven, beaten and shocked by the chafing surges pursuing each other in
quick succession - seeming to vie with each other in the impetuosity
of their fury and in an ungoverned eagerness to engulf their victim.
The night turned out a rolling disturbed sleepless one. There were some
very heavy hail showers with a good deal of wind with them. The greatest
roll yet felt in the voyage filled us with momentary alarm. I really
thought the ship was gone quite down on her side and that she would not
right again. Thank God it was much better after all than we expected
it to be and though we spent a sleepless night we made good progress as
today at 12 o'clock we had made 225 miles. This day the wind is still aft
but not so good and now at 10 o'clock p.m. it is almost calm.
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18 July, Tuesday |
Foul wind this morning but little of it. During the night the wind
was fair but changed at 8 A.M. and we have sailed today S.E. by South
at about 4 knots. The barometer is very low and falling still more.
There are apprehensions of a storm but we are in the hands of a kind
providence who may send us more favourable weather than our meteorological
phenomena seems to indicate. Old Mr. Hammerton
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and my father look at the Barometer about every half hour from 7 in the
morning till 9 or 10 at night and are sanguine or melancholic according
to its rise or fall. Doubtless others feel an equal anxiety but do
not manifest it and some of the knowing ones occasionally hoax the old
gentlemen by moving up the index and thus leading them to believe that
the mercury is falling with hurricane boding rapidly. The rain fell
in torrents during the day so that the fear of wind was a little abated
but when the rain was over and the glass still looking down the anxiety
was renewed and not a few turn in tonight expecting a severe gale before
morning.
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19 July, Wednesday |
Fine clear morning - wind foul but scarcely any of it - mere
puffing - sails hanging loosely - the ship rocking lazily. Last night
was a very restless, sleepless one to the most of us - the rocking
was incessant - a continuing see-saw - most wearying to the flesh.
I was up and down frequently during the night feeling no inclination to
sleep but anxious to keep books from falling, mugs from breaking, water
from spilling etc. Several breakages partly caused by our uncomfortable
motion have occurred in the cabin during the last few days consummating
this morning by the entire destruction of a very convenient potter's
vessel which had safely occupied a tiny little nook in our cabin during
the whole of the previous part of the voyage. Sic transit gloria.
About 12 o'clock the wind again changed to the west and freshened up
in a few hours to a good breeze bringing with it a good deal of rain
and an angry appearance but at 9 P.M. we had a very fine night and a
fair breeze. All Well. May we enjoy a good night's repose and feel
secure in the protection of the Almighty.
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20 July, Thursday |
This morning the wind is right aft but there are still squalls flying
about so that we have but few sails set and our progress is indifferent.
Last night the wind blew very hard for a few hours and I felt more
anxiety and alarm than I did since embarking. I was awakened by the
fearful sound of wind and waves and the ship seemed to me to be driving
with tremendous speed through the water. Upon enquiring this morning I
found this was a 'mer 'animi Sonitus' as she had been kept as close to
the wind as possible and was only going about 5 knots. I could not keep
my berth and was up and dressed from 1:30 A.M. to 6 A.M. - part of the
time in my father's cabin where they were all awake and had been rather
alarmed like myself. The wind blew hardest at 2 P.M. but at 4 P.M. a
tremendous shower of hail fell and immediately the wind fell almost to a
calm when the rocking commenced which has continued more or less since.
The wind is now fair and we are getting along well. The barometer is
rising and we are all hoping that it will please providence that the
strong comfortless weather we have had for sometime past will be succeeded
by agreeable weather which will last till our arrival in New Zealand.
We are now all getting on very quietly and upon the which our time is
passing more pleasantly than it did. No one is enjoying better health
nor better spirits than my dear Rebecca and God in his kindness enables
her to enjoy sleep when all are awake and anxious except herself.
My father and Mother are quite well and we are to each other a great
source of mutual comfort and happiness - the unaccountable coolness of
my sister Anne is the only draw-back to my comfort at present.
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21 July, Friday |
Weather still showery but the glass rising gradually and steadily.
Wind fair and getting on very satisfactorily. Hoping now that ten
days more and perhaps less will bring us to New Plymouth, God's will
be done May he be with us in mercy and all will be well. This day I
was sent for to visit a sick sailor in the forecastle. Found three
of them on the sick list. The man who sent for me is suspected to
be a dodger i.e. merely pretending illness. This I am inclined to
disbelieve and am of the opinion that had he been treated
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a little more considerately when he first complained he might now
be fit for duty. Certainly he exhibits symptoms of sickness today.
He appeared anxious about his spiritual state - was not entirely ignorant
of scriptural truths - excused himself for neglect of religious duties
by pleading influence of evil example and I endeavoured to instruct him
in the way of truth more perfectly and those who were with him and prayed
with them. I afterwards sent them suitable tracts.
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22 July, Saturday |
All rejoiced at the great improvement of the weather this morning - a
beautiful day, clear and spring like with a good steady wind - all
sails set going sometimes 10 knots during the past night averaged 8.
I enjoyed the open air and the now unusual sight of our ship in full
sail a little while before breakfast but was not out afterwards except
a little after dinner being engaged preparing for tomorrow's services.
We have had two or three showers during the day and it is still looking
thick and heavy but barometer steady.
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23 July, Sunday |
A good wind but looking rather squally. Conducted services as usual
in the Cuddy. Preached morning and evening from Phill. 3.20. 'For our
conversation is in heaven'. Felt a good deal put about in my services
in the morning by the marked inattention of Mr. Cochrane and Miss
Hinde. God forbid I had long such people to minister to. I believe
the prejudice pride and intolerance of the high church party in the
Church of England is as bad as the worst phase of Popery could exhibit.
As for my brother-in-law I would much like to know him - I confess
my utter ignorance of his sentiments towards me - one thing I know he
manifests to me less amiability of disposition than he does to any other
of the party. He is greatly changed from what he was in times long past.
This evening looks very dark and gloomy and we are likely to have rather
an uncomfortable night.
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24 July, Monday |
This morning about 4 o'clock the wind came very high and there
was little sleep after and indeed for a good while before that hour.
It was expected we would see Van Dieman's Land in the morning about 10
o'clock but we had got on much better than we anticipated and had passed
that island about the time the seas began to rise in the morning. It was
from this circumstance, the waves from the North and short broken spells
they concluded where they were even before they had taken the longitude.
When it was taken we found the past had been one of our best days as
we were in 149 degrees E.L. - 2 degrees East of Hobart Town. The wind
continued to blow very fresh during the day but as we were going close
to the wind for the purpose of making headway our speed wasn't great.
New Plymouth folk are beginning to pack up and have all things in
readiness for disembarkation. Mrs. Sealy would be very anxious to be in
time to attend church once in New Plymouth on Sabbath next to thank God
in his own house for their safe passage etc.
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25 July, Tuesday |
This morning there was a very unlooked-for sight awaiting us when we
turned out. We thought Mary Jane our servant had been hoaxed by somebody
who told her that Van Dieman's Land was in sight - but it turned out
to be quite true and that we were in error in supposing we had passed
that land yesterday. The truth is the Chronometers were very incorrect
and we could not have been less than 8 or 9 degrees astray in reckoning.
The consequences might have been awful. Of course supposing we had passed
Van Dieman's Land North East as the course we wished to sail and had that
night been foggy or wet we would likely have been driven on the land.
As it was we had according to the account of the sailors and passengers,
a narrow escape although the ship's officers say otherwise. Where the
rocks known by the name of 'Eddystone' were seen by the man on watch
it is said we were sailing directly towards them and would have been
on them in about half an hour. I regard it as merciful providential
interposition and I trust we will be truly grateful to our gracious God
who did not leave us to be overwhelmed in the waters of the Ocean but
has shown us that his arm is mighty to save even when human skill and
foresight are utterly at fault. We saw
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different parts of Van Dieman's Land at intervals during the early
part of the day and as the wind was light we did not make more than 4 to
6 knots. The wind has freshened up towards bedtime and we are getting
on well.
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26 July, Wednesday |
This was a very delightful morning with a good fairing breeze
which continued all day. Last night there was a great deal of sheet
lightning which led to the apprehension of a gale but so far there is
no indication of anything but weather. There is I believe a possibility
of our reaching New Plymouth by Sabbath yet but it would require a good
wind as at present, the whole time, which we can hardly expect. I find
very little can be done down here. Here I sit in my own Cabin writing
this Journal and the motion is so great that I can scarcely keep the
pen on the paper and my whole body is twisted and wearied excessively
with the reeling I am subjected to.
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27 July, Thursday |
A very favourable wind and just enough of it at least during the
greater part of the day. In the evening it became calmer and they
are likely to be able to keep up the sails all night. Something took
Mr. Motherell's toe this afternoon and he got rid of a good deal of
bile or Billingsgate Mrs. Alexander being the subject. I believe the
attack was altogether unprovoked but in a man constituted as he is the
cold indifference and contempt with which he has been treated in that
quarter are highly provocative and I think it is the dictate of prudence
to provoke no one even though we do not live in a house of glass and
though the provoked party be impotent to harm us. Civility for all is
a nice maxim and were we all to practice it, how free would we be from
all those disgraceful bickerings which an opposite course produce.
Paid my subscription today towards raising a fund for the mother of
the drowned sailor boy. Reading ???????????? Letters which are admirable.
Time is passing with much more laggard pace now that we are coming near
to the end of the voyage and counting the days. God grant
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we may have a happy meeting with all our friends and that we find
nothing amiss. This despondency is a sad thing - but whether I will
or not vexing and distressing thoughts will obtrude themselves and are
keeping me habitually low spirited.
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28 July, Friday |
Wind not so good - all sails even ?? sails set. Very smooth sea.
A beautiful bright day. Wrote the following verses as a farewell to
our fellow passengers who leave at New Plymouth.
Farewell
Farewell companions of our Ocean Home
Over 16000 miles of treacherous seas
(Now calm as sleeping child now lashed to foam)
Emblem of life and sinner's destiny.
With breaking hearts and eyes suffused to tears
We bade adieu to England's shore,
Our bosoms torn with various hopes and fears.
Most to behold our native land no more.
By various fates and various fortunes led
To seek another and far distant land,
We dried at length the bitter tears we shed
Trusting our all in the Almighty hand.
And now perforce one family we were
Who must for weeks and months together dwell:
And on each other happiness confer
Or make our ship a very type of Hell.
The weeks and months their rapid course have sped
And though not free from imperfection's strain
Yet yon mild charity, prejudices fled,
And dark distrust and hatred in their train.
And Sabbaths were alliances of love,
Our faith the same - we shared each others forms
And sought together mercy from above
To guide us mid life's dangerous calms and storms
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By mutual knowledge, friendships stronger grew,
Until it rivalled e'en the growth of years:
And kindness, sympathetic bosoms drew,
To tell each other all their hopes and fears.
Thus passed the swiftly flying time away,
Which we had feared would prove distressing long:
And some would gladly have it longer stay
That they might longer be such friends among
'Tis true not alloyed our joys have been
Some trifling bitter mingled with the sweet:
The edge of temper oft is all too keen
And judging too, severer than is meet.
But let this pass - as did those awful gales,
Which for a little filled our hearts with fear
And to life's gentler breezes spread the sails
Hasting to wipe from Sorrow's eye the tear.
Go ever shine where darkness is most dense,
And ever holy principles maintain:
The Tribune God will be your sure defence
And true it is that Godliness is gain.
And now Farewell: Mayhap a long Farewell
May blessings rest upon you from above
And may we all in Heaven Dwell
And sing the praises of redeeming love
But see; your voyage now is almost o'er
And snow capped Egmont rises to our view
Your boats will land you on New Plymouth's shore
And we must say again 'Adieu Adieu'
This afternoon the wind improved a good deal and we are getting on
very well. Sam alarmed his grandpapa greatly this morning by venturing
in some dangerous part of the ship - unfortunately he is reckless and it
is of God's mercy that some accident hasn't occurred to him ere this.
At home his fondness for riding horses and here his forwardness in
pulling ropes and reefing sails have exposed him to frequent perils.
The management of such a boy I confess is a matter I do not rightly
understand
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may the grace of God do what I cannot do and sanctify his natural
abilities which are of no mean order to God's service and make him if
spared a good citizen and a Christian. Although this day was so fine I
wasn't out more than 5 minutes - engaged reading and writing the whole
day except an hour or two in the twilight. This evening about 6 o'clock
Mrs. Sealy the wife of our Doctor gave birth to a daughter - mother
and child doing well. They had intended stopping at New Plymouth but
it is likely she may not be sufficiently recovered to leave the ship
when we arrive there and that they will go on to Auckland. It is
worthy of observation that the two births which have taken place on
board have been on about the finest days we have had on our passage.
We are going now at 9 o'clock P.M. about 6 knots - we are likely to
have some rocking tonight. I hope not for Mrs. Sealy's sake.
|
29 July, Saturday |
Fine day but making little way. Engaged from breakfast to dinner
preparing for tomorrows services. No expectation now of seeing New
Plymouth before Monday but almost assured we will see Mt. Egmont as early
as we can see it in the morning. Have felt rather inspirited today from
what cause I can scarcely tell. May God make it permanent.
|
30 July, Sunday |
Wind contrary. Scarcely any of it. Preached morning and evening
from Deut. 12.9. 'Ye are not yet come to the rest and the inheritance
which the Lord your God giveth you'. A good attendance in the evening.
Endeavoured to apply the subject to our own circumstances and addressed
the passengers to New Plymouth for the last time. It is probable they
will never again hear my voice as a preacher - nor I address them
as hearers. This was an impressive consideration and I felt it and
endeavoured to impress it. I conversed by writing a good while with
the deaf and dumb boy today and felt it very interesting to myself and
profitable too and I hope it was so to him. Although the voyage has not
been made as profitable as it might have been but I was utterly impotent
to make it so. The card playing in the evenings constantly kept up and
was I am fully persuaded an effectual barrier to the accomplishment of
any good to those who engaged in it.
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31 July, Monday |
Almost a calm - the very light wind which is almost imperceptible
constantly changing - not going a mile and hour. We are learning how
entirely we are dependent on God and it is a good lesson to have impressed
on our minds as we are nearing our destination. The day is one of the
finest - indeed I may say the finest we have had since we left England.
Not warmer, nor more cloudless than we had in the Tropics but more genial
and fanning us with the balmy breath of spring. We were all deceived
today in supposing we saw M. Egmont in the great distance and even Rebecca
and Mrs. Nixon came on deck to see it. [?] where was before for a couple
of months. The imaginary mountain soon disappeared and when the longitude
was taken it was found we were still distant from it about 140 miles.
We all walked on deck a good deal today except Rebecca who although she
takes absolutely no exercise is yet very well. We were amused no little
at a walking match between my father and Miss Bell Harriett Hammerton.
My father walked best but the air and look of determination and mighty
effort exhibited in his countenance and were so like anger that he might
be supposed to be resenting an insult or contending with his mortal foe
was irresistible and unfilial though it was I laughed immoderately.
Mrs. Nixon beat him by a kind of hop step and jump and exalted with
triumphant air at her supposed success. She seems in many respects a
character - I hope she will prove on further acquaintance an amiable
character - it occurs to me that a long friendship with her will be
best secured by a moderate degree of intimacy.
|
1 August 1854, Tuesday |
This day the exact counterpart of yesterday. At 12 o'clock we found we
had just made 30 miles from 12 o'clock yesterday and to all appearance we
will make little more today. Several times a tantalising puff made us
suppose the wind was coming but we as often were disappointed. The day
was very warm - just what we would consider a fine June day in Ireland
and if this be a fair specimen of the early spring in New Zealand the
climate at least is not over-rated in the accounts we have received of it.
Had another long conversation with the deaf and dumb boy today and visited
the sick sailor
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Page 50 |
in the forecastle where I had an opportunity of talking to and praying
with several of the crew. I rather fear the treatment of the sailors
in this ship savours too much of a harsh discipline - they are to a man
dissatisfied and if they can get it accomplished they will leave this ship
at Auckland. I fancy Masters and mates have a good deal to do in making
the characters of sailors and that if they did their duty as Christian
men the sailors as a class would be of a different stamp.
|
2 August, Wednesday |
This day also beautifully fine. Expected this morning to get a
sight of land - towards evening all looked out very anxiously for that
desirable object - I had gone over to the forecastle and pointed to what
Mr. Carrington a second cabin passenger considered the 'loom' of land
when John Ferguson my father's servant who had gone up to the cradle of
the foremast called out land land and sure enough he was right -
it was the long looked for Mt. Egmont. During the continuance of daylight
this was very partially visible - we all looking forward very eagerly to
daylight of tomorrow to behold less dimly our adopted country.
|
3 August, Thursday |
Egmont visible this morning in all its glory. What a magnificent
cone with its resplendent snowy mantle shining in the light of the
morning sun. Smaller mountain heights less distinctly visible and land
on either side of the mountain falling away gradually till lost in sea
still less distinctly visible. During the day we made little progress
towards New Plymouth as there was almost an entire calm. In the evening
the sunset was the finest we witnessed since we left England and indeed
during our lives. Perfectly unclouded did that bright luminary sink into
the Ocean. Fancy could not paint more beautiful clouds than his rays,
painted all round the western horizon and Egmont immediately opposite
which had been covered with vapours during the afternoon became very
clear on its apex, which reflected most resplendently the gilded
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beams of the glorious sun, even for some moments after he was hid from
our view. The opinion of the weather wise is that this sunset betokens a
continuance of fair weather though some sailors are expecting a change.
What reason on reviewing all the way our God has brought us hitherto
to give thanks unto his holy name for his enduring mercies - and Oh
how little real gratitude there is in our hearts. How prone we are
to be joyful on receiving gifts but to be wickedly unmindful of the
Giver.
|
4 August, Friday |
This morning we were awakened by an uncommonly furious squall which
created immense confusion in the ship and excited no little alarm among
the timorous. The wind sprang up earlier but only gently and a squall
was not at all anticipated. Fortunately no harm was done and the wind
had ceased in a very few minutes. In the morning Egmont was completely
covered but a great part of the Taranaki District was visible and becoming
more distinctly so every few minutes. We could discern the timber lands
very easily at first - then the cultivated fields and houses and ? etc.
As we sailed North three rocks near the anchorage at New Plymouth were
the most prominent objects - they are called 'The Sugar Loaves' from
their shape - one stands on the shore and the other two in a line from it
into the sea at about equal distances from each other - high water ships
could if necessary sail between them but they do not require to do so.
As we neared we could perceive the white houses of New Plymouth which
appears a scattered town but very beautifully situated and surrounded by
a country which I have no doubt will in a few years merit the appellation
given it by Hursthouse - 'The Garden of New Zealand'. Here a pilot
comes aboard to point out the best anchorage and we shortly saw a boat
leaving the shore but while expecting to see it near us heavy squalls to
the westward were gathering and some of the men who were aloft reefing the
mizzen saw the boat turn again towards the shore. Indeed our Captain had
little expectation of being able to anchor
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as the glass was falling and the wind blowing on the shore. It was
tantalising and the New Plymouth passengers were very much cast down
about it as they fully expected to be on shore in an hour or so.
The circumstance of having no harbour will ever be a serious drawback
to the prospects of New Plymouth and I believe if parties were aware of
this to its full extent they would be discouraged from immigrating to
it at all. However for rural life it is probably unsurpassed and those
who are willing to give up other things for rural beauty, retirement
and quietude will doubtless find here, if anywhere, those wished for
blessings realised. The evening wore rather a stormy aspect and with
close reefed topsails and sailing close to the wind we are heading at 9
o'clock P.M. North West by West. Another Brig wishes to get anchorage
at New Plymouth from where we can't tell is also standing off from
land.
|
5 August, Saturday |
Last night was very squally and I was sleepless and restless.
We tacked several times to avoid going far to sea and what with the noise
of sailors and wind and occasional pitching and rocking I was completely
upset. Rebecca and the children slept well. This morning we are 20
miles from land. Egmont is clearly visible. We are sailing S.W. by
W. - very little wind - day fine - wind freshening a little about 12
o'clock but is blowing off the land. During the forenoon I was engaged
preparing for tomorrow. Little did I think last Sabbath when addressing
my fellow passengers that so many would be with us this day - how little
we know of the future. There is reason to hope from appearances this
evening that we may be at anchorage off New Plymouth tomorrow.
|
6 August, Sunday |
This morning we were very near the anchorage but as frequent
tacking was necessary we did not cast anchor till about 10 o'clock.
Sometime previous the boat with the pilot and Willis's Agent Mr. Nash had
come alongside and we were very glad to see the faces of our fellow men
dwelling in this distant island of the sea. Mr. Nash breakfasted with us.
He has not been here
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more than six weeks - he came on the 'Eclipse'. Three or
four of the settlers were in the boat beside him - among them were a
Mr. Gray and a Mr. Blachman, Scotchmen and Presbyterians - they were
very glad to see me and I learned some thing of the state of religion
in New Plymouth. From their statements I would infer that there is
very little religion in the place, except what is external and nominal.
I promised them to try and go ashore before we left that I might converse
with one or two more of their number. Immediately after casting anchor a
boat load of passengers and luggage left us and another in the afternoon.
It is a question whether this was a work of necessity but considering all
circumstances it would require very great faith to act in accordance with
a negative answer to this question. We found it quite impossible to have
a morning service today as at the usual hour of holding it the confusion
was very great - in the evening I preached and although the majority
of our Cuddy passengers had left there was a good attendance as we had
more than usual of the steerage and second cabin passengers.
|
7 August, Monday |
A beautiful day. The boat made three trips to and from the beach
today taking out goods and passengers. Jos. Cochrane went on shore today.
I had told him my intention to go when he was going but he slipped away
without me, I suppose choosing his company. We all enjoyed the view
of the town, adjacent country, and especially Mt. Egmont from the ship
very much today. In the very clear moonlight in the evening Egmont was
a magnificent object of sight and contemplation. Mrs. Sealy went on
shore today in her cot. Dr. Sealy had gone a shore the previous day
and procured lodgings. The Hammertons with the exception of young
Mrs. H. left without even bidding goodbye to some of us. How much
attention was lost on some of that party and others too.
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8 August, Tuesday |
Another delightful day. Warm as a summer at home. Went a shore in
the morning boat which left rather early for breakfast. Was astonished to
find a tremendous surf on the beach. Warned off by a flag hoisted on the
flag staff. We sailed some time until the tide would have ebbed further
when the surf decreased. We held on by a buoy to which is attached a
cable which is also made fast on shore and with the assistance of which,
place in a runner on the bowline of the boat the crew more steadily and
securely than with their oars propel her up on the beach. This morning
while holding on the buoy the chain attaching it to the anchor broke and
we were soon drifting towards the shore. The men took to their oars
and by stout rowing and careful watching on the approach of two great
breakers we got safely on the shore of New Zealand. The few Maoris I saw
did not appear strange to me - probably from the account I had read of
them and aided by fancy the whole scene appeared to me as one with which
I was quite familiar. A few days previous a dispute had arisen between
two of the tribes on an agrarian question and 16 persons of the tribe
friendly to the Europeans were shot - seven of whom have since died.
These people were working at a road through the bush for the settlers
when the hostile tribe whose Chief is a fractious mob orator sort of a
fellow ordered them to desist which they would not do and after first
firing over them and then in the ground they fired among them when the
result was as stated above. The old friendly Chief and his son were both
mortally wounded. The Chief died in hospital and was buried yesterday
in the burying place of his fathers. I believe the funeral was rather
an imposing spectacle. There were but few of the natives in town today
and I learned that the reason was that the road was Tapu or made sacred on
account of the outrage. They are boiling with indignation and the hostile
Chief is expected to be soon the victim of their revenge. He is said to
be very low in spirits and some are of the opinion that he will commit
suicide. These natives are all nominal Christians - The deceased Chief
was a Wesleyan. New Plymouth is
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Page 55 |
a very scattered irregular place as most new towns are (the streets
are marked out pretty regularly but the houses are of all sizes and
shapes and dotted here and there so that at little distance you would
suppose there was no such thing as a regular street). With the exception
of the Episcopalian Church which is built of beach stones all of the
houses are wood. The town occupies a rising ground sloping gradually up
from the sea to a considerable height - from the Church you look down
upon the town and from Mt. Marsden a terraced round Mount immediately
behind the church, you command a magnificent view of the town and the
whole of the surrounding country. There seems to be a considerable
breadth of well cultivated land and the cultivated land and the ancient
forest stretching away as far as the eye can reach. I met with four
Presbyterians, heads of families, Dr. Wilson, a very popular man in New
Plymouth, a magistrate and the Medical Superintendent of the Government
Hospital for the Maoris: Mr. Black, a baker and a substantial man who has
been 13 or 14 years in the colony; Mr. Gray a Haberdasher and General
Storekeeper and Schoolmaster and a Mr. Ritchie of whom I only learned
that he is a second cousin of Dr. Wilson. I found that sometime after
Mr. Gray commenced a correspondence with the Rev. William Bruce about
the practicability of supplying them with a preaching occasionally in New
Plymouth and latterly Mr. Bruce has been corresponding with Mr. Wilson.
He has promised them that when he can get a supply for his pulpit for
a few Sabbaths he will pay them a visit. With the new arrivals by the
'Cashmere' they don't number more than 12 families - one or two
of which are at a distance of more than ten miles from New Plymouth.
It is quite evident that they are not in a position to have a minister
of their own yet - though they speak very confidently of getting
accessions from the Episcopalians, the Methodists and especially
Independents whose minister is not very popular on account of some
inconsistency of conduct. The Wesleyan preacher, an excellent man,
has his time fully occupied with the natives. The Episcopal Clergy
don't visit the people and altogether there
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Page 56 |
is a great deadness among the Europeans. I partook of the hospitality
of Mr. Black and Mr. Gray and was regaled with New Zealand produce in the
shape of bread, cheese, butter, honey and preserved Cape Gooseberries
all of which were excellent and the zest with which I partook of them
was enhanced not only by my not having regularly breakfasted but by
the kind and cordial manner in which they were offered. I had some
idea of remaining in New Plymouth overnight and holding a meeting and
they seemed anxious that I should, but being told that the Captain was
determined to be on board sometime tonight and that a change of weather
was apprehended I judged it prudent not to remain. The surf was again
very considerable on the beach where I parted with the Hindes and the
Hammertons. Mrs. Alexander also remained on shore with them thinking
there was no risk as the Captain was there. In the ship after my arrival
we spent the evening very pleasantly and harmoniously - the only evening
of which it could be said that all in the Cuddy were on kindly terms
with each other. The night looked well at 10 o'clock.
|
9 August, Wednesday |
Surprised to hear the rain before daylight this morning and to
feel the vessel pitching a good deal. The morning looked threatening.
Mrs. Alexander came on board by the boat which arrived just as we had
finished breakfast. We were sorry to find the Captain was not in her
and it did not certainly satisfy us when we heard that what detained him
was that he and Jos. Cochrane were to breakfast with Mr. Nash the Agent.
After the boat was loaded as the sea was rising very fast our lifeboat
was lowered to tow her to windward, but they had to return and with
the boat was rowed in another sheltered direction round by the beach.
Very shortly afterwards the Chief Officer Mr. Sedgewick having been
signalled from the shore thought it prudent to slip anchor, hoist sail
and go to sea and we were soon almost out of sight of the Sugar Loaves.
The wind increased considerably for some time and the sea rose but the
rain fell very heavily and for a long time which lowered both wind and
waves and then at half past nine the ship
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Page 57 |
turned towards New Plymouth again and we are getting on very steadily
and smoothly. Our Chief Officer is an excellent seaman and is very cool
and steady in command.
|
Then comes a break in the day to day recordings in the Journal of
Reverend John Macky.
The next entries are as follows:
20 August, Sunday, 1854 |
Arrived in Auckland - being Sabbath heard Mr. Bruce preach - Brother
Thomas accompanied me - found all friends well - My feelings in meeting
them I will not attempt to describe.
END OF VOYAGE
|
23 August, Wednesday |
General Fast - The War - Mr. Bruce preached in the morning - I held
prayer meeting in the evening.
|
27 August, Sunday |
Preached in Auckland in the morning from #nd, Cor: 2.14 &
15 - and in the afternoon commenced my ministry in Otahuhu by preaching
from Acts 10. 29. The service was conducted in Mr. Baird's Store beside
his wharf - Mr. Bruce accompanied me from Auckland and introduced me
to the people by whom I was kindly received. The afternoon was rather
unfavourable and the roads shockingly bad - still the attendance was
considerable.................
From this time continued to preach every Sabbath morning in Otahuhu and
fortnightly on the Sabbath afternoons in Tamaki and Howick. Services held
in Mr. Baird's House in the months of March and April 1855. The store
being so occupied we could not have the use of it. Weekday services
occasionally held in near Papakura McLennan's - Slippery Creek and
Wairoa from the commencement of my ministry here till the arrival of
Mr. Morris in October 1855.
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Page 58 &
Page 59 |
Cashmere —1854
Left Graves End on 20th. April 1854.
Date |
|
Lat. |
|
Long. |
Note |
20 April |
| 51 26 |
| 0 22 |
Depart Graves End |
21-23 |
|
|
Channel |
24 |
45 16 |
-9 22 |
25 |
42 19 |
-11 39 |
26 |
39 15 |
-13 57 |
27 |
35 36 |
-15 48 |
28 |
33 20 |
-16 55 |
29 |
30 43 |
-18 0 |
30 |
28 38 |
-18 0 |
1 May |
26 23 |
-18 1 |
2 |
24 45 |
-18 47 |
3 |
22 50 |
-19 4 |
4 |
19 54 |
-19 56 |
5 |
16 48 |
-20 56 |
6 |
13 46 |
-21 49 |
7 |
11 8 |
-22 0 |
8 |
9 23 |
-21 28 |
9 |
7 34 |
-20 21 |
10 |
5 57 |
-19 20 |
11 |
5 3 |
-19 37 |
12 |
3 42 |
-18 34 |
13 |
3 20 |
-19 4 |
14 |
1 56 |
-20 43 |
15 |
0 30 |
-22 17 |
16 |
-1 42 |
-23 34 |
17 |
-4 13 |
-24 18 |
18 |
-6 29 |
-25 57 |
19 |
-9 11 |
-26 57 |
20 |
-10 41 |
-27 21 |
21 |
-13 34 |
-28 27 |
22 |
-16 30 |
-29 30 |
23 |
-19 22 |
-29 45 |
24 |
-21 16 |
-29 15 |
25 |
-22 56 |
-30 0 |
26 |
-24 27 |
-30 27 |
27 |
-25 36 |
-21 26 |
28 |
-26 34 |
-32 25 |
29 |
-27 30 |
-30 45 |
30 |
-28 0 |
-29 29 |
31 |
-29 3 |
-26 18 |
1 June |
-30 46 |
-22 50 |
2 |
-30 15 |
-20 30 |
3 |
-28 30 |
-19 15 |
4 |
-30 49 |
-17 53 |
5 |
-32 45 |
-15 22 |
6 |
-35 25 |
-12 20 |
7 |
-37 14 |
-8 49 |
8 |
-38 41 |
-4 0 |
9 |
-40 12 |
0 48 |
10 |
-39 54 |
4 20 |
11 |
-40 6 |
7 9 |
12 |
-40 17 |
12 17 |
13 |
-40 28 |
16 0 |
14 |
-40 36 |
17 50 |
15 |
-41 35 |
19 58 |
16 |
-41 33 |
25 16 |
17 |
-41 25 |
28 22 |
18 |
-46 22 |
29 23 |
19 |
-42 19 |
31 50 |
20 |
-43 31 |
31 50 |
21 |
-43 20 |
35 3 |
22 |
-42 15 |
37 13 |
23 |
-40 23 |
39 24 |
24 |
-39 50 |
42 47 |
25 |
-38 18 |
44 32 |
26 |
-40 7 |
45 46 |
27 |
-40 58 |
46 6 |
28 |
-40 47 |
48 57 |
29 |
-40 19 |
50 35 |
30 |
-40 34 |
55 41 |
1 July |
-40 44 |
60 32 |
2 |
-40 47 |
63 10 |
3 |
-41 9 |
67 2 |
4 |
-41 10 |
71 0 |
5 |
-41 35 |
76 12 |
6 |
-41 39 |
80 37 |
7 |
-41 35 |
82 23 |
8 |
-41 40 |
85 41 |
9 |
-41 39 |
88 37 |
10 |
-41 36 |
92 30 |
11 |
-42 9 |
97 9 |
12 |
-42 38 |
101 20 |
13 |
-42 39 |
103 49 |
14 |
-42 46 |
108 53 |
15 |
-43 6 |
113 40 |
16 |
-43 2 |
117 53 |
17 |
-43 11 |
122 30 |
18 |
-43 40 |
124 53 |
19 |
-44 10 |
126 14 |
20 |
-44 30 |
129 3 |
21 |
-44 35 |
134 21 |
22 |
-44 30 |
135 54 |
23 |
-43 57 |
144 13 |
24 |
-44 14 |
149 3 |
25 |
-43 57 |
147 55 |
26 |
-43 9 |
152 4 |
Chronometer wrong 4°18' |
27 |
-43 12 |
156 35 |
28 |
-41 56 |
160 54 |
29 |
-41 11 |
164 28 |
30 |
-40 6 |
168 45 |
31 |
-39 33 |
171 20 |
1 August |
-39 30 |
171 54 |
2 |
-39 12 |
173 0 |
3 |
-39 23 |
173 50 |
6 |
|
|
Anchored New Plymouth |
20 August |
-39 2 |
174 3 |
Arrive Auckland |
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Page 60 |
Mr. Bruce was absent in Sydney - March and April 1855. Mr. Salmon
in Auckland for some weeks - Mr. Bruce's Pulpit supplied by me for five
Sabbaths during his absence.
|
6 May 1855 |
Preached for the first time in the new Church or Schoolhouse - it
being still in a very unfinished state.
|
11 November 1855 |
Mr. Bruce preached opening sermon and made a collection towards
liquidation of the debt.
|
23 December 1855 |
Our first Communion Sabbath in Otahuhu - Mr. Bruce assisted me
and preached on the Friday Evening previous - it was upon the whole a
happy Communion season and I trust a time of refreshing to not a few.
To me it is a great cause of thankfulness that I have found in Mr. Bruce
such qualities of mind and heart as have enabled me from the beginning
of our intercourse to feel towards him as a brother. Were it not for
such friendship as his I would feel much more keenly my separation
from those brethren whom I have left and with whom I often took sweet
counsel.
|
16 March 1856 |
Mr. Fraser preached in Otahuhu. He was on his way to
Canterbury - sent out by the F.C.S. The vessel Oriental by
which he came was detained for several weeks in Auckland.
|
3 April |
This day the building of my dwelling house was commenced. We have
been living in my brother James; house in Papatoitoi
since our arrival and have been in many ways very greatly obliged by him.
The horse Jack which has hitherto been my faithful servant in
all my journeyings was a present from my sister-in-law, his wife, and
the horse and cows have been pastured in his paddock and we have had
the benefit of his garden and besides he was the largest subscriber to
the building of the church having given 50 pounds towards it.
The paddock on which my house is building was given to me by my dear
brother, Thomas and for the fencing, ploughing, sowing with wheat and oats
both brothers Thomas and William shared a large portion of the expense.
Were it not for their kindness I would have no means of
|
Page 61 |
procuring a house to live in - may God make me thankful for such
kind brothers - so truly interested in my comfort and that of my wife
and family.
Our little daughter Sarah Rebecca was born on the 24th. March 1855 and
baptised by Mr. Bruce on 17th. June. My dear wife while pregnant of her
almost entirely lost the sight of her right eye which still continues
almost entirely useless to her. 'Rebecca' only was to have been the
child's name but in the meantime before her baptism the sad intelligence
reached us of the death of my wife's beloved sister Sarah Campbell which
determined us in giving the child her name also.
|
9 April |
This day determined to make more frequent entries in my journal -
regret not having done so hitherto - want of system a great injury to soul
body and estate. Try to amend in this particular hope in short time to
have more quietness - but better not to wait for this but whatsoever my
hands find to do do without delay. Preached in Hudson's of Papakura in
the evening - a very tolerable attendance - notwithstanding the rain -
the people there seem to value ordinances when brought to their houses
- but with one or two exceptions are unwilling to put themselves to a
little inconvenience to hear a preacher of the Gospel on the Sabbath.
Remained overnight in Mr. Hatton's who is a good man and blessed with
an excellent God fearing wife. They are childless. god knows what is
best for them.
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10 April |
We had some ladies to tea this evening - the Misses Goodfellow,
Thomson, Baird etc. A great deal of music - Lizzie Macky principal
performer. After all there is not much real enjoyment in it and
conscience tells me it is a sad waste of time and opportunity of doing
good - on such an evening my ministerial character scarcely appears at
all - except while engaged in worship before separating. The friendship
of Miss Goodfellow is a great source of comfort to me - she is very wise,
intelligent and Christian young woman.
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12 April |
Rode today to Wairoa - got out of my way in the forest, and suffered
a good deal of anxiety for an hour or two. How great a mercy did I
consider it to have my way made plain. Oh that God may lead my soul
in the right way and deliver me from the dense black forest of sin and
transgression.
|
20 April |
This was Communion Sabbath in Auckland - I preached for Mr. Bruce
on Friday. He was assisted by Mr. McNairn and I preached for
Mr. McDonald.
|
11 May |
This day preached in Papakura and baptised Rev. T. Norrie's first
child - returned same evening - The Misses Goodfellow accompanied
me.
|
22 June |
Tamaki Sabbath - stayed overnight at Mr. Thomson's for first
time - received much attention and kindness - had no reason to regret
that the greater number of my people are such as have risen to comfortable
circumstances from the humbler ranks.
|
17 July |
This day came to our new house - a very wet day - carpenters still
at work - feel very grateful to be here - May God command upon us his
own effectual blessing.
|
10 October |
Rev. Mr. McKinney and our teacher Mr. Joseph Wilson arrived in
Auckland.
|
12 October |
Assisted at a Communion in Auckland - Mr. McKinney preached in the
evening - is a pleasing preacher and appears to be a pious, devoted
Minister.
|
14 October |
Presbytery of Auckland met for the first time today - Mr. Bruce
preached - I was chosen Moderator - an honour I don't appreciate - all
matters proceeded very harmoniously.
|
15 October |
Presbytery met again today and concluded business. May Jesus Christ
accept our services and make us instruments for good to his son.
|
16 October |
Mr. & Mrs. McKinney came out here with me. Mr. McKinney preached
at Hudson's for me - was well liked. Lizzie Macky rode over with us.
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I like our teacher, Mr. Wilson, very much. He is a worthy, modest young
man and a painstaking teacher.
|
19 October |
This day Mr. McKinney preached at Otahuhu for me - a good
attentive and I trust edified congregation - I preached afternoon at
Howick.
|
16 November |
Communion at Otahuhu - a good time - assisted by Messrs. Norrie
and McKinney - trust the Saviour was one of our company in love and
compassion.
|
30 November |
This day commenced a course of lectures on the 'Ruling Eldership' -
with a view to prepare the people for electing elders - I feel deeply
the great importance of this matter.
|
4 January 1857 |
This day preached in the Independent Chapel Auckland. By request
exchanged pulpits with Mr. McDonald.
|
8 March |
Exchanged this day with Mr. Norrie and preached at Wairoa and
Papakura - congregation's pretty fair - felt happy in the services
and was heard very attentively - may God make me faithful.
|
24 May |
This day tried to improve the sudden death of Ms. Muir, sister of
Wallace of Tamaki. There is but a step between me and death Oh that we
may all seek to improve the day of our merciful visitation.
|
7 June |
Great rain all day - no services - The anniversary of my
ordination - may God give me some work to do in his vineyard - and
impart grace to fit me for it - Oh God, take not thy Holy Spirit
from me, how weak and worthless am I?
|
21 June |
Preached in Auckland - great rain - no services in the afternoon.
|
23 August |
No services in the afternoon at Howick much rain - suffering from
inflammation of my ear. How little thankful
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for firm health are we and how full of misery would life be with endless
pain. May we seek to be prepared for endless happiness.
|
3 October |
Mr. McKinney preached this day being the Friday previous
to the observance of Lord's Supper. A good attendance and good
sermon. Mr. McKinney wants animation or father I should say has
not learned to communicate or even manifest what he himself does
feel.
|
11 October |
Communion Sabbath - alas we scarcely know what Communion is. How
few experienced Christians among us - I have no doubt many of us
are converted but few indeed have faith to enter into the chambers of
imagery and see the King in his beauty.
|
1 November |
Preached at Otahuhu in the morning and in open air at Howick in the
afternoon. A very encouraging attendance but very few people there do
not seem to approve of me keeping me standing in the street while they
might be comfortably seated inside. Howick is my difficulty. May the
good Savior do for us and for His own cause there what I feel utterly
impotent for.
|
5 December |
Left for Matakana with my dear wife in company with Mr. and
Mrs. Whytlaw and in their vessel - becalmed near Whangapirau; and spent
a sleepless but pleasant night - Mrs. Whytlaw and Mrs. Macky got some
sleep - and all on board except myself - the night beautifully fine -
how much more could I have enjoyed it were it not for the deficiency of
my sight at night. Thank God that I can see so well by day and that there
shall be no night in heaven - God bring us all there at last.
|
6 December |
Sabbath at sea. Still calm - service on board little vessel - wind
improves - reach Matakana just as Mr. McKinney is commencing to preach -
heard him with great pleasure - what a quiet sweet place to worship God.
Mrs. McKinney was with Mr. McKinney. We all walked to Maurangi - Or
rather walked and rode and walked after the service. Arrived at the
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How delightful is rest to the weary - how unspeakable the bliss
of eternal rest with unceasing, unwearying glorious and happy
exercises.
|
13 December |
First Communion in Mahurangi - I had the honour of preaching - Oh what
an honour to be a servant of Christ when the service is a delight - may it
ever be so to me. A very happy Communion season - a preliminary service
was held on last Friday when I also preached - have got a severe attack
of rheumatism in my left shoulder - it has unfitted me for going about
much.
|
17 December |
Returned to Auckland. Another night on the water - a very
uncomfortable passage - my rheumatism no better - am to remain
in Auckland till after Sabbath and Mr. Bruce is to officiate for me at
Otahuhu and Tamaki. I would prefer being there myself - it seems a
long time since I left.
|
17 January 1858 |
Preached the Opening Sermon at the new Independent Chapel Remuera. The
Minister Mr. Mandeno preached at Otahuhu.
|
22 January |
Preached a preparatory sermon before the Communion for Mr. Norrie
at Papakura.
|
24 January |
Preached at Otahuhu again in the morning and afterwards rode to
Papakura and assisted at the Communion.
|
12 February |
Preached at Tamaki - Friday before Communion.
|
14 February |
First Communion at Tamaki - rode to Church at Otahuhu after Service
and addressed the people at the funeral of Mr. Hatton. They considered
having the funeral on the Sabbath unavoidable.
|
17 February |
Preached at Mr. Hudson's and improved Mr. Hatton's happy and peaceful
death.
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30 May |
Went to Drury to open the new Church there - day very wet - opening
deferred - preached to the few assembled.
|
20 June |
Opened new Church at Drury.
|
18 July |
After sermon, called to see Joseph Wilson - he is near his eternal
home and ripening for Glory.
|
19 July |
Mr. Wilson died today about noon - his end was peace.
|
22 July |
We buried the remains of Joseph Wilson today. A very solemn
occasion - his pupils deeply affected - we feel assured death
has been to him a great gain.
|
25 July |
Improved Mr. Wilson's death.
|
8 August |
This day collection taken up for Home Mission - Appeal not
responded to with willingness and liberality I anticipated. I made the
announcement without consulting the Committee and those officials, at
least some of them, threw cold water upon it. I must be more cautious
and be all things to all men. The good subscription at Tamaki will make
our contribution upon the whole good.
|
10 October |
Very thankful today in riding to Tamaki to find the roads dried up
except in some bad gullies - the winter has been a very wet one
and the road to Tamaki especially through Hamlin's Swamp and round by
Captain Haultain's and from Knox to School house so very bad that for
a succession of fortnights I preached in the evening for Mr. Bruce in
Auckland and he rode out and preached at Tamaki for me.
|
4 November |
This day was held an ordination of elders in our Church. Messrs. James
Wallace, John Wallace and David Thomson were set apart to the office. The
Session ordained. There was also a service preparatory to the observance
of the Lord's Supper.
|
7 November |
Our Communion Sabbath. No assistant. A good time - many I believe
felt it to be so.
|
9 January 1859 |
Preached from Amos 6.1. Woe to them that are at ease in Zion
I believe some were impressed -
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may fruit follow. God awakened the sleepers.
|
23 January |
Preached the opening sermon in the New Church at Papakura. Mr. Bruce
preached in the afternoon - stopped at Mr. Norrie's at Drury over
the night waiting for Soiree next evening. Lizzie Macky also stayed at
Mr. Norrie's. I was in very ill health all day and night.
|
24 January |
Soiree at Papakura this evening. Good attendance - very middling
speaking - night pretty good though - the day and evening very
showery. Several conveyances from Otahuhu and riders. My dear wife with
the Baird's and driven by Sam, made their appearance unexpectedly. I was
very remiss in not having spoken to her of coming but had not supposed
it at all likely she would have undertaken it as her health has been
indifferent for some time. All returned home at a late hour.
|
30 January |
Preached this morning in the Wesleyan Chapel Onehunga on behalf
of their Sunday school. Dined after the service in Mr. Buddle's the
preacher - and afterwards rode to Tamaki for my afternoon service
there.
|
10 February |
This day when about to cross the Tamaki in a Maori canoe when returning
from Otahuhu where I had been visiting the Canoe in which Mr. Baird,
the Maori and I, upset and Mr. Baird was thrown into the channel. When
I got on my feet on the bank, I saw him struggling in the water and
struck out to assist him - the water was running out with a strong
current so that swimming was difficult - the Maori who had righted
the canoe, caught Mr. Baird and I to save myself swam with considerable
difficulty to the corner of the new bridge (now being built) and was
thankful beyond expression for my escape. Mr. Baird holding onto the
side of the Canoe and the Maori also assisting him got on shore. He had
a desperate struggle. We got over and Mr. Baird though very exhausted
walked up with me to his house where I left him to go home and change my
clothes as it was the evening for my class and also a prayer meeting. On
no occasion during my life was I in such imminent danger -
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may the remembrance of God's loving kindness increase my faith in
Him and my love to Him. How appropriate to my circumstances this day is
the text from which I preach on last Sabbath and on which I am again,
God willing, to preach on next Sabbath - Psalm 84.11. For the
Lord God is our sun and shield etc.
|
11 February |
Heard this evening that Mr. Baird is suffering from the affects of
his accident - and that the doctor has been with him. I am surprised
at this for he seemed in no way chilled and got undressed and to bed
immediately on getting into the house.
|
12 February |
This afternoon my dear Rebecca went down to see Mr. Baird. She
returned in the afternoon and though it was Saturday urged me to go and
visit him as she considered his illness dangerous. I did so - he is
very ill - the doctor thinks he has both pleurisy and inflammation
of the lungs. He appears in a submissive frame of mind.
|
13 February |
Called to see Mr. Baird on way to Tamaki. He thought himself easier
but is still very ill. I directed his mind to seek unto the Great
Physician.
|
14 February |
On returning from Tamaki saw Mr. Baird - the doctor thought his
symptoms favourable but I was of the contrary opinion - the pulse
had become very weak. He clearly expressed to him his reliance on the
Savior.
|
15 February |
At about 2 o'clock this morning we were roused by a knocking at the
door - I recognised Sam Baird's voice - and with astonishment
and grief we heard from him that his uncle Mr. Baird had died about an
hour previous - rarely has a similar intelligence affected me so
much. He was a kind friend and had a great deal to do with the erection
of our Church and congregation here. He was an enterprising man who
had done well here and had many good and estimable qualities. Many
will miss him - his loss will be greatly felt - he has died
intestate.
|
20 February |
This morning at Otahuhu improved Mr. Baird's death preaching
from Job 9.12. - in the evening preached in the Independent
Chapel - Mr. MacDonald - one of their Anniversary
Services.
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27 February |
A very wet day from 1 o'clock p.m. Preached in Otahuhu in the
morning - rode to Tamaki - observed the Communion there no
assistant and in fulfilment of and engagement went afterwards to Auckland
and preached in the Baptist Chapel.
|
21 April |
My dear Rebecca and I left Auckland for Mahurangi this evening. I
am to assist at a Communion there and do some other Ecclesiastical
business. Had a very sick night at sea.
|
22 April |
Our voyage was so tedious that I was too late to preach the Friday
sermon as Mr. McKinney expected. Got to the Manse very wearied - I
had had no sleep.
|
24 April |
Communion at Mahurangi - I preached - the day not very
fine. Upon the whole a very happy season.
|
26 April |
Visited the Hot Springs today in company with Mr. McKinney and two
or three others. Mrs. McKinney and Mrs. Macky did not accompany us I
was very much pleased. Got home a little after dark.
|
1 May |
Arrived in Auckland this morning at 2 o'clock a.m. We had so many
disappointments about leaving Mahurangi that I was very much afraid I
should not be in Auckland in time to officiate for Mr. Bruce according
to arrangement. Found Joseph Cochrane and Brother William had just
returned half an hour or so before us from their trip to the north
(Manganui) - preached morning and evening for Mr. Bruce. We are very
thankful that we are safe again and well in Auckland. God be praised
for all His mercies.
|
6 May |
Friday before Communion at Otahuhu - preached myself.
|
8 May |
Communion - no assistant - favoured with good weather,
in the midst of unsettled weather - no visible mark of God's
displeasure. Some reason to hope our services acceptable through Jesus
Christ.
|
15 May |
Have heard of several boat accidents - among the
casualties - Dugal Fisher drowned.
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Had been away for several weeks, and it appears he and three others
were lost during the time we were at Mahurangi.
|
22 May |
Endeavoured to improve the late casualties today. The late Dugal
Fisher's wife is a member of the Church - he was not - may we
all be in readiness. How many warning God is giving to the wicked oh
may they be heard with reverence and godly fear.
|
23 June |
This day a mail from England - letters from my dear wife's
father - news of Aunt Mary Orr's death - dear Rebecca greatly
affected by it. Enclosed was a bracelet made from Aunt Mary's hair. She
was long a true Christian and slept sweetly in Jesus. What a blessed
thing not to be called to sorrow as those who have no hope.
|
24 June |
Our neighbour, Porter, having had several losses and lately one of
his working bullocks having broken his neck my son Samuel conceived the
idea of getting up a subscription to help him and Mr. Goodfellow having
written an appropriate heading for his list he went among the neighbours
and has obtained for Porter £21.17.6d. and expects to get a little
more still. I have been very much pleased to see the manifestation of
active kindness and benevolence thus early in my son and trust it is of
grace. In many respects this boy is to his mother and me a great cause
of anxiety. The early development of body and mind and a rather willful
and impetuous temperament render this period of his life peculiarly
hazardous. At his birth I most solemnly dedicated him to God and - Oh
That God may be pleased of his infinite love and mercy to make him and
all our children joint heirs with Christ. I am often vexed with anxious
thoughts about their temporal prospects and think had we been at home in
Ireland they would be better than here, I acknowledge this is sinful and
Oh My God make me more anxious for their spiritual prosperity and give me
increased confidence in thy wisdom and goodness so that I shall be able
to trust the temporal well-being of my dear family to thee.
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25 June |
Preached today for Mr. Bruce morning and evening - good
congregations both times - I do not experience the same liberality
in preaching in Auckland as in my own pulpit - have reason to
fear that I am not sufficiently abstracted from all considerations of
man's judgment. Would to God I were so to the extent which would be in
accordance with the divine will.
|
27 June |
Returned from Auckland. Called at Mr. Potter's and got fuchsias,
laurstmus, bays.
|
28 June |
Engaged in planting them - and scarcely satisfied I am justified
in spending so much time in these matters - it is certainly the
only recreation I allow myself - it is desirable to improve our
residence and I have not the means to employ a gardener. Sam was assisting
me. John and Joseph were kept from school to gather hedge plants for the
ditches. My dear wife and I spent the evening at my father's.
|
29, 30 June |
Ill with earache. Unfit for everything. How sad that health is not
valued and improved as it ought to be - I believe that generally
speaking a time of sickness is very ill adapted even for spiritual
exercises. Severe pain and fervency or spirit doubtless are found
consociated in the children of God but it is exceedingly doubtful whether
such a time be frequently a time of conversion of entering the strait
gate and first looking by faith to Jesus - No affliction for the
present seemeth to be joyous but grievous, nevertheless afterwards it
yieldeth the peaceable fruit righteousness in them that are exercised
thereby.
|
1 July |
Still confined to house. Read some Spurgeon's Saint and
His Savior - not by any means as the same style as his
sermons - too much elaborated - especially in the description
of the joy of conversion - wonderful experience in so young a
Christian - will he be matured and glorified early or what shall
his future in this world be? God knoweth I hope. I thank God for the
grace that is conspicuous in Him and the work which He is instrumental
|
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in accomplishing, but I confess I would be more desirous of possessing
such a spirit as shown conspicuously in McChyne, with whom as I read I could
not help involuntarily contrasting him - also read Hochstetter's
Letters on the geology etc. of the province of Auckland and could not but
desire an opportunity of visiting some of those interesting places which
he describes. Afternoon and evening preparing for Sabbath. Would God I
were more skillful in winning souls to Christ - blessed God bestow
on me a large measure Thy sanctifying and renewing spirit.
|
2 July |
My ear still troubling me a good deal - all day and
evening - brothers Thomas and William and Samuel Cochrane here
tonight. Had no time to be with them except for a few moments. Brother
William has taken wharf and store from Mr. S. Baird. I hope it may please
Providence to make him successful in this undertaking. I am thankful
events have so transpired so as to keep him in this neighbourhood. Nothing
appeared so probable than that he should be so near to us. How short
sighted we are. Poor Mr. Baird's death was what led Sam Baird to let the
wharf and Samuel Cochrane being here (which a little while ago seemed
as improbable as Baird's being taken) was clearly what led to William
taking the step for he would not even have thought of it had not he
suggested it to him. It may in time lead to other desirable changes. May
God mercifully order all things for good to all of us.
|
3 July |
Preached in Otahuhu - still suffering a great deal - persuaded
not to go to Tamaki - felt unhappy in my mind at not being there
although I dare say it was the prudent course - Lord God spare me
and fit me to do some good work in Thy vineyard.
|
4 July |
At home all day - better. Reading etc. Joseph brought our border
rose and other things for the flower ground from Mr. Carruth's and dear
Momma, John and Joseph planted them. Sam was at the wharf for water
barrels.
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5 July |
Mr. Thomson of Tamaki came to inquire after my health this forenoon. He
is a man who has had invariably been very warm-hearted towards me. I went
to town in the afternoon for the meeting of presbytery tomorrow - was
very glad to hear from Mr. White whom I met on the way that he was
very much pleased with the new prayer meeting at Tamaki on the Sabbath
afternoon which was held by the elders in my absence - especially
Mr. Thomson's devotional exercises - I hope it may be the beginning
of regular prayer meetings in that district. Found Mr. McKinney in Hobson
Street - also saw Mr. Bruce for a few minutes who had returned from
Whangarei the evening before having walked all the way making several
calls at points considerably off the direct road - visiting and
preaching and performing other ministerial duties. He is a man of great
energy and indomitable perseverance. Also met for the first time with
Mr. White the teacher of the Hobson Street school of whose scholarship
etc I have formed a high estimate.
|
6 July |
Meeting of Presbytery today. No very interesting business. The low
state of the Stipend Fund at Mahurangi called for the adoption of
measures to remedy the crying evil. Some conversation introduced by
me on the subject of preparing young men for the ministry under the
care of our own Presbytery. A committee appointed on the subject.
Remained overnight in Hobson Street met there a young man McBayly from
Dublin and spoke for the first time to McGibbons who had a letter of
introduction to me from Dr. Morgan.
|
7 July |
Left Town after breakfast, called at the Hospital - Mr. Dilworth's
(Mrs. D. ill) Mr. R. Robeinson, Mr. Baird's and held Prayer meeting at
seven o'clock. A good attendance - expounded 5th. Chapter of Genesis
and felt that I had laboured in the performance.
|
8 July |
Visited a little - in conversation with Mr. Wetherell led to
reflect deeply on his many trials and do trust that it is because the
Lord loveth him that he is chastened so severely. I do think there is
a favourable change manifest in his manner and conversation
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and that there are not a few hopeful signs of gracious dealings
with him. He has now been confined with his broken leg nearly seven
months and his little daughter Jane a month longer with her carious legs.
She is now about 20 weeks in the Hospital and is likely to be for months
unable to leave it. It is a wonderful providence and I believe a kind
of providence for both. The Hospital is a much better school in many
respects than home would have been and the child appears to be quite
happy and contented. During the evening was engaged in preparation for
Sabbath and went to bed at half past eleven.
|
9 July |
Very heavy rain this morning - did not continue throughout the
day - busied with my preparations for preaching till one o'clock
A.M. Sabbath morning - did not feel uncomfortable in mind but rather
gloomy and desponding. God be merciful unto me and cause His face to
shine upon me and I shall be satisfied. Oh God bless my family Bless
my people.
|
10 July |
Preached at Otahuhu and Howick - fine day and good congregations - a
baptism at Howick stayed overnight at Mr. King's and visited.
|
11 July |
Visited Mellon, Mrs. Irvine and Andrews - found Mrs. Irvine very
destitute - gave her a little money and set foot on a subscription for
her - she is a woman forsaken and grieved in spirit - her husband
a drunkard, gone to Nelson and does nothing for her - found Jessie
Wallace, Lizzie and Dorcas here when I returned - all well - This was
Samuel's fifteenth birthday - I hope he is growing wiser as he grows
older - his body is growing apace - thank God all the children are
very healthy and my dear wife's health is improving.
|
12 July |
Visited a little in the morning - Mr. Overton's Party in the
Evening - esteem Mr. & Mrs. Overton very highly - he is a truly
Christian man - very amiable family - large and happy party - reminded
me a good deal of Mr. Baird's Party - how short it seems since he was
alive and so anxious for the comfort of all his guests. Who will next
be called? Oh that the summons may find us prepared: Alas how little
serious thought is there of death.
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13 July |
Engaged reading in the morning - for a little while in the garden
with Sam transplanting gooseberry trees after breakfast and visiting in
the afternoon - a very fine day.
|
14 July |
Visiting throughout the day - prayer meeting in the evening pretty
good attendance though raining - my dear wife ill with a nervous
headache today - wishes she had not gone to Mr. Overton's Party - in
better spirits during the evening and is now conversing pleasantly
with Lizzie Macky who returned here from the meeting. Must endeavour
to guard my dear wife more carefully from whatever would be likely to
injure her health. A more dutiful loving thoughtful wife sinful man
never was gifted with. I acknowledge I have not sufficiently valued
such an estimable blessing.
|
15 July |
Very wet day - confined to house all day - preparing for Sabbath
till 12 o'clock midnight.
|
16 July |
Preparing for tomorrow - too many thoughts intrude about worldly
affairs. Would to God I could live wholly above this world. Alas, how
entangled are earthly cares and vexations. Oh God Take not thy spirit
from me.
|
17 July |
Preached at Otahuhu and Tamaki - good congregations - trust I
preached faithfully - may God bless his own word to the saving of
many souls. Remained at Mr. Thomson's overnight - experienced as usual
much kindness.
|
18 July |
Class at Tamaki and some visitation.
|
19 and 20 July |
A little visiting - carpenters putting up some spouting on our
house - called on by Thomas Rosborough and a Mr. Ferguson from Belfast,
passengers by the 'Whirlwind' from London - a large number of
emigrants will have much difficulty in getting employment. News from
Europe of war having commenced between Austria and France. What an awful
calamity is war and where this war may terminate or when God knoweth.
It appears to me that war with Sardinia has been forced upon Austria
and that the French Emperor is seeking by his interference to divert the
volatile people over when he but insecurely rules and who if not engaged
in wars abroad will be sure to be revolutionary at home.
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21 July |
Visiting all day - Mr. Goodfellow's in the evening - Rebecca
and Dorcas met me there - found also Mr. & Mrs. Robertson
there.
|
22 July |
Visiting all day - preparing for the Sabbath in the evening till
12 o'clock.
|
23 July |
Preparing for tomorrow - very cold and blowing hard all
day - portends very wet weather tomorrow.
|
24 July |
Better weather than I anticipated, but so threatening as to affect the
attendance at church unfavourably in both Otahuhu and Howick. Rain came
on very heavily before I got home - am glad I was not dissuaded from
going to Howick - had some dozen of a congregation there.
|
25 and 26 July |
Planting strawberries during the day - preparing account of
Mr. Wilson's (deceased) property as required by law, one evening at my
father's the other. Received before going to Father's the Package of
tracts, catechisms etc. sent from home to me by Mr. Brigham and after
returning from Father's received a letter and package to me by Mr. Brigham
which have greatly astonished me and grieved me. May God save me from
the deeper sorrow which I dread. Oh Fit me to bear whatever Thou art
pleased to lay upon me and may my heart's sins be destroyed, even though
my heart's grief should be increased.
|
27 July |
My fears have been removed. All is well To God be the Glory. Spent
the day with my dear Wife at Samuel Baird's - inspected brother William's
new house, the store etc. and am greatly pleased with everything.
Have reason to hope that William will do well.
|
28 July |
Had a short visit this afternoon from Mr. Bruce asking me to
preach at Auckland next Sabbath evening on behalf of the New Hebrides
Mission.
|
29 July |
The weather is beautifully fine - indeed remarkably so for the
season - Samuel is getting on courageously at the very laborious
employment of ditching which was commenced at his own suggestion.
I could desire to see him in another walk of life but it is
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his own choice to farm and I trust God has to do with it and is
directing him for good. Bearing the yoke in his youth may be the
best thing for him. Preparing for the Sabbath both last evening and
this.
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30 July |
All day and evening preparing for tomorrow.
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31 July |
Preached in the morning in Otahuhu - collection for the liquidation
of the debt on the Church - preached in the evening in Auckland for New
Hebrides Mission - very good congregation on both occasions.
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1 August |
Meetings of The Committees of Presbyterian Bible Society and
preparation of Young Men for the Ministry this morning in Mr. Clark's
Auckland. Sundry little matters of business - got home at dusk - found
all well Blest be to God for his abounding goodness.
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2 and 3 August |
Visiting very laborious part of my duty - doubtful whether so much
good can be done in this way as at home. Very difficult to meet with
all the members of a household except at meals.
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4 August |
Visited the school, one or two places in the village - prayer meeting
in the evening in the Church - 40 persons present. The weather during
this winter has been remarkably fine - just now it is more like summer
than winter - but the frosts at night though trifling have been sufficient
to keep grass very short and the cattle are badly off - seven calves
have died this year - though by the kindness of Mr. Samuel Clark we
have plenty of hay for them. We must expect loses and trials and be
thankful that it is no worse. God is good.
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5 August |
Visited Woodside school this morning. Mr. McKinney came here
this afternoon - is to exchange with Mr. Norrie on Sabbath by
order of presbytery and spent the evening in brother William's new
house - large party of young people - my wife, Mr. McKinney and I
left early.
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6 August |
Busy with my preparations for tomorrow all day - sorry could not be
more with Mr. McKinney but duty first.
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7 August |
Otahuhu and Howick - good congregations - was unusually helped in
the afternoon at Howick. Jas. Wallace rode thither with me and returned
with me. May God further his cause at Howick.
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8 August |
Visited Mangarei - got home at Dusk - weather continuing beautifully
fine - very favourable for the farmers.
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9 August |
Planting a few early potatoes. Mr. McKinney left for town this
morning. He is a very pleasant and thoroughly sincere man - is disposed
rather much to censoriousness which leads to uncharitableness or else
is preceded by it. He indiscreetly talks light of Wesleyanism which
certainly does not raise him with my wife, but there is nevertheless
much sincere friendship which I believe is quite mutual.
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10 August |
Weather still very dry - wind from South East - planted some beans,
peas, etc. Samuel still getting on ditching; he is very diligent and
works very hard. This day he and the boy Little who is working with him
made one chain and three rods of a four rod ditch. I trust this kind
of labour will strengthen his constitution and prevent the frequent ill
consequences of a rapid growth. Preparing in the evening for tomorrow
evening's lecture at prayer meeting.
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11 August |
Visiting in school today. Met with considerable surprise and annoyance
on finding that thieves had got into the Session Room and carried off
my gown - the place was certainly very insecure and the thieves had
little trouble. I have been more vexed about it than the intrinsic
value of the gown warranted, though it was a good and beautiful garment.
I daresay many of the people will not be sorry it is stolen - being
prejudiced against anything distinctive in the dress of a minister except
the white neck tie.
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12 August |
Visiting in the forenoon - preparation for Sabbath in the evening.
Weather continuing beautifully fine - quite like summer except the
light frosts at night.
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13 August |
Preparing all day and evening for tomorrow.
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14 August |
Otahuhu and Tamaki - good congregations - did not feel the want of
my gown in preaching but with all my philosophy felt a little on entering
the Church without it. Stopped overnight in Mr. William Taylor's - 'The
lines have fallen to me in pleasant places'.
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15 August |
Visited in Tamaki - held my class - and got home about half past six.
A beautiful day but a little cooler than the past.
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16 August |
Working a little in the garden. In the evening Mrs. Anderson,
Mrs. A. Macky, father, mother, Lizzie and Mr. Jamieson with us, a pleasant
but not very profitable evening - still very dry weather - grass in
paddocks exceedingly scarce.
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17 August |
Party in my father's this evening - all young people - sister
Dorcas's party - how very good and amiable a girl is Dorcas. I believe
it is not all of nature but of grace. Rebecca and I invited but did
not go - Rebecca indisposed.
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18 August |
Still very dry - appearance of rain tonight - may a kind providence
cause it to descend plentifully. Hay done - cattle turned out.
Oh, that in all circumstances we may possess our souls in patience.
Hail today - news of French successes and Austrian disasters. Will Louis
Napoleon's wonderful career be of long continuance. He leads his troops
in person.
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19 August |
Received large number of Home Newspapers - synod news - election
news - Missionary Herald for June - part of a letter of mine in
it - McClure is anxious for more letters from me, but I have alas
very little to write about. Letters from Melbourne - from John
Cochrane - is willing to take Samuel and writes in a very candid and
kind manner. I have not yet shown the letter to Samuel; I am almost sad
at the thought of even a temporary separation. If he is against going
I will not urge him but think it would be for his advantage though in
the meantime we will feel the want of him very much if he go. May God
mercifully interpose in this matter and order everything for the best.
My own wisdom I feel to be nothing - the future is alone known to God
and it is not the present
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but the future - that this has regard to. Samuel is this night
attending at his Uncle William's a meeting of young men who are
contemplating the formation of a Mutual Improvement Association - rain
not yet come but appears to be very near. Engaged this and two former
evenings preparation for Sabbath.
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20 August |
A good deal of rain last night. The day dry but threatening - likely
to be plenty of rain tonight. God be praised for all his abounding
goodness. Told Samuel of the letter from John Cochrane - he is pleased
at it but wishes not to go till he has succeeded in getting something
done with this farm - it is better perhaps, he should go at once.
I trust we shall be manifestly directed.
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21 August |
Otahuhu and Howick - good congregations - was enabled to preach
faithfully and earnestly. Stopped at Mr. King's overnight.
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22 August |
Visited all day in Howick and on the way from it. Am seriously of the
opinion Samuel should proceed at once to Melbourne as his cousin states
it would be of importance he should be there in September.
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23 August |
Visited a little in Otahuhu in the forenoon. Saw S. & J. Cochrane
and brother Thomas at William's as I returned. S. C. came here afterwards
and is staying the night. He is also of the opinion Samuel should go
without delay.
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24 August |
My dear Rebecca, Samuel and I went to town on this day. Samuel took
goodbye of them at home. Got things in readiness for him - S. &
J. Cochrane very kind in the matter and Thomas above all. Passage taken
on Prince Alfred, steamer for Sydney. It is to me and his mother a
great trial - Oh the bitterness of parting. Happy they are who are
safe where parting is unknown.
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25 August |
My dear Samuel sailed this evening at 5 o'clock by the 'Prince
Alfred'. We got everything for him he required as far
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as our means enabled us. Poor fellow he bore it like a man. To me it
was a hard trial. I have good hope God will prosper and bless him -
I believe he is trusting in the lord and that he will be upheld by him.
On God be merciful unto him and bless him and ever cause the light of
thy countenance to shine upon him so that he shall be safe.
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26 August |
Called at Hospital on our way home to see Jane Wetherell - got home
at dark - feel sad and sorrowful - perhaps childishly about Samuel.
Preparing to 11 o'clock for Sabbath.
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27 August |
Busy most of the day at my sermon for tomorrow. Some wordy anxieties
interfered. Oh God, teach me submission; and enable me to believe that
losses and difficulties are sent by a merciful hand not to curse but to
bless us. God keep our absent one.
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28 August |
Otahuhu and Tamaki - good congregations - the anniversary of my
ministry here. Five years passed. Oh How swiftly. What report have
they borne to Heaven? Alas how insufficiently have I been a worker
together with the Lord. Stayed at Mr. Wallace's overnight. Mr. Baillie
was stopping at my house - a young man from Dublin - now teaching at
Epsom.
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29 August |
Visiting - class at Tamaki - all well on my return.
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30, 31 August |
Visiting a little - John and Joseph took two cows to market on 31st. -
I spent the evening at Mr. Goodfellow's.
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1 September |
Cow found dead in the swamp this morning - felt rather depressed and
not in a proper frame of mind humble submission - prayed against the
rebellion of my heart and found relief, how vain are all our plans in
regard to this world - God confounds them and no doubt for the purpose
of teaching us to trust his more implicitly and take him more into our
counsels. If we have had heavy losses this year - they were anticipated
by the increase of our income, in the presents received. God's will
be done - the weather has been stormy for the last three days - I
trust in God's great mercy our dear Son has been preserved. Visiting in
the forenoon. At the school in the afternoon - prayer meeting in the
evening - preparing for the Sabbath till 12:30 o'clock.
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2 September |
Preparing for the Sabbath - John and Joseph commenced planting
potatoes on the bank - I assisted a little - up to a late hour night
wet and stormy.
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3 September |
Busy at my preparation all day and evening. Weather still
squally.
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4 September |
Otahuhu and Mangarei - weather much improved - congregations a
little thin at Otahuhu - at Mangarei, being the first service in the
new school house there, the attendance was very good - collection
£8.
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5, 6, 7 September |
Weather showery but pleasant - working occasionally in the
garden - making flower beds - preparing address for 'Young Men's
Mutual Improvement Association' and lecture for Thursday evening - our
thoughts very much with Samuel. Oh that we may have good news of him.
Several vessels with Immigrants have arrived during the last few
days - wages of labourers likely to come down considerably and many
newcomers will be sadly disappointed and have great difficulties to
contend with.
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7 September |
My birthday. I am now entering my fortieth year. God's great
goodness and my own nothingness and sinfulness fill up the past.
May God's mercy still be upon me and his grace be made sufficient for
me in all my future.
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8 September |
Prayer meeting in the evening - visiting all day - meeting of
Session and Congregation in the Evening.
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9 September |
Young Men's Mutual Improvement Association at 7 p.m. I gave opening
address - A very pleasant meeting.
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10 September |
Busy at preparation all day.
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11 September |
Otahuhu and Tamaki - good congregations though weather
threatening - was in good health and helped much in my services.
Went to Auckland in the evening.
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12 September |
Paid brother Thomas £100 and otherwise laid out in payments
remainder of half years stipend. Visited Mr. Bruce's.
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14, 15, 16 September |
My dear wife in town. Her absence makes me know her worth
all the more. Thank God she is back with me tonight (16th) safe
and well. Joseph, Elizabeth, Lindsay and Sarah Rebecca were along
with her - Margaret and I sowed some flower seeds in their absence.
On the day she went to town I accompanied to Otahuhu and we visited
Dr. and Mrs. Kenderdine and Mrs. Gordon. On her return home she told me
Mrs. Gordon had given her £5 the second present of the same amount
from that kind hearted lady. May God reward her. Rebecca's brother
Samuel has been talking to her about the propriety of my letting part
of the paddock and
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I am thinking seriously about it. I have far too much anxiety at
present about temporalities and besides have only been disappointed
again and again in my expectations - the paddock has hitherto been
almost useless.
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17 September |
Busy preparing for tomorrow. Mr. Boyle is staying with us. We had
great rain this morning. Joseph Alexander has been here for some
days.
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18 September |
Sabbath - Otahuhu and Howick - a rather boisterous day - attendance
not quite so good. Preached on self-denial - how much do I constantly
need to practice it. Stayed at Mr. King's all night - met Mr. Williams
of Whangapirau there - spoke I hope faithfully to them on the duty of
waiting on the Lord in the ordinances of his appointment.
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19 September |
Visited Mr. Maitland a new settler - can form no opinion about
him - except that he has been out of the way of public ordinances, while
at the Australian Diggins and is I fear a worldling. Crossed the punt and
visited Balderston, Mrs. Irvine and Mr. Findlay - Mrs. Irvine is a poor
broken hearted creature. I am to write to her husband at Nelson whom I
fear drunkedness has made an unfeeling husband and an unnatural parent.
Who can tell how much the woman herself may be to blame? Family matters
are often mysteries.
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20 September |
Mail day. God be praised a letter from my dear Samuel from
Sydney - his passage was a good preparation for other roughnesses which
may have to be encountered. His note well expressed, plain matter of
fact and unembellished. He was being kindly entertained by McAple and
Henderson to whom Uncle Joe gave him an introduction. He was to leave
for Melbourne on the 6th. instant. This has been very gladenning
to dear Mama and his brothers and sisters. A good many newspapers
from Home - letter from Samuel Wallace who has been very attentive in
writing to me. News of Peace between France and Austria - I don't like
it - these Royal gamblers are plotting evil and care not how much of
bloodshed there may be in trying to compass the objects of their ambition.
Far more glorious news is that of the Revival in Ireland - it has
spread amazingly and is even pervading scenes with
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which memory is most familiar - Oh God pour out thy spirit in
extraordinary measure on poor Fahan and make it a moral Goshen; And Oh;
let the blessed effluence be shed abundantly on us.
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21 September |
Poor Boyd - the once Minister of Moyrore in the Athlone presbytery,
suspended in 1845 for drunkenness, was here today. It was the second
time for him to be here. He is a lawyer and I fear spends all he
earns in the same courses by which he fell from a lofty eminence to
great degradation. Oh; My God it is only thy grace by which any one
is preserved from degradation and misery. May I never cease to bless
my God for all his goodness and forbearance and loving kindness to me,
a miserable offender, by the grace of God I am what I am - a minister
of the gospel and not a degraded outcast.
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22 September |
Transplanted some Blue Gums - seedlings from boxed into a bed.
Brought over a Norfolk Island pine from Brother James's. He is
of the opinion I should not let the paddock. The boys breaking
the ground in the gully preparing it for grass seed etc. Wrote to
Samuel - Mr. McClure - my father-in-law. My dear Rebecca wrote to
Aunt Catherine.
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23 September |
Gully sowed with grass and clover seed. Attended Young Men's Mutual
Improvement Association in the evening - a very good and pleasant
meeting - would like if Sam was getting the advantage of it. There may
be something of the kind where he is. Frost this morning and frosty
again tonight.
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24 September |
Preparation for the Sabbath. This night is still a little
frosty - it is retarding the spring considerably and cutting off the
grass.
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25 September |
Sabbath. Slight frost in morning - a beautiful day - large
congregations in Otahuhu and Tamaki. Collection in Otahuhu for New
Zealand Home Mission - have not heard the amount but expect it to be
good - stayed at Mr. Thomson's, got a note at Mr. Baird's as I was going
to Tamaki, which had been left in Auckland with a chiffonier, a present
to my dear wife from Mrs. Thomson and Mrs. William Taylor of Tamaki.
It is very gratifying to have friends so thoughtful about our wants and
anxious to supply them.
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26 September |
Visited at Tamaki - received £10 - the Tamaki subscription
to the Home Mission - held my bible class as usual - make a few calls
afterwards and got home at dark. My wife had been visiting and was
after me getting home - brought Lizzie Wetherell with her - poor
neglected miserable creature; and poor wretched man, her father - how
thankful we should be when both parents are spared over their children
and when we contrast our children's lot with them. It is all of grace.
Grace alone makes us to differ - may we not be high minded but fear;
And Oh; May God in his great mercy have compassion upon that poor man
and his poor children and show favour to them.
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27, 28 September |
Reading. Visiting and gardening. Weather dry and ground rather
parched. The moral ground alas more so - and Ah how little longing
for the refreshing showers of grace. Nothing but the power of the
spirit of God can transform into a lovely garden the waste howling
wilderness - Oh That God would look in mercy upon us and send forth His
Light and His Truth - We shall be dark miserable and unfruitful till
we pray unceasingly and earnestly and believingly for the outpouring of
the Holy Spirit.
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29 September |
Visiting school and meeting of Session - Prayer meeting. Not happy
today - did not experience anything of the gladness of spirit which I
ought to feel in God's Service - there may be other causes but I feel
that not living so near to God as I ought and not having his glory at
heart are the principal. Oh God cast me not away from thy presence and
take not thy holy spirit away from me.
'Stay Thou insulted Spirit stay
Though I have done thee such despite,
Nor cast the sinner away
Nor take thine everlasting light'
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30 September |
Preparing for Sabbath - planting out the Blue Gums seedlings my father
gave me - came on to rain heavily in the evening. John went to Town
in the morning for the Chiffonier and is not to return until tomorrow.
Prayed over resolutions and
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felt at peace. Gracious God strengthen mine and quicken us.
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1 October |
Preparing to preach tomorrow from Psalms 54 and 55 'Oh Lord help
me - and make me in truth Thy servant and use me as such.
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2 October |
Sabbath. Preached at Otahuhu and Howick - good attendances - Hope I
delivered a faithful message - may God give the increase. Returned from
Howick in company with Mr. Bovaird and had some pleasant conversation on
conversion and revival.
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3 October |
The Misses Goodfellow here this evening - I had been engaged in
preparing a paper for a committee of Presbytery.
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4, 5 October |
Meeting of Presbytery. Mr. McKinney preached from text 'He that
winneth souls is wise' - a good service - asked to publish it - no
very important business - my elder was Mr. James Wallace.
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6 October |
Did some business in town - called at Hospital - held prayer meeting
at 7 o'clock p.m - have got a slight influenza.
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7 October |
Visiting a little - Jessie Wallace staying with us - a good artless
girl - Lizzie also with us Aunt Baird in Father's - ill with deafness
etc. Preparing in evening for Sabbath.
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8 October |
Preparation - have engaged to preach tomorrow evening for Mr. Bruce.
Communion Sabbath - my cold is affecting my studying injuriously.
May grace assist me.
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9 October |
Sabbath preached at Otahuhu in the morning and Auckland in the
Evening - Mr. Bruce at Tamaki - Mr. A. Sinclair has met with a severe
accident by falling from his horse - thought to be even dangerous.
May God be merciful to him.
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10 October |
Breakfasted with S. Cochrane - called on Mr. Bruce on my way out of
town - he thinks Mr. Sinclair's accident will delay his marriage which
is fixed for tomorrow week. (Mr. Bruce's marriage)
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11 October |
Spent this afternoon with Mr. and Mrs. Wallace - Tamaki - at
Nicholls' Farm - very warm day. Rebecca, Jessie Wallace, Lizzie and
Dorcas along - met Mr. and Mrs. Wallace there. Rode with me, J. Wallace
to bush in forenoon.
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12 October |
At Mr. Goodfellow's this evening.
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13 October |
Visiting at Mangarei - Prayer meeting in evening - rain seems
near.
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14 October |
Very refreshing rain this morning and forenoon. Rebecca,
Jessie Wallace and Lizzie driven by John - spent evening in
Mr. J. Wallace's in Otahuhu. I was engaged in preparation for the
Sabbath and visiting my dear Mother who is suffering from sick headache.
Heard from Mr. Bruce - his marriage takes place as first arranged on
Tuesday.
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15 October |
Preparation - Jos. and Sam Alexander came out today - heard
Mr. Sinclair much better - God be praised for all his goodness to us
and to all.
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16 October |
Preached at Otahuhu and Howick - returned home in the evening - a
good day - Bless the Lord - Oh my soul and forget not all his
benefits.
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17 October |
My dear wife and I went to town - she by the van and I on horseback
which arrangement was necessary to enable me to return when most
convenient. Found brother Thomas's pretty well.
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18 October |
Married Mr. Bruce to Miss Mary Alexander Sinclair - I believe it will
be a very happy union. May God's blessing rest on them.
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19 October |
Went this day with S. Cochrane, brother Thomas and a few others
to Brigham's Mill. It was the first time for me to be up the
Waitemata - the day was pleasant but the scenery etc. has little to
interest. The erection of that mill by Brigham was a folly. It is now
sold and the poor man has nothing left. It is very sad but if their
troubles were to lend them to the saviour they would be blessed and
joyful troubles - God grant it.
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20 October |
Returned home - anxious to get my letters - the English Mail having
arrived yesterday and not having got them in Auckland - Commenced
thundering shortly after I left Hobson and raining when I got
to Dilworth's and rained and poured till I got home - thoroughly
drenched - only one letter and that from Sam, poor fellow - he had got
a bad cold same night he arrived at J. Cochrane's. God grant he may be
better; and be spared to serve God in the land of the living.
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21 October |
Visiting and preparing for Sabbath.
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22 October |
Rode into Auckland - found all well.
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23 October |
Preached for Mr. Bruce morning and evening -
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a very large congregation in the morning - Mr. Bruce was in from
Tamaki in time to take Mrs. Bruce to evening Church.
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24 October |
Called on some gentlemen this morning to request them to speak at
our Soiree on the 8th. November. Visited Mr. Bruce at the Manse - it
is a very nice house indeed and they appear very happy and comfortable.
Rode out to Tamaki calling at Mr. R. Taylor's on my way - kept my class
and rode home, calling to see Aunt Baird whom I left rather indisposed.
Had great rain and was thoroughly wet.
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25 October |
Sent for to go and see about Lizzie Wetherell who had lain out all
night and was taken into Clow's in the morning. The people are disposed
to blame poor Wetherell - but I believe him when he tells me that he is
indulgent to her rather than severe. She is very deficient in intellect
and is far from improving. How thankful parents ought to be whose
children possess all their powers and faculties. It is a great trial
to have an idiot child - it is only now poor Wetherell begins to see
there is a deficiency in Lizzie which advancing years will not remedy.
God help him poor man and make his sore trials means of blessing his
soul.
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26 October |
Visited - read - wrote - meditated.
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27 October |
My dear wife returned from town this morning. How thankful I am she
is again among us safe and well - Oh; What a sad dreary thing it is for
me to be here without her. Mr. and Mrs. T. Hall, Mr. Dilworth Sr. and
Mrs. Dilworth and Mrs. J. Hall visited us today. Preparing to preach
tomorrow (Friday) the preparatory service before communion.
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28 October |
Preached in Otahuhu - pretty good attendance - favourable weather
in rather rainy season.
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29 October |
Preparing all day for tomorrows services.
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30 October |
Communion Sabbath - had a peaceful and happy communion
season - number of communicants 75 - Oh; That we had a clearer
demonstration of the spirit of God working in us and by us.
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31 October |
Spent this day with brother James and family at the beach of
Manukau.
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1 November |
Visiting - beautiful weather - another letter from Sam. Thank God
he writes in good spirits and speaks nothing of cold so that we may hope
that he is quite well.
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2 November |
Young Men's Meeting this evening - it is succeeding very well.
Saw a most brilliant meteor on my way home - its size no less than the
full moon and much brighter.
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3 November |
Visiting - prayer meeting in the evening - rather thinly attended
though the weather was beautiful. I was rather perplexed at this - it
may be that I fail to interest in the exposition of the Book of
Genesis - I shall wait.
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4 November |
Preparing for the Sabbath - Very lovely day and night. I am
now writing at half past eleven o'clock. How still the night; 'The
night cometh when no man can work'. Oh; God how little good have I
wrought - how little have I lived to thy glory; Blessed Jesus clothe
me with thy righteousness and sanctify me by thy spirit.
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5 November |
Preparation for tomorrow. Not such as I could desire - an enervating
oppressive atmosphere. I am very seriously affected by atmospheric
changes - I often think would much physical disqualifications be
removed in such a revival as now enjoyed in the North of Ireland.
Of this revival we have further and very gratifying intelligence in the
British Messenger for August which only reached us yesterday - our
parcels having been left behind in Sydney. My dear Rebecca has gone
into town again this evening to be with sister Kitty. She was very
busily engaged up to the moment she left preparing for the soiree on
Tuesday and fitting up anew the Stranger's bedroom etc. God has given
her a deal of energy and she need it all. It is looking somewhat like a
change of weather tonight - Jos. Alexander is still with us - he seems
to like a country life best - I wish he had some good situation where he
would learn farming - I am anxious about him and if I had anything in
my power would do what I could for him. I hardly think surveying will
suit him. Blest be God another week has passed and we are in safety.
To a kind providence I desire to commit our keeping body, soul and
spirit.
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6 November |
Sabbath - Otahuhu and Tamaki - good congregations and I had much
more liberty in preaching that I expected. Oh; That God may bless his
own word. Slept at Mr. W. Taylor's
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7 November |
This morning spoke to Mr. Taylor about the Mortgage and received
a favourable answer. Visited at Gollan's Mrs. Nicholson's and
Mr. White's - held my class and got home at the approach of
night.
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8 November |
Visited a little. Soiree this evening - went off well - speakers on
the occasion Revs. Bruce, Norrie, McDonald Thornton, Messrs. Goodfellow,
Clark, Rattray, Stables White, Overton, Street and Gordon.
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9 November |
Reading and visiting this morning - Rebecca had some young people
in the evening to finish off the Soiree - a very pleasant meeting.
All seemed to enjoy themselves very much.
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10 November |
In the garden a good deal today - and preparing for the evening.
Tead at Baird's. Prayer Meeting - preparation for the Sabbath after
returning home - beautiful showery weather - growth of plants and
vegetables very rapid.
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11 November |
My dear wife went to town again today - I sincerely wish on every
account that Mrs. Thomas (Thomas' wife,Kitty) were better. May God
spare her. Visited Rippey and my father and mother. It is my father's
birthday - he is 73. May God's Holy spirit be largely imparted to
both my parents to fit them for Glory. Preparing for Sabbath till a
late hour.
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12 November |
Preparing all day as closely as I was able to sit - but frequently
felt very languid and dull - have a cold - wrote a little to my dear
wife.
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13 November |
Otahuhu and Howick - was very dull at Otahuhu much better at
Howick - returned home in the evening - the morning being wet and cold
affected the attendance at Otahuhu.
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14 November |
Brother Thomas, S. Cochrane and Mr. Reid out of town here today - a
fine day but rather windy - no note from my dear Rebecca but a kind
message. This evening some friends are meeting in S. Baird's to arrange
about ploughing part of my paddock.
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15 November |
Brother William with me tonight finishing his Essay - brought me
word that Sam Baird's to be here opening the ridges tomorrow and that
two or three others are to come to make suggestions - it is all very
good and kind but there is somehow a feeling about it in my own mind
not the pleasantest.
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16 November |
Samuel Baird opened furrows all day and Mr. Thomson here in the morning
and father and William - I was with them almost constantly until evening.
Meeting of Young Men's Association - William's Essay - not read
well - nervous about it - writing rather small and dim. Messrs. Baber's
and A Wallace's Recitations - former very respectable. Got a tremendous
hail shower on my way home. A letter from my dear wife - breathing the
affection which is as strong and warm in her faithful bosom. May the
Almighty compass her with his favour.
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17 November |
Visiting nearly all day - Wesleyan School, D. Clark's, Clow's,
Water's, Brother James', Porter's, Rippey, Father's - preparation for
the sabbath in the evening.
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18 November |
Visited Wetherell, Rippey, Gather's in the evening. This was the
day of polling for the new members of the Provincial Council for the
Southern Division. I did not attend - I have never yet voted either
at home or here - and until some particular Emergency I think I
shall not come out of my political shell. My father was here to vote
for Goodfellow and Styak. No news from town - mail not yet arrived.
Preparation for Sabbath in the evening - have got a slight influenza.
Oh; What a sad calamity if the absence of my dear wife were anything
but temporary.
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19 November |
Preparation all day for tomorrow.
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20 November |
Otahuhu and Tamaki - remained overnight at Mr. Burns - Mr. Taylor's
youngest child, Arthur ill.
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21 November |
Left Tamaki early - went to Mangarei to see Mrs. James Wallace who I
had heard was ill - found her better. My dear Rebecca had reached home
before me - God be praised for all his great goodness to us.
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22, 23 November |
The ploughing of my paddock - 22 ploughs here - a very happy
party - a great kindness done to me by a kind people - my dear wife
very busy making them comfortable with a good dinner. The most of them
determined to return tomorrow and finish what they have so well begun.
Dorcas and Lizzie also very busy assisting.
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24 November |
19 ploughs today - Mr. John Wallace, 3 ploughs both days,
Mangarei Wallace's two - Styak two - the following each one both
days - R. Robertson, J. Robertson, S. Baird, A. Wallace, T. Overton,
S. Clark, W. Goodfellow, Dr. Thomson, R. Hall, The following each one
one day - J. Nawk, G. Gifford and McClennan, J. Wallace Otahuhu,
J. Carruth, Waters, John Scott. Married D. W. (?) from Wairoa
today - when came back found all company finished dinner having completed
all ploughing. Meeting of School Committee in evening - received
Mr. Jamieson's resignation of the School and taking steps about another
teacher.
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25 November |
My dear Rebecca went to town today again - Mrs. T. Macky not
yet better - Visited a little preparation for the Sabbath - mail
yesterday - letters from Mr. McClure (informing of coming of another
teacher etc.) and from Mrs. Norton to my dear wife - note from Sam
to Lizzie - greatly disappointed that there is none from him to
ourselves.
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26 November |
Preparing for tomorrow - read service - Drury papers - wrote some
letters.
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27 November |
Sabbath - Otahuhu and Howick - a wet day. Returned from Howick
and under engagement to attend at Soiree in the Wesleyan Chapel there
on Tuesday evening next.
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28 November |
Soiree at Howick - went off very well - Lizzie Macky, Miss Donaghy
and Mr. Brigham walked there and remained with me at Mr. King's all
night.
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30 November |
Visited on my way from Howick - and went to S. Baird's in the evening
according to engagement to syringe Aunt Baird's ears - which I am happy
to think has done good to her hearing.
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1 December |
Visited in the afternoon at Mr. Ludbrook's and Mr. Goodfellow's
and went from there to attend a prayer meeting. The evening was very
lowering and already raining and there was no meeting. I returned home
and came into my study here I was not seated more than a few minutes when
a messenger arrived from Auckland with the overwhelming intelligence of
my dear sister-in-law Kitty's death. Oh, The bitter bitter grief - I
shall never forget the anguish of this hour.
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So unexpected that I was even blaming her for keeping my own dear
wife so long from home. Oh, God forgive every unkind thought which may
have passed through my mind of that kind, loving heart which now beats
no longer. And Oh May heavenly consolations be imparted to my poor
cast down bereaved and desolated brother. The night was exceedingly
tempestuous and wet and I could not at once proceed to town as I intended
but stayed at Father's to daylight.
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2 December |
Rode to Auckland this morning at daylight. I needn't dwell on the sad
meetings of this day with its bursting grief. Assisted Dr. Philson at a
post mortem examination of the body of dear Kitty and found she
had died of rupture of the womb which seems to have been occasioned by
the injury done to its substance by a large tumour probably the growth
of years on its posterior side. It was a melancholy satisfaction to
know that no human skill could have averted the sad calamity.
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3 December |
The remains of our loved one were interred this afternoon at 4
o'clock. The sympathy for my dear brother's loss is very great and
general.
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4 December |
Stayed this day with my dear brother - Mr. Norrie very kindly
preached for me at Otahuhu and Mr. Bruce at Tamaki. Thank God, my dear
Brother seeks the consolations of religion and sorrows not as those
who have no hope. I believe his dear wife was a true believer in Jesus
Christ.
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5 December |
Remained still in Auckland - my dear wife getting my brother's house
restored to order etc. Mourning being procured. My dear mother came
in and brought Thomas's two children (the eldest and youngest) who had
been in the country when their dear Mama died. They seem to alleviate
the sorrow and at the same time they open afresh the wounds of their
father's heart. May God be pitiful and kind to them all.
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6 December |
Returned home today - my dear wife still remaining it town - may
God make me thankful, more and more, that she is spared to me and
the dear children. Found all well at home - Aunt Baird staying with
Father - Dorcas and Mother both in town.
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7 December |
Joseph Alexander left this morning to go by steamer to Napier - the
cow Moses Wallace gave to Maggie either strayed or was taken from the
paddock last night. I went to see Mrs. Hatton to know if she would go
to Brother Thomas to keep his house - she is not able to give an answer
immediately - I think she would be a very suitable person - must now
write my dear wife before going to bed.
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8 December |
Thomas Roxborough commenced work with us today. John looking for
the lost cow - did not see or hear anything of her. I visited some
families today and held prayer meeting in the evening.
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9 December |
Visited Mr. Thomson's in the forenoon - Mr. Price called upon me and
stayed for dinner. I am sorry for him - he has been here two months
and has got no employment - he has a wife and child too - he is very
dispirited - what an advantage to him if he had a trade. Joseph looking
for the lost cow today - not found. Lizzie, Mrs. Donaghy, Miss Brigham
and Messrs Gordon and Adem tead with me - how lonely I feel without
my dear wife - may God Spare her to me - she is more precious than
rubies for she is a virtuous woman and of the highest truth and honour.
Her love for me is very devoted and faithful.
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10 December |
Preparing for tomorrow all day - a very languor causing atmosphere
in study today - John and Joseph away in search of the lost cow - with
no better success than formerly - no news from town - I am rather
surprised at this - I trust all are well - I have some idea of going
Howick to Auckland tomorrow evening.
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11 December |
Otahuhu and Howick. Good congregations in both places. Preached from
words Oh Death I will be thy Plagues . Heard of dangerous illness
of Mr. Taylor's child and in place of going on to Auckland returned
home.
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12 December |
Went to Tamaki to see Mr. and Mrs. Taylor - child still alive but
dying - proceeded to Auckland in very heavy rain - found all well - my
dear wife delighted to see me. Mother and Dorcas also there - dear
brother Thomas wonderfully well - but Going Softly .
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13 December |
Left Auckland about 3 o'clock in company of Sam Baird - called at
Miss Vibert - saw Maggie, Aunt Annie. Found all well.
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14 December |
Visited several families - heard from Mr. Hamilton of Auckland of
the lost cow being found - received note to attend Mr. Taylor's child's
funeral on Friday at Noon. Consequently commenced my preparation for
Sabbath. 15th is the Anniversary of my marriage - wrote to my dear
wife with that reference - have received several sweet notes from her.
She is anxious about salvation for herself, children and me. I pray she
may obtain a well grounded hope for us all. Thank God - a letter from
Sam - who is well.
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16 December |
Attended the funeral of Mr. Taylor's child today. Met William,
Miss Donaghy and Lizzie on horseback on my return - we all had
tea at William's. The young ladies rode this way home. Showery
weather.
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17 December |
Preparation for tomorrow - letter from my dear Rebecca,
notices my marriage anniversary letter to her and seems to think it
too flattering. It is not so intended - very warm in study this
afternoon - with feet quite bare, still too hot. Breeze outside and
heat not inconvenient - John and Joe wrote for first time letters to
Sam.
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18 December |
Visited at Mr. Thompson's - held my class - and returned home in
the evening - all well.
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20 December |
Drove to town in the afternoon - my dear wife delighted to see
me - not expecting me till tomorrow - found all well - my dear brother
wonderfully cheerful.
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21 December |
Examination of Mr. Stables school - very much pleased therewith -
had the pleasure of distributing the prizes - continued to four o'clock -
dined at Mr. Bruce's - stayed in Auckland all night.
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22 December |
This day brought home my dear Rebecca, sister Dorcas - all brother
Thomas' children and our own little Sarah and John Alexander. A very
full dogcart.
Found all well at home and delighted greatly to have my dear wife again
with me.
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23 December |
I visited a little and prepared for Sabbath.
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24 December |
Preparation all day - Samuel Cochrane, Mr. Read and Brother Thomas
came out from town - expected Joe Cochrane and felt much disappointed
he did not come, but too proud to express it. Uncle Sam gratified the
children very much by bringing them abundance of fruit - have been
thinking of the Christmases of my boyhood.
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25 December |
Otahuhu and Howick - good attendance - very much helped in my
services especially at Howick - after preaching at latter place visited
Mrs. Maberly at McInnes's who is insane - the wreck of a superior woman -
know no thing of her history - her husband a respectable bookseller in
Auckland - Thomas Rosborough accompanied me to Howick today - returned
home in the evening.
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26 December |
A holiday - amusement - quoits etc. Father, Mother etc. dined with
us - English mail, letter from Mr. Cochrane my wife's father - also from
Mr. Wilson - none from Sam which gave me a good deal of anxious thoughts
- I trust he is well - perhaps being the busy season he hadn't time to
write and writing letters is as yet a labour to him.
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27 December |
Spent day at Mr. Baird's - with Auckland People and Father. Left early
and called at Mr. Ludbrook's and Mr. Goodfellow's. At former place met
Mrs. Ludbrook's Mother, Mrs. Williams - a very intelligent old lady who
has good conversational powers. Mrs. L. and baby doing well.
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28 December |
Visited a little, Library committee in the evening and Young
Men's Mutual Improvement Association. Brother William returned with
me.
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29 December |
Visited at Mr. Badeley's and Mr. Farmer's and Mr. Carruth's. Held
prayer meeting in the evening - first evening without candles being
lighted - a good attendance - not satisfied with myself, exposition
of Genesis somehow
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I cannot make suitable for stirring and awakening addresses which I
think we should have.
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30 December |
Yesterday mother met with an accident by a piece of firewood which was
being cut striking her face - bad enough but very providential escape from
worse. Saw her yesterday and today - preparing for Presbytery a report
on Sabbath Schools and preparing for Sabbath - frequent interruptions -
S. Baird, Mr. Price, Mrs. Thomson. Evening Mr. and Mrs. Goodfellow and
family, Rev. Mr. Norrie, Miss Donaghy and Lizzie - Mr. Goodfellow and
I endeavoured to make out a list of books suitable for Library which
the proceeds of late Soiree enables us to purchase which netted about
£26.
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31 December |
Last day of 1859 - a very solemn thought - how swift the flight of
time and how little good is being done - God, prepare us for eternity.
Preparation for tomorrow forenoon and afternoon - very warm Oh that
my heart were more warm with the love of Christ - Oh For the reviving
spirit of the Lord.
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1 January 1860 |
Otahuhu and Tamaki - endeavoured to improve the occasion by preaching
from the words 'Redeeming Time'. I trust good was done - may this be
indeed a year of abundant Spiritual Blessings. May very many souls
be saved. May the power of the Holy Ghost be manifest more than ever
before. May the kingdom of God come, and Oh that showers of blessings
may descend abundantly even on us in this place. Returned from Tamaki
as there will be no class it being a holiday.
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2 January |
Brother Thomas out from Town - spent the evening at my
father's.
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3 January |
Rode to Town this morning in company of brother Thomas. Committee of
Schools meeting in the evening and College Committee.
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4 January |
Meeting of Presbytery - reports on Schools, College -
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by Mr. McKinney. The Ministers dined in the Manse with Mr. Bruce.
I rode home in the evening - found all well.
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5 January |
Preparation for the Sabbath, visiting prayer meeting in the evening -
weather still very dry - this is an unprecedented dry season.
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6 January |
Soiree at Drury - Mr. Brown and several members of Choral Society
there - I spoke on the improvement of Psalmody.
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7 January |
Preparation for tomorrow - my dear wife and the children complain of
colds - not wholesome weather - very hot and very dry.
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8 January |
Otahuhu and Howick. Good congregation at Otahuhu - not so good
at Howick. I am almost despairing of that place - remained overnight
at Mr. King's. No water at his place for his cattle and very little in
their well for domestic purposes. In every sense it is a 'dry and thirsty
land where no water is'. May God graciously visit and revive.
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9 January |
Visiting in Howick and on the way home nearly all day - found my dear
wife and some of the children not very well - something like an epidemic
influenza - remarkably gorgeous sunset prevailing colour closely waved
clouds like burnished brass surrounded by blue green purple copper
coloured and grey clouds - wind very little bur north - cast - very
close sultry night.
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10 January |
Very warm again today - but appearance of a change. Mrs. Alexander
came here today - my dear wife better but Maggie and Sarah very poorly -
Read Prinshun's Pamphlet on the Huguenots - a very creditable performance
- began preparing for the sabbath.
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11 January |
Maggie still very poorly - message from Mr. Robertson of Otahuhu to say
he is ill - visited him - had had an attack of Cholera but out of danger
when I saw him. Young men's meeting this evening - Rev. Mr. Johnston -
Church of England Clergyman of Otahuhu there for the first time - spoke
in the debate - he is talented, has a showy memory but is rather deficient
in judgement or comparison - a rapid utterance and verbose.
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12 January |
Maggie not much better in the morning but improved towards evening -
two or three thunder showers today. Found Mr. Robertson much better
this afternoon - reading and preparation for sabbath.
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13 January |
Visited at brother James' this morning and thence to see the teacher
Mr. May ill with sore throat - in the evening had Mr. and Mrs. A. Clark
and two sons and two daughters and two of their young men and Mr. and
Mrs. John Wallace - after day they sang an anthem and some other tunes,
in parts very prettily. Maggie a good deal better this evening.
Continued my studies till half past eleven o'clock.
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14 January |
Revised a little church history till after breakfast today.
Finished my preparation for tomorrow.
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15 January |
Preached at Remuera - Mr. Mandeno's Anniversary sermon, morning -
Tamaki in afternoon - stayed at Mr. Wallace's
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16 January |
Visited at Mr. Cawkwell's and at Ferguson's - kept my class and
afterwards met young communicants and rode home by Mr. John Wallace's
where I met Mrs. Alexander and my dear wife and a few of Mr. Wallace's
friends.
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17 January |
Visited the school which was opened yesterday by Mr. Grant our new
teacher who came to us on Saturday evening last. I have hopes he will
be an efficient teacher - but I am not too sanguine. He is a graduate
of King's College Aberdeen and has a first class certificate from the
board. Dined at Mr. Baird's - called at Mrs. Fisher's - and tead at
Mr. Goodfellow's where I met Miss Corrie.
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18 January |
Visited at Otahuhu - Mrs. Robertson Sr. sick - she was very glad of
my visit and requested me to come again soon.
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19 January |
Brother Thomas, Mr. Donaghy, and Mr. Ritchie, our new teacher sent
out by our Missionary Directors drove out this morning - I have a high
opinion of Ritchie - his testimonials are excellent - I suppose he
will be sent by presbytery to Waiuku. My dear wife accompanied them
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to town in the evening in consequence of my brother being about to part
with his servant through whose carelessness his house in Hobson Street
was nearly burned down last evening. I went again this evening to
see Mrs. Robertson Sr. and afterwards to see Mr. Goodfellow about the
Library - preparation for Sabbath after returning - Mr. R. Hall asked
my father's consent this evening to his marriage with sister Dorcas -
I trust they shall have the Divine Blessing in this matter.
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20 January |
Preparing most of the day for Sabbath - tead at Father's, there was a
good shower today accompanied with thunder - but the effects are scarcely
perceptible - so great is the drought. I have been for some days very
anxious about Samuel as there has been no letter from him by either of
the last two mails - may God be very gracious to him and keep him in his
own mighty hand. I am also a deal exercised to know what my duty is in
respect to Maggie - whether my means warrant me in sending her to board
at Miss Vibert's school - may God direct me in this matter.
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21 January |
Preparation for Sabbath filled up all the day.
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22 January |
Otahuhu and Howick - Preached on 'the great Salvation' - Hope I was
earnest and sincerely desirous of doing good but alas there is still
little appearance of fruit. Returned from Howick in the evening still
very dry.
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23 January |
Visited old Mrs. Robertson and some other places - spent evening at Mr. Goodfellow's - my wife and Mrs. Grant also there.
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24 January |
Rode to Auckland - visiting some places by the way - found Mr. and
Mrs. Ritchie, the teachers from Ireland at Hobson Street - Mrs. Ritchie
seems a sensible person. Found others all well. Oh what a change at
Hobson Street - I care little to be there now and it makes me feel more
the worth of my dear departed sister-in-law.
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25 January |
Meeting of Presbytery to receive Mr. Brown a licentiate of the
Aberdeen Presbytery, a modest young looking man - he is married but I have
not seen Mrs. Brown. I daresay he will be a good deal in Auckland but
Mangarei, Wade, Whau and Onehunga are also named as places to be visited
by him - ordered books for library from Maberley - called at Mr. Hall's,
visited Mrs. Robertson and got to Young Men's meeting at seven o'clock.
Mr. Ritchie, the teacher goes to Waiuku.
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26 January |
Preparing for Prayer meeting - visited school and Mr. Robertson who
is better and held prayer meeting.
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27 January |
Plentiful rain today with wind first N.E. and afterwards nearly west.
Preparation for sabbath a great par of today - reading also a little
while. Aunt Baird and Mother spent the day here with us. The former
seems very anxious about my sister Dorcas's prospects in connection
with her union with Mr. R.H. The mail goes tomorrow. I have written
to Samuel - also to E.B. Society and to Mr. Wilson and sent newspapers
to many.
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28 January |
Preparing for tomorrow - dry weather again - Brother Thomas came from
town this evening - tomorrow will be the Anniversary of the colony and
the the customary holiday will be on Monday. My brothers-in-law were
expected this evening but did not come - spending the Sabbath in the
Country is too great a bore for some people.
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29 January |
Otahuhu and Tamaki - good congregations Preached from 'They have
no delight in it'. Hadn't as much freedom as I generally have - I was
driving heavily greater part of the service in the morning - Oh May
God grant me a double portion of thy spirit; On account of the morrow
being a holiday met young communicants this evening after service -
and afterward rode home in company of Mr. Gordon.
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30 January |
Got little sleep last night and felt uncomfortable both in body
and mind. Expected S. Cochrane, etc, for dinner.
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He and Messrs. Read, Sibbin and S. Baird came after dinner - reading
and conversation and other recreations filled up the evening. In my
study after family worship - commenced preparation for lecturing speaking
and preaching. This day not so warm - some appearance of showers -
scarcity of water still in may places - having an abundant supply is
a great blessing. Maggie went in this afternoon to commence school
again after vacation - God grant it may be for good. But I have some
misgivings as to my means justifying me to go to such expense.
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31 January |
Commenced preparation for sabbath. Dined in brother James'. They are
thrashing their wheat which I am very glad to find is a really good crop.
Father is over there stacking it. What a strong old man he is to be
able to work so in such hot weather. He is upwards of 73. Mrs. Hughes
and Eliza Carruth spent the evening here.
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1 February |
Went to Mangarei today with Mr. Gordon to see about the teacher
of sacred music - Thomson - he understood vocal music very fairly and
may do. Called at Robert Hall's who is likely to be nearly related to
me some day. If so I trust it may be productive of happiness to all
parties concerned. Weather dry and warm - beginning to feel the want
of water in some parts of Mangarei.
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2 February |
Visiting school - Prayer Meeting at Seven P.M. - good attendance -
singing class afterwards conducted by Thomson - encouraging beginning -
his want of education a serious loss as a teacher.
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3 February |
Visiting a little - preparation for the sabbath.
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4 February |
Preparation - Weather still dry and warm.
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5 February |
Sabbath. Otahuhu and Howick - Thomson acted as precentor at Otahuhu
for the first time. Returned from Howick in the evening. An exceedingly
warm day.
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6 February |
Visited - Read - Robert Hall spent evening with us.
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7 February |
Rode to town in afternoon - Soiree at Hobson St. Schoolhouse - felt
no pleasure in it - rather the contrary.
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8 February |
Visited Rev. Brown - Mr. Norrie - Hospital - Mr. Potter - Dr. Kenderdine -
Mr. Overton - and attended
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Young Men's meeting. R. Hall's Essay very good - bought some fruit from
Mr. Potter's.
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9 February |
Visited school - S. Baird's - Prayer Meeting - large attendance -
and singing class.
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10 February |
Preparatory Service at Tamaki. Mr. Brown preached a good sermon from
Zach 12.1. - he appears earnest and will I think be a useful minister.
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11 February |
Preparation for tomorrow's Communion Service at Tamaki - May God by
his spirit prepare my heart and the hearts of all the people - Rev. Brown
is to preach at Otahuhu at 11 a.m. May God give him a word in season.
My thoughts have been much with my absent children - poor Maggie did
not seem happy when I saw her in town - she has no companion in the
evenings and she is longing for home and her dear Mama. May God comfort
her, and Oh May God graciously keep and preserve and bless my dear Samuel.
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12 February |
Rev. G. Brown preached at Otahuhu and which had not been the case for
a long time before on a sabbath morning I was a hearer. Mr. Brown preached
very well - his intonation is broad Scotch dialect some dislike - he seems
to speak from the heart - Communion service in afternoon at Tamaki - my
wife and sister and Sarah Baird accompanied me. It was a happy occasion
upon the whole and no disturbing causes operated to hinder our peace
except which may have been within some young people for the first time
sat down at the Lord's table and one man in well advanced years who I
trust was a worthy partaker. Long ago when a young man he had again
and again attempted to be admitted into the church which he attended and
his being as I think injudiciously refused admission because he was not
able to come up in his answering questions of the standard the Minister
had prescribed had made him so nervously unwilling to appear at
examinations of intending communicants that though often anxious to
act according to Christ's command he had never before the opportunity
of doing so. We returned home after the service and found all well.
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13 February |
Visited a little today. Brother Thomas took in all his children -
God enable him to bear the burden which his gracious hand has laid upon
him. The situation of a father left with motherless children is surely
a very trying one. We spent the evening in my father's - my Mother gone
to town with Thomas - The Goodfellows, young Norrie, Lizzie and brother
William in Fathers. The rain came on while we were there and
it looks as if we would have a good quantity of it - many will be glad
of it - the drought has been very great and water is very scarce.
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14 February |
Visiting all day Two schools and some families - a very wet night -
rain most seasonable and delightful.
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15 February |
More rain today. Last night our dog 'Colley' disappeared and
it is more than probable he has been stolen as his chain and collar
are also gone. I am very sorry about it - He was Sam's dog and was a
great favourite. Visited a little today and read and wrote some hours.
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16 February |
Prepared for lecture - visited school Mr. Overton - Prayer Meeting -
Congregational meeting - Thomson appointed precentor - Mr. R. Robertson
tried to have Mr. Goodfellow in the chair at Congregational Meeting and
not me - carried against him - he does this not so much on principle
but because it has the practice in Dr. Heigh's which he considers the
model for all churches. Salary of Precentor fixed at £12 per
annum - He to have a singing class and to fix his own terms for teaching.
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17 February |
Preparing for sabbath - reading, visiting. More rain today. Beautiful
growing weather.
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18 February |
Preparation for tomorrow - not in very good health - oppressive
atmosphere - brain heated and not willing to work. Never felt my mind
in a condition less controllable by will. May God be merciful to me
and grant to me the mental and bodily health needful for my work.
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19 February |
Otahuhu and Howick - beautiful Day in better health and spirit - to God
be the praise - Good congregations - was enabled to preach earnestly and I
think intelligently and somewhat effectively. Returned home from Howick in
the evening.
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20 February |
Reading, Writing Letters and visiting.
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21 February |
Visiting in Bush - several new families beyond Coyle's and
Ferguesons - one Scotch Family resident; Wylie - the place of another
not yet come to reside - it was beautiful weather. The new settlers
are in pretty good spirits though it appears to me their prospects
are not bright.
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22 February |
Studying in the forenoon - walked with my wife to visit Mr. & Mrs
King lately married - they are a quiet pair - I hope they shall be
quietly happy and contented - went to the Young Men's meeting in the
evening - there was a debate on the question 'Is war under all
circumstances opposed to Christianity' - Posed by Mr. Adam - replied to
by W. Macky. Carried in the negative.
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23 February |
Letters by mail from Sam and Mrs. Morton - very glad to receive
Sam's letter - visiting at brother James's - School - Mr. Baird -
Prayer meeting - sacred music class commenced - I hope it may succeed -
Pity Thomson is so badly educated - he has a bad way of expressing
himself.
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24 February |
Writing to Sam and Cousin Joseph - Prep. for sabbath.
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25 February |
Preparing for tomorrow.
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26 February |
Sabbath. Otahuhu and Tamaki - a good deal of encouragement and
attention of the people - not so much in my own feelings. Slept
at Thomson's.
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27 February |
Visiting - Bible Class - got home in the evening found all well -
reading writing to eleven o'clock.
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28 February |
Visiting School and some families.
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29 February |
Visiting - Reading - Prayer meeting Rev. Mr. McDonald concluded.
Sacred Music Class - promises pretty well.
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1 March |
Visiting in Otahuhu Lambert's Barclay's and Mrs. Gordon - spent
evening in Mr. Clark's of Wymond's - my wife with me. Good but dull
people the Clarks.
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2 March |
Had a morning visit from Mr. and Mrs. Bruce, Mr. and Mrs. Brown,
Mrs. Sinclair and Miss Sinclair - in the evening had Rev. Mr. McDonald
and Mr. Ludbrook - Mr. and Mrs. Sedgood, Mr. and Mrs. Goodfellow, Mr. and
Mrs. S. King, Father, Dorcas and Lizzie - A very dull, prosy evening -
didn't feel at home one with the other I thought - restraint - common
places - nothings - I cannot get on in such parties.
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Letter from Maggie - she is unhappy - admirable not indeed - promises
to be a blessing - greatly distressed about the scripture 'He that hateth
not Father and Mother etc' desires explanation. May God give her his
own spirit and make her a true disciple of the Saviour.
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3 March |
Preparation for Tomorrow - tea Rosborough - making Bridge
over gully next West's. - finished at dinner - he is a very
diligent young Man - I hope he shall do well.
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5 March |
Sabbath. Otahuhu and Howick. Rev. McDonald preached in Otahuhu and
I was a hearer - he preached - I daresay - very well and was very
acceptable to many but though I heard without weariness I was not
edified. Maybe the fault was in myself. It strikes me that it
requires more than ordinary good preaching to engage greatly the
attention of one whose office is preaching. Remained overnight at
Mr. King's Howick - Lizzie was also there - felt as worn out as if
I had had both services myself - the weather very sultry.
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5 March |
Returned from Howick in the forenoon - read & visited in the
afternoon.
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6 March |
Visitation of which we occupied the subjective position one part
of the Day and I was active the other. Weather very dry and warm
and beautiful.
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7 March |
Preparing for Prayer Meeting in the morning - visited Father's and
Overton's in the afternoon - accompanied by my wife. Held Prayer
meeting - Waited for singing class which is improving. A little
disconcerted by the displeasure of Lizzie who walked round this
way having no company from home. I feel I should have gone with her
the near way and yet I am not altogether without excuse although
it is a strange one - how strange the manifold tortuosities of some
minds and the corresponding numerous vexations which they occasion.
How delightful will it be when all shall be transparency in our
intercourse with one another.
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8 March |
Visiting during the day - School and several families in the Village -
Young Men's meeting in the evening.
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9 March |
Reading Hugh Miller - it makes me sad to think of his end - I can't
but think there is some mystery connected with it only Eternity can
solve. Is so that God may sometimes permit that his redeemed ones
should be driven in a fit of insanity to release their own spirits
from their earthly house of this tabernacle? No one can solve this
question satisfactorily - and who would dare to Theorise?
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10 March |
Preparing for tomorrow. Weather very sultry and oppressive.
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11 March |
Sabbath. Preached Otahuhu in morning, Tamaki in afternoon and Auckland
in the evening for Mr. Bruce who has gone to Napier. Did not find the Three
services at all too much for me - I wish I could so arrange as to supply
my three stations every Sabbath. Found all well in town. Maggie is
getting over her homesickness - Joe Cochrane is pleasanter than he has been
for sometime past.
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12 March |
Did some business in town in the way of paying accounts etc. Returned
home doing some calls on the way - Mr. R. Taylor's - Mr. Baird's - found
all well at home.
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13 March |
Reading, writing and visiting - Kuneiman's, Carruth's - evening at
Father's.
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14 March |
Preparation for Prayer Meeting - Commenced teaching children of Day
School Singing - at half past two o'clock. Meeting at 6 o'clock -
singing glass at 7 p.m.
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15 March |
Visited at Mr. Finlay's, called at William's and S. Baird on my
way home - my wife and sister went to town yesterday to make some
purchases preparatory to the approaching marriage. I trust it will be
a happy union - it is very certain it is to be one of affection
sincere and indutiable on both sides. Visited Mrs. Porter several times -
ill - after child birth.
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16 March |
Preparing for Sabbath - not from home except at Father's and Mrs
Porter's - visited by Mr. Norrie and Mr. Thompson.
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17 March |
Preparation for tomorrow - not well - also very poorly yesterday.
Miss King and Lizzie here - the former came from Howick.
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18 March |
Sabbath. Otahuhu and Hobson Street Auckland - felt better in health.
Very few (not more than 30 in Hobson St.) Found all well there -
Maggie not complaining any longer of homesickness.
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19 March |
Attended to some matters in town this morning and got home in the
evening where I found all well. The weather is much cooler.
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From here on I propose to copy only those items from the original
Journal as I consider of real value to us in 1970 - 110 years after the
recording.
23 March |
English mail - £100 sent from Directors for Missionary purposes
to Presbytery - letter from Mr. McClure Secretary of exchange for Ritchis.
Account of death of Rev. D. Moore of Glen (?) a young man of great promise.
No letters from any of my relatives. Dorcas preparing for her marriage.
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27 March |
Writing for English Mail - Wrote Samuel, Mr. Joe Cochrane and
Rev. G. Bellis.
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29 March |
Preparing for preaching at Papakura tomorrow. My wife came home this
morning. Mrs. John Hale and Sarah Baird were with her and spent the day
with us.
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30 March |
At Papakura Preached preparatory service. Saw Mr. Norrie's new Manse
which will be finished in about a month or six weeks. It will be a very
pleasant residence - the site and structure are both very good.
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2 April |
Got an extra of 'Southern Cross' giving account of the
murder of three men and two boys by the insurgent Maoris at Taranaki -
among them poor Shaw husband of Janet Wallace. Heard Mr. Wallace is
expecting his sister today.
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5 April |
Tamaki this morning - solemnised a marriage between Mr. Stable and
Miss Wallace.
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8 April |
In morning preached in Wesleyan Chapel Onehunga - In afternoon opened
the new Presbyterian Church at Whau.
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29 April |
Mr. Bruce opened new church at The Wade.
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5 May |
Preparing for tomorrow - Left for Drury at 3:15 p.m. to reach there
for Mr Norrie and also at Waiuku. Got to Mr. Norrie's at dawn.
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6 May |
Very severe morning - Saw at once it would be impossible to go to
Waiuku - not for me so much as my horse who would require to be ridden
faster than I would be warranted to do in such weather with a fierce
wind right ahead. I preached at Drury and then rode home.
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10 May |
My dear Sister's wedding Day - a very beautiful day after a succession
of bad tempestuous weather for 8 days. I had great pleasure in uniting
in marriage Robert Hall and Dorcas Macky.
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11 May |
Attended the funeral of Gideon the 11 year old son of Rev. G. Smales.
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15 May |
With Father Mother Wife and Niece visited Robt Hall and his wife.
Robert's brother Edward living with them at present.
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19 May |
Three young men visited us - they have recently arrived by Ship
'Red Jacket'. Two of them - Wallace and Holland had letters
of introduction to me. Wallace is the son of Revd. Mr. Wallace of
Rasharkin; his sister has come with him and they have a parcel from
Mrs. Norton of Ballymena for us. I wish they had situations - I fear
Miss Wallace has not fairly counted the cost of coming here. The
young men are staying overnight.
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21 May |
Mr. Bruce met me at Tamaki to try to raise money to pay off the
debt of Howick Church - returned in the evening.
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22 May |
Begging today again - tolerable success - not able to get over
all of the people.
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24 May |
Review of all the volunteers etc in Auckland being Queen's Birthday.
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26 May |
Opened new Wesleyan Chapel at Remuera in morning and preached in
Auckland in evening for Mr. Bruce. Visited a sick person after service.
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27 May |
Called at Mrs. Stables and at Hospital on my way home - also at
Mr. Birrell's Mrs. Gordon's and S. Baird's.
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29 May |
Met Mr. Bruce this morning at Otahuhu and accompanied him to Mangarei
raising subscriptions for Church at Howick - Mr. and Mrs. T. Hall and
William Hall rode down with us - they are going to visit Robert and
Dorcas. Mrs. Hall senior and Mrs. Peyton went down a little - before -
We succeeded pretty well - Got to Robert Hall's about 4 o'clock today
and returned as we went in company of Mr. and Mrs. T. Hall etc. When
returned found John had come from Auckland and brought sofa for Mama -
present from Uncle Sam - very kind on his part and very useful comfort
for my wife.
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31 May |
We had this evening the Misses Goodfellow and Lizzie and Messrs.
Baird, Jamieson, and Wylie and S. Alexander. Mr. Wylie is about to
return home shortly - he is an amateur Naturalist and is making a
collection of various things to take home. S. Baird and Lizzie
domicile.
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1 June |
A very wet day till evening when S. Baird and Lizzie left. My back
is painting me very much - Rheumatism. Altogether I am far from well.
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7 June |
Visited at Mr. C. Ewen's for the first time in the forenoon
and spent evening in Mr. Goodfellow's with my wife, father, mother,
Aunt Baird and some young people. Cannot say it gave me much pleasure
- too much music and confusion. Still they are an exceedingly kind
family and a quiet evening with themselves is invariably pleasant and
agreeable.
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9 June |
Last night it was a very stormy one with a great rain. Our bridge
below Father's carried away - at least the clay part. I am not sorry
at it - it was very insufficient and I have warned them it would be
the case. Alas for our local board and Mr. Sanderson.
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10 June |
Otahuhu and Howick Congregation affected by weather. Stayed at Mr. King's
overnight. Their child ill of diphtheria. He is thought out of danger.
They are greatly attached to him and alas - were they to lose him they
have not the consolations of religion to support them under so severe a
trial.
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11 June |
Visited at Howick on the way home. Some people sick - Melroe -
teacher, gone to Howick - his prospects anything but bright.
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13 June |
S. Baird laid up - I trust he is not seriously ill.
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14 June |
Visited S. Baird after breakfast and found him better. Dr. Sealey
had been with him. Mr. Wetherell visited us today - his visit was too
great a trial of patience for some of us.
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17 June |
Mr. Bruce came from Auckland to preach for me (have had over some days
a severe attack of influenza). He had only 12 hearers and must have been
drenched - a very wet day.
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21 June |
Went down to see my mother who has been ill - this was my first time
out for a week - No news of Dorcas who also has been ill. Great numbers
are ailing in Auckland and there have been some fatal cases.
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22 June |
Went to Mangarei to see Dorcas and find her much better. My wife
and Joe also went. We remained until evening. Old Mr. Dilworth and
Mr. Jan Dilworth came there after dinner - they had been out to see my
father but did not find him at home - Old Mr. Dilworth is about to leave
in a few days for home.
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24 June |
Sabbath. Otahuhu and Howick - Small congregation. Stayed at
Mr. King's. Found poor Mrs. King greatly grieved for the loss of her
little son - poor woman I felt much for her.
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25 June |
Returned home today. Mail steamer arrived last night and we got our papers
and one solitary letter (from my wife's father) - none from Sam - not even
a paper. I am anxious about him. Oh - if he is alive and well it is
ungrateful conduct on his part and yet I would rather this than that anything
should be the matter with him.
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27 June |
Mr. Overton going to Melbourne - Wrote by him to John Cochrane and Sam.
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4 July |
Meeting of Presbytery - In the evening Mr. J. Corrie gave in remaining
pieces of trial and was licensed by the Presbytery to preach the Gospel -
such a probationer is quite an acquisition - it is a pity he would not
devote himself wholly to the work of the ministry.
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10 July |
Visiting greater part of this day Mr. Clark's Ludbrook's King's
Overton's - on my return found that Edward Hall had been here with
Norfolk Pines and other trees - a present from my brother-in-law
R. Hall.
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10 August |
Visited at Clow's - two of the children in fever - Rebecca went to
Otahuhu for Mrs. Shaw and her children who are here tonight. Poor Woman.
What changes she has seen since last she was in this house. Married -
separated from our relations - new house - new acquaintances, Her husband
murdered and she with her two Orphans again in her most affectionate,
worthy brother's - no longer the gay lively laughing maiden, but the
stricken mourning window.
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12 August |
Services at Otahuhu and Tamaki - Stayed overnight at Mr. Wallace's.
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13 August |
Visited on my way home - Mr. Ryburn's and Mr. Findlay's. Heard at
Otahuhu more unpleasant new from Taranaki. Messrs Grant and Gordon
spent the evening with us. How little good received or departed by
such trifling conversation as is too frequent on such occasions.
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16 August |
Rev. G. E. Johnston gave us this evening in church the lecture he had
delivered at the Young Men's Christian Association in town - 'The Art of
Living with Others' - an admirable Lecture - Mr. J. is rather eccentric,
but certainly a liberal Episcopalian.
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22 August |
Most agreeably surprised by Sam's arrival at an early hour this morning.
God be praised he is safe back with us. My present impressions is that his
sojourn in Melbourne has been a rather waste of time - J. Cochrane (I believe
from circumstances he could not control) discharged as far as I can tell his
duty towards him. He has no complaint to make of Sam, thank God, except
of occasional inattention and thoughtlessness.
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26 August |
Sixth Anniversary of my residence and labours here - tried to improve
it - unsatisfactory to myself. Preached at Otahuhu and Tamaki.
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28 August |
Dorcas here this evening and is staying all night. She is happy but
would be more so I think if religion were cultivated more in her household.
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30 August |
My brother William was married this day to Anne Goodfellow. Very
few present except the Goodfellows - my father, brother James, S. Baird,
S. Cochrane and Miss White. William has been long attached to Anne -
May they be truly happy. Party remained to a late hour but to me it
was very dull and I could not rouse myself.
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31 August |
Visited School - Inspector there. Visited Anne and William - House
very neat and comfortable. Anne not cheerful and not sad - feeling
her new situation a little strange. Mother and Sarah Baird there while
I was. Congregational Meeting - did not attend it as I expected some
matters to be introduced in which I did not wish to take part.
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3 September |
Samuel Cochrane, his two sons and Maggie came out today - made a
short stay - My dear Rebecca seems to have got some cold and was seized
with an alarming severe pain which we feared was inflammation but using
remedies it abated in a short time.
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4 September |
My dear wife better this morning. I married a couple in Howick -
a long ride and no remuneration - it is a miserable place and they are
a miserable people. The bridegroom Pye is an English Rector's son -
the bride a pensioner's daughter - He is 19 and she 16.
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5 September |
Conference of Ministers of Presbytery - Messrs Bruce Norrie, Brown
and myself - subject Employment of Ministers expected shortly to
arrive, from Ireland and Them from Wellington, Onehunga and Remuera
spoken as most eligible - little determined on.
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7 September |
My birthday - I am 40 years old today - my youth is now
indeed past and alas, --
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9 September |
Sabbath. Otahuhu and Tamaki - preached on behalf of Home Missions -
collection for which is appointed for next sabbath. Fear I am displeasing
some people by my preaching. Would that I were less disturbed by
aninadvertions of illnatured people.
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10 September |
Getting potatoes ploughed in on Friday evening - Saturday and today
Brother James had John ploughing for me. I ought to be thankful for
kindnesses shown me and yet I am not contented in this place. I fear
I am not useful as another would be among my relatives.
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16 September |
Otahuhu and Howick - Morning very gloomy - congregations not so good -
collection for home missions - I believe amount about £12/14/-.
Several heads of families absent and Mr. J. Wallace paid his subscription
in Auckland. I am sorry he is such a cantankerous person - he has many
excellent qualities and is very kind. Returned from Howick Mr. Baird
accompanied me going and returning. Collection at Howick £1/7/-.
There was actually a half sovereign - bright gold - on the plate.
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17 September |
Visited at Otahuhu - Mrs. Shaw's children ill.
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18 September |
My dear wife out in the dogcart for first time since her illness - I
drove her and Lizzie to brother William's where we dined. They are very
comfortable there. We tead at Mr. Baird's - he and all there were very
glad to see Mrs. Macky. Sam cleaned the Chimneys in our absence.
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21 September |
Mrs. White of Tamaki and Euphemia Goodfellow were here for some hours.
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23 September |
Preached in Auckland in forenoon - Baptised Mr. Bruce's child - Preached
in Tamaki in afternoon.
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3 October |
Rode to Auckland to meeting of Presbytery this morning - all the
Ministers present - some important conversations on Home and Foreign
Missions.
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4 October |
Mrs. Shaw's little daughter Maggie died this morning.
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5 October |
Attended funeral of Mrs. Shaw's child.
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6 October |
Mr. Wallace Otahuhu came here today with Revd. Mr. Groube Independent
Missionary and Refugee from Taranaki and he is anxious to preach tomorrow
and improve occasion of Mrs. Shaw's affliction - we have so arranged and
Mr. McKinney is to commence the service in the village in the evening which
we hope will be regularly kept up. Brother Thomas and Jos. Cochrane came
out this evening.
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7 October |
Revd. Mr. Groube preached - good sermon - manner tolerable but on the
whole not very interested congregation. I preached in Tamaki and Rev
R. McKinney in Otahuhu Village at 6 p.m. I stayed at Mr. Taylor's
overnight.
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8 October |
Rode to town this morning to attend adjourned meeting of Presbytery -
remained in town all night. My dear Rebecca came to town with Mrs
McKinney and Jos. Cochrane etc. It is nearly three years since Jos
Cochrane was at our house before.
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9 October |
Rode out of town calling at Mr. Potter's Mr. Wallace's and
Mr. S. Baird's - found all well at home - Lizzie here - servant left -
Sam with Mr. Grant.
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11 October |
Visited Mr. Wilkinson who has purchased Mr. Wallace's upper farm and
is living there - took tea at Mr. John Wallace's - They seem anxious
about Mr. Stables talking of resigning his school and taking Tamaki farm.
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14 October |
Sabbath. Otahuhu, Howick and Otahuhu Village - morning pretty favourable -
congregation fair average - rain going to Howick and miserable congregation
there. Going to the village in good time and was able to deliver my message
in good health and considerable comfort. Called at Mr. Wallace's and got
home about 9:15 p.m. Sam drove us from Willcock's to the village and
John took home my horse 'Jack'. Lizzie accompanied us and had some tea
and bread and butter for me which refreshed me much, also a raw egg which
I sucked and which I think sustained my voice.
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15 October |
Rode to Mangarei. Lizzie accompanied me. Robert and Dorcas very glad
to see us and very kind. We all rode to the Mangarei
Pah - saw very
few natives. The Taranaki War and a late murder of a Maori at Patumahoe
of the commission of which they suspect some European have changed the
countenances of the natives and rendered them gloomy and suspicious. We
remained at Mangarei at R. Hall's overnight.
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16 October |
Visited at Mangarei - rode home in the evening - met S. Cochrane who
had been as far as our house - called at William's and S. Baird.
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21 October |
Sabbath - Otahuhu, Tamaki and Village - have much reason to bless God for
strength imparted for my additional service. May good be done. Attendance
at Village very encouraging.
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23 October |
My dear wife still better - Doctor says she has disease of the kidneys -
may be tedious - cannot go out with me. Have got the Beech leaves from
which Dr. Philson expects she will derive much advantage. I pray to God
she may. William and Anne came into town today.
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24 October |
Tead at S. Baird's. He bought a mare for me since I went to town -
Price £32/10/-.
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26 October |
Preparation for the Sabbath - various Interruptions - some of them
agreeable - S. Baird for some time looking at new grasses - Mr. Overton
to talk to me of Jas Wallace who is a suitor for his daughter Maria's
hand.
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29 October |
Rode to Tamaki - called at brother William's going and returning - Anne
is not very well.
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5 November |
Spent this day with my wife and mother in S. Baird's. William and
Anne tead with us at S. Baird's. I was vexed by William's expressions
regarding the service at the village.
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6 November |
This morning Lizzie left to go to Mahurangi - I did not see her before
leaving so that our parting was unintentionally a disagreeable one. Stayed
at home in the forenoon helping wife to cure meat.
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11 November |
Sabbath - Otahuhu, Howick and Village. A good day - On my return from
Howick my dear wife met me at Meredith's Gate with refreshments. Good
meeting in Village - rode homewards in company with John Wallace - not
very cordial feeling towards the evening service - am a good deal worried.
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13 November |
Brother William and his wife dined here and tead at my father's.
Brother Thomas and two children, A. Alexander and Mr. A. Cochrane came
in the evening.
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15 November |
Visiting a Mangarei most of the day - called at James's on my way going
and at William's and S. Baird's returning. Sophia Macky stayed here tonight.
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16 November |
S. Baird brought us a young heifer this morning - sent with him notes
of invitation for speakers at Soiree. S. Cochrane and Mrs. C. and two of
their family here today. Attacked suddenly with severe sickness and
headache at bedtime. I fear I am constitutionally pre-disposed to
Apoplexy and must adopt and carefully follow such a regime as will
tend to prevention which is certainly better than cure - especially
where cure would be so unlikely.
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30 November |
Called on by a Mr. Houston from Nth Limevady [sic;
Limavady] -
about 2 months here - Advised him to buy part of Gifford's Farm - has his
mind set on something else.
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1 December |
We have pretty large family at present - besides our own have
Mrs. S. Cochrane, Sarah and Willie, S. Alexander, Joe and Tommy Macky -
my wife has no servant - it is too bad she has always been too much
troubled in this way and is not able for it.
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4 December |
Rode to visit Miss Watson at Mr. Birrell's Otahuhu. At Mrs. Gordon's
gate my horse 'Jack' fell on his knees and face cutting the former rather
badly and also scraping his face. I was not thrown - am a good deal vexed
about my poor horse but thankful it is no worse. Mr. Birrell's servant
washed horse's knees - Mr. Gordon kindly attended to
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my horse putting
Arnica
on his knees and is to send for more. Tead brother William's - Anne and
he very kind and agreeable.
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5 December |
Mrs. Cochrane etc left yesterday when I was away - S. Alexander brought
out a dogcart for them - I fear my horse's right knee is badly cut.
Preparing for meeting in the evening - rode new mare - far from pleasant.
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6 December |
Sam went in afternoon for a veterinarian for Jack.
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7 December |
Austin saw horse today - says the thing doesn't signify - for
saying which I said him a Guinea.
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8 December |
Brother Thomas came out in the evening. I have got S. Baird's
'Captain' to ride tomorrow in place of 'Jack'.
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9 December |
Otahuhu Howick and Village. Good attendance in the Church. Pretty
good in the evening - not good in Howick. I wish I were done with it.
It is spending strength for naught. It is a most heart sickening labour.
Heard of poor young Logan's death by drowning while bathing in Auckland.
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10 December |
Spent the evening in my father's with my brothers and their wives and
Dorcas and her husband - my wife also there - Brother Thomas not - William
and Anne stayed overnight with us. Very glad to see them so happy - long
may it be so.
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11 December |
Visiting at Otahuhu - heard from Lizzie and wrote to her - called at
S. Baird's coming home. They have got some 12 cattle for me at the sale
today. How thankful I ought to be to have kind friends to attend to my
business and transact it so well for me.
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12 December |
Brother James came over with Sam bringing the 12 cattle bought
yesterday - six heifers to be brought from Absolum besides.
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13 December |
Brother Thomas and Father went with S. Cochrane to Papakura today
and bought 16 cattle for me - making 34 in all which with our own
seven besides. Horses and calves will largely stock the paddock.
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23 December |
Sabbath. Otahuhu, Howick and Otahuhu Village - Exceedingly warm day -
good attendances - except at Howick.
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24 December |
Bathed with Brother William.
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25 December |
Brother Thomas and Joe Cochrane came out today - dined here - all
our children went to bush in the afternoon and all the rest of us went
to Brother William's where we had tea and bathed. Father and Mother
also there.
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26 December |
Prayer meeting in the evening and Soiree at Wesleyan Chapel Woodside
afterwards where I spoke on 'Temperance' - at this Soiree my brother
William's horse 'Jack' which was in our Dogcart was deprived of his
tail and part of his mane by some vile miscreant.
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28 December |
Ritchie teacher at Waiuku dined with us - short tie in my father's
in the evening - James and Ann there - Father has had letters from
J. Tedlie about Kilfinnan - what a pity his mind should be so occupied
with that unfortunate plant.
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1 January 1861 |
May God grant this year to be in all respects a happier one to me and
all of us than was its first day - I rode to town to try to do some
things preparatory to meeting of Presbytery tomorrow - dined at J. Hall's
on my way. When I arrived in town found all my friends away and saw not
one person whom I knew and was in no house, till fearing my brother would
not return till very late I left town intending to return home at 8 p.m.
I soon found it would be dark for me and stayed at Mr. Dilworth's. It
was a miserable day for me altogether.
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5 January |
Rode into Town. Mr. Thom rode out on my horse.
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6 January |
Auckland Remuera and Auckland - Communion in Auckland - Mr. Bruce absent
in Sydney - Mr. Thom occupying my Pulpits. Rode to Remuera on S. Cochrane's
Pony. Jos. Cochrane had his legs greatly scorched by the sun on New Year's
Day while paddling in salt water - he is unable to walk and is confined to
bed. He and Tom are alone in Hobson St. Jane and the children being out
here, Mr. Thom rode in from Otahuhu tonight.
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11 January |
Visited a little in the afternoon - Willcox and Mr. Wallace's -
Wymondly - Maggie and Lindsay also at latter place who walked home with
me. Found S. Baird and Sarah here also Father and Mother.
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12 January |
Surprised and shocked very much this morning after breakfast by
intelligence of Mr. Carruth's death - although long delicate he had only
been confined to bed about 24 hours and was in town as usual on Thursday.
Rode over immediately to visit the sorrowing widow and family. Mr
Carruth was the first elder chosen and ordained in our Church and was
a most consistent and exemplary man but very retiring and ostentatious
in his profession. His latter end was peace.
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13 January |
Sabbath. Otahuhu, Tamaki and Otahuhu Village. Endeavoured to improve
on the sudden death of Mr. J. Carruth - many affected - May God deepen
impressions. Very much exhausted tonight - the day was very sultry.
My wife at the evening service in the village for the first time.
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14 January |
Dr. Willcox died last night - The number of widows is fast increasing.
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15 January |
Mr. Carruth buried today - a large attendance.
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17 January |
Rode to Mangarei this morning - my dear wife and children and all glad
to see me and I to see them. My dear sister is very happy - no doubt her
present situation (near her confinement) is making her somewhat anxious.
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20 January |
Sabbath. Otahuhu, Howick and Village - good attendances except Howick.
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22 January |
Rode to Tamaki - visited Mr. Cawkwell, Mr. Stables, Mr. Knox, Mrs
Ireland - slept at Mr. William Taylor's.
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23 January |
Visited Mr. Thomson's (had my likeness taken) - The School - Mr. Ferguson
and Mr. Gollans - rode homewards - held Prayer Meeting - visited Mr. J. McNult
who is sick - rode home with Sam - found all well.
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27 January |
Sabbath. Otahuhu, Tamaki and Otahuhu Village - Two widows lately
bereaved present at morning service - Mrs. Carruth and Mrs. Willcox -
sermon appropriate - Revd. Mr. J. Johnston's last Sabbath in Otahuhu.
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28 January |
Visiting - Election of members for Franklin - annoyed at Mr. Styak's
and Mr. Graham's wish for my vote - did not vote - am glad I did not.
Nixon and Graham returned. Oh that we were all striving 'to make our
calling an election sure'.
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29 January |
Drove to Mangarei with my mother, wife and Lizzie - left my mother
there - returned in the evening after calling at Mr. James Robertson -
called at brother William's going down.
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30 January |
Visited - brother James, Mrs. Carruth, Mr. Goodfellow's.
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31 January |
This day married Jas. Wallace and Maria Overton - a family party - only
stranger Rev. I. Crump Wesleyan Minister.
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1 February |
Preparing for Sabbath - Mr. Grant had all the School children at Drury
today - took them in the van. Joseph and Lindsay were there - John
stayed at home painting at the windows and Sarah was at Uncle James's.
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2 February |
This day my sister Dorcas gave birth to a son - great joy.
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3 February |
Sabbath. Otahuhu, Howick and Otahuhu Village - good day.
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4 February |
Rode with Lizzie to see Dorcas - found her and Baby well - came home
by myself Lizzie remaining with Dorcas.
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8 February |
Visited Mr. Goodfellow who has been home for some days from the South
where he was shipwrecked in Palliser Bay and with his fellow passengers
barely escaped a watery grave. He thinks too lightly of it - at least
appears to - but he is a man of few words.
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Note: It is understood that Mr. William Goodfellow had been a passenger
on the Brig 'Shamrock' which was totally wrecked at Whangaimoana
about 2 miles east of Wairarapa Lake Palliser Bay. The Brig was on a voyage
from Auckland to Otago laden with some 100,000 Bd feet of Timber. She
had called at Lyttelton Harbour and sailed from there on 7th January.
About midnight of that date it was blowing a perfect hurricane with
mountainous seas running. On 8th January, every shred of canvas blown
away, the brig was driven far out of her course. At 8 a.m. 9th January
the brig was running before the wind at 11½ knots under bare
poles. At 11 a.m. Turakirae Head was sighted and the Master tried to
haul the vessel on wind to weather it but the sea was so high that it
drove her to leeward. Off a lee shore and a terrific sea running unable
to keep one sail set - the wind blowing a hurricane the Captain seeing
that the Shamrock was fast approaching the shore in Palliser Bay decided
to beach the vessel. He took the helm and calmly gave orders and although
the Brig shipped several heavy seas which swept her decks the Captain
continued to keep the helm and steered through the heavy surf which for
a mile and one half continually broke over the deck. At last the Brig
Struck - fortunately on sand. For some time the crew had been hanging
to the rigging but they had to leave their hold as the spars began to
break as sea after sea broke over them and they were forced to leave
the Brig and plunge into the surf. There were Three Women aboard and
they were weak and considerably bruised. They were lowered over the
side by means of a rope and succeeded in reaching the shore safely.
All hands were in a deplorable state and the women may have perished
had not the crew met Mr. R. Russel of Whangaimoana who came to render
assistance - the brig was a total wreck and it with its gear and
cargo which was strewn everywhere realised £45 when offered for
sale at Auction. The Brig - 183 tons - Sydney owner - was commanded
by Captain Dixon. Another vessel - a schooner named Fantome sailed from
Lyttelton
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to Wellington on 7th January foundered in the same gale during which
the Shamrock was wrecked. She was never seen again and was lost with its
crew and some four passengers. This Schooner was of 26 tons built at
Mechanics Bay Auckland 51 ft long beam 14 ft 6 in. Captain Toohig.
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11 February |
In afternoon visited Mary Jame Ferguson and Mr. Adam.
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14 February |
Married T. McClarnon in my house - walked with Lizzie and Minnie
Cochrane to see Mr. Jarvis's child who is will with dysentery.
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17 February |
Sabbath. Otahuhu, Howick and Otahuhu village - very good day in all
respects - full congregation in evening.
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18 February |
Rode again to Howick - visited nearly all the families - old McClaron
sick - observed less comfort in Mellon Family than formerly - his
non-attendance at church has evidently had a prejudicial effect ever
way - went to Mrs. King's in the evening and stayed there overnight.
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19 February |
This morning Mr. King rode with me to Howick to a meeting of the adherents
at 8 o'clock a.m. All presently doing anything to support our cause were
in attendance - They are: King, McAuley, Andrews, McInnes, Attaway, Crawford
and Melrose. After meeting visited homeward. Rode in afternoon to Mr. Adams
leaving his house and intending to meet my wife and Minnie and Lizzie at
Mr. John Wallace's - they not at home and we drove to Mr. Goodfellow's where
we spent the evening - Mr. & Mrs. Robertson there.
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21 February |
Drury Soiree - spoke on Temperance - rode home with Rev. Thom, Mr. Grant
and Lizzie.
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22 February |
Walked in afternoon to Wymondly with my wife, Minnie and Lizzie -
Jessie and Jeannie only at home - both very pleasant - Jessie exceedingly
amiable.
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24 February |
Sabbath. Rode to town in Morning - Preached at St Andrew's in morning,
Remuera in afternoon, Baptist Chapel in evening.
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27 February |
During last night my wife taken ill - had got cold evening before - my
own illness continues - not able to go to prayer meeting - cattle sold -
prices not satisfactory - little prospect of farm paying.
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1 March |
Mrs. Shaw walked from the village to see Mrs. Macky and me today.
I am sorry to hear her father is not in good health and glad that
he has thought of returning to New Zealand.
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3 March |
Sabbath. Otahuhu, Howick and O. Village - Good congregations, better
than usual in Howick.
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17 March |
Sabbath. Otahuhu, Howick and Otahuhu Village - Good congregations -
The Howick attendance encouraging and very marked and serious attention
ad some signs of deep impression being made on some of the hearers.
May God disappoint my fears respecting Howick.
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19 March |
Rode to Mangarei - Sister Dorcas and child very well - Robt Hall
at Market - read at William's on my way home. Five of our cattle
strayed yesterday - not found yet.
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21 March |
Married G. Taylor to C. White - Called at William's and S. Baird's.
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22 March |
All thankful for the cattle coming back.
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24 March |
The Tamaki people are about to memorial the Presbytery to have my
services each Sabbath. In one way it would be desirable but I fear they
are not making up their minds to double the sum they paid originally for
half the services. Dorcas's child baptised this day 'Thomas Macky'.
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26 March |
Soiree at Papakura - Rode to and from there with Lizzie Macky - a very
dusty warm ride there - cool on returning. Got home at One in the morning.
Sam and Minnie Cochrane and Mary Robertson with me. The natives commenced
today taking up our potatoes and Donald Clark is sowing oats and rape seed
to assist in harrowing in which brother James has kindly sent two teams.
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29 March |
Dorcas Father and Mother dined here today. Minnie and Mary Robertson
came while we were at dinner and brother Thomas, A. Alexander and Mr. and
Mrs. T. Hall afterwards - they tead with us.
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31 March |
Sabbath. Papakura and Wairoa. Exchanged with Mr. Norrie. Good
congregations both places - returned home - several Bridges broken and
Mr. Henderson who lives at entrance to bush left his tutor (Mr. Scott)
a surveyor by profession to conduct me so as to avoid the broken
bridges.
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3 April |
Married Mr. Hutchinson and Miss Findlay - Rode to town in Heavy rain
to meeting of presbytery - a good deal of business and mere talk -
Petition from Tamaki People for my services every Sabbath - consideration
of it deferred to a special meeting to be held at Otahuhu at 12th
instant - Rode home and held Prayer meeting at 6 o'clock.
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8 April |
Sent notice of Presbytery Meeting to Howick - conversation with Mr Adam
about the village service which he thinks calculated ultimately to divide
the congregation - this seems to be a generally received opinion among the
people on this side of the Tamaki - I hope it is unfounded.
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12 April |
Meeting of Presbytery at 10 o'clock - members late of coming - deputation
from Tamaki - None from Howick. Prayer of Tamaki petition for weekly
service granted and Howick still left a portion of my charge. Mr. Thom was
to have preached for me at 2 p.p. - was not present. Mr. Bruce engaged
to preach for Mr. Norrie - Mr. Brown could not take my service not being
prepared and I was left for the first time to preach without any previous
preparation.
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21 April |
Sabbath. Special services in town - The Anniversary of the Primitives
and first all day sabbath services in Hobson Street - very wet afternoon
and evening. Been hearing Friday and Saturday of an Harmonium which had
seen sent out for the church by Joe Cochrane - this evening mind set at rest
about what would have been a difficulty by learning that the harmonium is
for myself. I am obliged to Joe for
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a continuance of the kind thoughtfulness which he has without much
interruption manifested.
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28 April |
Sabbath. Otahuhu, Howick and Otahuhu Village - Very pleasant day -
Good attendances all places - Lizzie Macky unexpectedly rode with me to
Howick. Howick people dissatisfied at what they consider the Presbytery's
unkind treatment of them - I endeavoured to satisfy them but I fear did
not succeed. I feel sorry about it.
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2 May |
Another wet day - Preparing for the Sabbath. My dear wife preparing
to go to town i.e. leaving all matters, necessary for our comfort in order.
She intends remaining some time. I hope the change will do her good but we
will very very much miss her.
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5 May |
Sabbath. Otahuhu, Tamaki and Otahuhu Village - very wet day - few
hearers - ten, 15 and 30 - Hamlin's Swamp very much flooded.
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7 May |
Visiting at Howick all day - fine weather.
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8 May |
Visiting at Otahuhu - School Committee Meeting - Mr. Grant to leave -
advertising for a teacher.
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9 May |
Visiting at Ferguson's and John Wallace's - beautiful day - Mr
Metcalfe ploughing - Sam Thatching stack - fear this frost weather will
soon be succeeded by rain - grass seed not yet sown - my evenings are
very dull.
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10 May |
Large number of Soldiers at Otahuhu - their tents are visible from here -
the population greatly but not beneficially increased. Took tea at my
father's. Feeling very depressed and lonely - I scarcely think my wife is
so much so else she would soon be out of town.
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11 May |
No letter from my wife - it is a miserable feeling which even apparent
indifference produces. May I seek ever the satisfying enjoyment of
religion.
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12 May |
Sabbath. Otahuhu and Tamaki - large attendance in morning - No evening
service in consequence of Roger's room being used as shop -
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rode to town in the evening - was very glad to see my wife - Heard
Mr. Corrie preach at Hobson St (at Mr. Thom's solicitation he was occupying
for him) - I think it is a pity he does not often preach as the service
was acceptable. |
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13 May |
After paying some visits etc, rode home with a heavy heart leaving
my wife in town.
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14 May |
Visited at Mangarei - Messrs Robertson's Wallace's R. Hall's -
R. Wallace has kindly promised to come and sow grass and clover seeds
tomorrow - beautiful weather.
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15 May |
R. Wallace sowing for us. Overton's sale - visited Camp - arranging
for services - met brother Thomas and Mr. White, teacher at S. Baird's.
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16 May |
My dear wife returned home tonight - was very glad to see her.
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19 May |
Sabbath. The Camp, Otahuhu, Tamaki - Preached for the time at the camp
at Otahuhu at 9:30 a.m. Wet evening - remained overnight at Mr. Burn's.
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20 May |
Visiting at Tamaki till evening - found my dear wife at S. Baird's on my
return - walked home with her leading 'Jack' - a very warm night.
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22 May |
Transplanting shrubs - meeting school committee. Mr. Grant is to stay
with us after all, which I am glad of. Rode home with Mr. Thomson.
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24 May |
Queen's Birthday - The children drove to the review - my wife and I
at home.
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27 May |
Visiting all day - in my absence Colonel Sir Jas. Edward Alexander
called. I suppose I ought to feel honoured by his attention but somehow
I have a natural shrinking in these cases.
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29 May |
Visited at Otahuhu and Camp - saw and conversed with Sir James and
several other officers - they are all very courteous and polite - the
10ths. are very uncomfortable - floors (the ground) quite muddy and
during wet heavy rain the water running in streams through them. Meeting
of Managing Committee resolved that house be built for teacher.
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30 May |
Very showery day - joined in marriage Mr. S. Baird and Miss Goodfellow.
May it be a happy union for them both - My wife was to have been present
at the ceremony but was unable from her state of health - Brother Thomas
came home with us.
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2 June |
Sabbath. Camp, Otahuhu, Tamaki - weather fair till evening - stayed
at Mr. Taylor's - first Sabbath after Overton family left.
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3 June |
Visiting Tamaki - Stockade in Otahuhu which is the Soldier's prison -
and the hospital - tead at brother William's with my wife and afterwards
visited Mr. and Mrs. S. Baird where we stopped till nearly 11 o'clock - Sam
drove us home.
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4 June |
Rode this afternoon with Lizzie to Mangarei after visiting at her
father's, Mrs. Carruth, Mr. Runciman, and Mr. Jan Wallace. Found Robert
Hall, Dorcas and baby quite well and very glad to see us. Remained
overnight.
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5 June |
Great rain during the night in showers - visited Mr. Scott's this
forenoon - dined at R. Hall's and left there at 4 o'clock.
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7 June |
Drove with my wife and Sam to Otahuhu - visited Hospitals - stockade -
Mr. Wallace's Mr. Robertson's and Brother William's.
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9 June |
Sabbath. The Camp, Otahuhu and Howick - the service at Camp cut short
by rain - Mr. Thom preached at Tamaki - I visited poor old McClaren after
the services at Howick - he is dying of Dropsy - returned home afterwards.
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10 June |
My dear wife went to town today with my brother James and his wife. I
don't think she has any idea how miserable her absence makes us. Visited
two or three places during the day and spent evening with my children.
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11 June |
Planted Blue Gums with John greater part of the day - took tea at
father's, Mr. Grant, Lizzie and her brother John here in evening - night
so wet they stayed overnight - with all this company I felt extremely
lonely and dispirited.
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12 June |
Visited Stockade and Hospitals today - Six Presbyterian prisoners -
nearly all the prisoners imprisoned for Drunkedness - Visited at Brother
William's - tead with Aunt Baird at Mrs. Fisher's - held Prayer Meeting -
only 10 present. Prayer meeting to be given over until the Spring.
Lizzie rode home with me and stayed all night - she is very kind and
affectionate.
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13 June |
Spent this day with John transplanting - I fear it will be labour
lost as we are going to have keen frost. I have had no letter from
my dear wife - it is the first time she has been so long from me
without writing.
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14 June |
Preparing for Sabbath - visited Mrs. Porter - Mr. Grant staying all
night - no letter from my dear Rebecca - I have heard she is well enough -
wrote again to her tonight - her silence increases my feeling of loneliness,
which is very great. Oh! my God that I may enjoy communion with Thee!
Cast me not away from Thy presence - take not Thy holy spirit away from
me. Oh! restore unto me the joy of Thy salvation!
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15 June |
Preparing as well as I could for tomorrow. I am very unhappy at not
hearing from my dear wife - surely she does not know how miserable she is
making me. If I go into town tomorrow night it will lead to the neglect
of my duties - I am sorely distressed and know not what to do - God help
me - this is a sore vexation. I do earnestly hope Mr. Grant will have a
letter for me tomorrow morning - if not may I be instructed how to proceed
- were this state of mind to continue, the cause not being removed - my
present feeling is that I ought forthwith resign my charge and seek
elsewhere and alone the peace and the opportunity of usefulness which
seem to be lost to me here. Alas, how terribly miscalled is this place -
surely instead of Salem it should be Marah - not peace but bitterness!
Oh God may I seek the true Salem!
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16 June |
Sabbath. Camp, Otahuhu and Tamaki - beautiful day - good congregations
for the season - was enabled in some measure to lay aside my dullness in
my services. Rode into town in the evening - I think my dear wife was
glad to see me - got up my spirits during the evening.
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17 June |
Left my dear wife in peace for which I thank God -
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rode to Howick and got home from there about 6 o'clock - found McClaren
better and all well at home.
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19 June |
Preached at Stockade to the military prisoners and visited the Hospitals -
called at Brother William's and S. Baird's and spent the evening in
Brother James's where there were a few young people. Had a note today
from Brother Thomas telling me of Mr. Clough being willing to take Joe as
an apprentice - I trust in God this may be a good thing for my dear
boy.
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20 June |
Told Joe about the Carpenter's having a vacancy for an apprentice -
he seems to think of it more than he says - he is to go to town tomorrow
with Sam who goes in for his Mama - poor Joe much affected at worship
tonight.
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21 June |
Married P. Clark and Miss Clow.
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22 June |
Preparation - my dear wife returned home tonight - Maggie and brother
Thomas's children with her - God be praised she is safely back. Dear
Joe is to go to town and to stay with his kind friends.
|
23 June |
Otahuhu and Howick - No drill in camp this morning on account of rain.
Small attendances at both Otahuhu and Howick - found poor McClaren not
so well.
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25 June |
Sam at Newmarket for sheep - Lizzie assisting her Aunt make coat for
Joe who is to go to town tomorrow - we are all in rather low spirits.
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26 June |
So wet that Joe could not go to town - afternoon improved and I preached
at Stockade - on my way home was caught in a most terrific thunderstorm -
lightning extremely vivid and almost continuous.
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27 June |
Our dear Joseph left us this morning to commence learning the trade of
a carpenter. Mrs. Shaw and her son came here this evening and Lizzie is
here - very short with me for some reason unknown to me.
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30 June |
Sabbath. Otahuhu, Tamaki and Hobson Street - No service in Camp today -
very rainy in morning - small congregations at Otahuhu and Tamaki - pretty
good at Hobson Street about 60 - I preached at Hobson at request of Mr. Thom
and brother Thomas.
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1 July |
Left town after breakfast - a day of trouble - Cattle impounded by Ranger -
cost me £4/2/4d - this appeared hard before I got home but arrived
there a greater trouble awaited me - in trying to shoot a hawk the gun had
burst with my dear Sam and though he had received no wound, yet he had a
severe shock - had fallen fainting and had to be brought home by Mr. L. West
and others. He is still very stupid and his memory affected. My good wife
is much affected by it.
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3 July |
Meeting of Presbytery - all Ministers present but no elder - after
meeting rode home and found Sam in much the same way - greatly depressed -
sighing deeply and frequently - indisposed for speaking.
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5 July |
Sam, I thought better in Morning - Mrs. Robertson and Mary came to see
him - apparently made little change - his Mama went to town with Maggie
and Brother Thomas's children, Mary remained - Lizzie here - excitement
seems bad for Sam - his cousin John staying with him.
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6 July |
No great change in Sam. His Mama and John not home till after dark.
I had an hour or two of great uneasiness about them.
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7 July |
Sabbath. Camp, Otahuhu and Tamaki - Morning very wet, cleared up at
time for Camp Service, and I was glad I had not been deterred from going -
attendance in Otahuhu and Tamaki pretty good considering the excessive
dampness and bad roads. On Sam's account I returned home from Tamaki.
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8 July |
Weather showery - John and his cousin John went to Papakura for Mr. Wells'
Galvanic Apparatus to try its effects on Sam - It is not very powerful but I
daresay sufficiently so. Mary McGregor and Lizzie are still here and
carefully and kindly attending on Sam - I am very much pleased with Mary
and think highly of her good sense - a most valuable gift in my estimation.
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10 July |
Preached at stockade and visited hospital where I had service - dined
at Mrs. Robertson's - called at Brother William's - got home at dark - Found
Sam sitting up.
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16 July |
Visited at Mangarei - stayed overnight at R. Hall's - sorry to hear
he has some idea of selling his farm and going to Canterbury.
|
17 July |
Completed visiting at Mangarei - went to Stockade - no Presbyterian
prisoners - visited hospitals - called with Aunt Baird - sorry to find
Sam not so well.
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19 July |
M. Robertson and Lizzie still here - they are unremitting in their
attention to Sam who is better today.
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20 July |
S. Cochrane here. Came from Mr. Meredith's sale last night - he
feels anxious about the state of the country on account of the effects
likely to be produced on business etc. I am rather anxious myself
about the ways and means - Sam is better.
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22 July |
John Macky and my John bringing wood from the bush today - I greatly
wish it were in my power to repay the kindness shown to me by my
brother James - I fear he has his own share of worldly embarrassments -
Sam is better - Mary is still here.
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23 July |
Called at brother James's in the forenoon - he is ill with his back -
Sam and Mary were our riding for a little while - he does not appear the
better for it - Mrs. Robertson seeing him today also Mr. and Mrs. King who
brought their child with them.
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24 July |
At Otahuhu today - Stockade and Hospitals - Dr. Emaly and Mr. Jas.
Wallace's - the Dr. has no doubt Sam has concussion of the brain - got
some things for him.
|
26 July |
Visited brother James who is better. Robert Hall here in the evening
to see Sam who is I think rather better.
|
27 July |
Lizzie refuses to take any remuneration for teaching Lindsay music.
Sam is pretty well today but rather dull.
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28 July |
Sabbath. Camp, Otahuhu and Tamaki - a pleasant winter's day. Good
congregations - Returned from Tamaki - called at Brother William's and
tead there - Jack also got a feed there which made him careless
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about coming home and in the darkness he tried to take me to Mr.
Goodfellow's and I had a little time of bewilderment.
|
30 July |
Sam not so well. Brother James ill with Rheumatism. Mary still
here.
|
5 August |
Meeting of Presbytery to consider invitation of the Presbytery Of Otago
to a Conference on the subject of the Proposed Synod for New Zealand.
|
6 August |
Maggie who has been suffering from a neglected cold, was a little
better this morning. Called at Hospital to see Dr. Philson about
her and Sam - preached at stockade on way home and visited the Military
Hospitals.
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13 August |
Sent an apology to Sir J. E. Alexander Colonel of the 14ths who had
invited me to dine in the Mess at Camp - John took 10 sheep to market
today - sold at 25/- each.
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18 August |
Sabbath. Camp, Otahuhu and Howick - a fine day - good congregations
except at Howick - road exceedingly bad - returned home in the evening.
I am borne down with anxious cares and am uncertain what I should
consider the line of duty to be pursued to get rid of a burden which
unfits me for the proper performance of my ministerial duties.
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19 August |
Mary Robertson went home yesterday - Sam seems depressed but otherwise
better. My mother here for a little while in the evening.
|
20 August |
Preached at stockade and visited hospitals - met my brother in law in
Otahuhu driving out Lizzie, Maggie and two of Thomas's children. I hurried
home to see them here and to my great chagrin and disappointment met them
going away and Mr. Cochrane would not even stop to enable me to say Goodbye
to Maggie.
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27 August |
At my father's in the evening - bothered about want of feed for our
cattle - cows calving and nothing to eat. I should not be harassed by
such cares - Would God I were free of them - Sam rode alone to Otahuhu
this afternoon to remain for some time at Mrs. Robertson's.
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28 August |
Married a soldier today and held services at stockade and Hospitals -
Visited at Mrs. Gordon's, Mrs. Robertson's (Sam none the worse for his ride),
brother William's and Mr. Baird's - meeting of Session and Committee in the
evening on subject of Home Missions.
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29 August |
At home reading writing etc - mail arrived - no letters - tead at
Father's - brother William and his wife, Mr. and Mrs. Goodfellow, my wife,
brother James and Lizzie there - dull evening.
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2 September |
Visiting - walked with my wife to Village - she spent day in Mr
Robertson's where Sam still is and is improving in health. I visited
camp Stockade and Hospitals - wrote to Camp Adjutant about my stipend
etc etc - conversed with several officers.
|
4 September |
Visited Land Force at Penrose Farm - lunched with the officers there -
found that Captain De Quincey of the 70ths is son of the famous De Quincey -
I was much interested in him.
|
5 September |
Visited at Woolfield's - saw Mrs. Woolfield - seems to be one of the
grumblers - greatly regrets having left Glasgow etc. Attended at Mrs
Watson's funeral and tead with my father with Aunt and Sarah Baird -
my wife was there also - more comfort.
|
9 September |
Brother James's boys and my John commenced ploughing middle paddock
for grass - John's first attempt and gets on better than I expected -
Mr. Goodfellow came here today to pay me my half year's stipend.
|
10 September |
At Otahuhu - Military duties - and getting returns filled in necessary
for claiming Chaplaincy Stipend etc. Found Sam pretty well - paid Hall's
account - returned by Mr. Goodfellow's - found my wife there and walked
home with her.
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12 September |
Stayed at home expecting Goodfellows and my brother William's wife
in the evening - they didn't come - Colonel Sir J. E. Alexander and
Lady Alexander visited us this afternoon - was glad to be at home.
|
17 September |
Sam returned home from Otahuhu today - he is not so much better than
we expected to see him.
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18 September |
Rode to Tamaki this morning - visited during day and according to
previous arrangement held Prayer Meeting at night - good attendance -
this the beginning of what is to be a regular week evening Prayer
Meeting. Slept at Mrs. Burn's - people very kind.
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23 September |
Returned from town - I had preached for Mr. Bruce who was in Whangarei
yesterday. Called at William's and got home exceedingly tired after
attending School Committee to arrange building of Teacher's House.
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2 October |
Rode to Presbytery Meeting - after Meeting Presbytery attended Levee
bidding Governor Brown goodbye and saw the procession and embarkation etc -
a good display.
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3 October |
Still in town - waited to see Governor Grey inaugurated and to attend
his levee - rode home on the evening in company (to Otahuhu) with Colonel
Sir J. Alexander 14th., Colonel Chute 70th., Colonel Leslie 40th and Mr.
St Hill.
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6 October |
Sabbath. Camp, Otahuhu and Tamaki - very anxious about my dear son
who I fear shows signs of epilepsy - Returned home from Tamaki - no place
like home.
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8 October |
My dear Sam went to town today with Mama and Lizzie - I was at Otahuhu -
Camp etc. Found camp all in a bustle - men having a holiday - games of
various kinds - foot racing etc etc - alone very much tonight - my wife
and four children in town.
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9 October |
Dined at Father's - Mrs. S. Baird and Mrs. William Macky there -
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John and Lizzie home in the evening - Dr. Philson has put a seton in
Sam's neck and is treating him for Epilepsy.
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10 October |
Tead at Brother James's with Robert Hall and Dorcas, Aunt Baird and
Sarah - Getting sheep shorn today.
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13 October |
Sabbath. Camp, Otahuhu and Howick - beautiful day - good congregations -
even in Howick attendance above par. - All my services very pleasant for me.
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15 October |
When I was at Otahuhu today my horse struck me a very hard blow on my
left ear as I was mounting him and nearly stunned me.
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24 October |
Walking with Sam and tead with my mother and Aunt Baird - Sam was not
so well - I greatly offended Lizzie by blaming her, I believe in the wrong,
for irritating Sam and making him ill.
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26 October |
Commenced giving Sam Sulphur today - Mother and Aunt Baird spent day
with us - walked with Sam - he seems to be pretty well.
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27 October |
Sabbath. Camp, Otahuhu and Tamaki - good attendance at Otahuhu - 20
at Tamaki. I suggested to Colonel that the soldiers be assembled if the
evening were fine - but he declined on the ground that they should have
that time for recreation (Note - The intended morning service at Camp
not held owing to rain).
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28 October |
Sam rode 'Jack' to Uncle William's and I accompanied him - he got along
very well.
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30 October |
Visiting at Camp - lunched with Hurse of the 12ths - dined at J. Hall's -
called at Mr. Robertson's and S. Baird's. Mary Robertson came up with us.
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13 November |
John took cattle to market in Otahuhu today and Brother James bought
43 sheep for me at 27/6d each. I drove my wife to Otahuhu and made my
visits to Camp, Hospitals and Stockade -
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also to Mrs. Gordon's, S. Mullins' and Mr. Wallace's - held Prayer
meeting in the evening which was better attended than usual - waited
for Singing Class - my wife also waited.
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14 November |
Rode to Camp and invited Sir J. E. Alexander to attend the Soiree -
Sir James has promised to speak - Rev. Mr. Gould Episcopalian Minister
also promised to come which I regard as a token for good.
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15 November |
Soiree Speakers Sir J. E. Alexander, Revds. Gould, Norrie, Brown,
Laishley, Crump, Mason and Messrs Adam Rattray, Grant and Ryburn.
A very full house and everything went off exceedingly well. Joseph
and Maggie are out - The first time for Joe since we went to his
trade - there were ten tables - my wife had one - and was in good
health and spirits.
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18 November |
Visiting all day - Clark's, Clow's, Water's - not much satisfaction -
cannot in every instance visit as I used to at home - Worldliness the
great besetting sin in the Colonies.
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19 November |
Visiting a little - have heard of the arrival of the Black
Eagle in which my aunt Baldrick is a passenger.
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20 November |
This day spent at my brother James's - my wife and Sam along with me.
Brother Thomas and William came with Aunt Baldrick after dinner - she is
not much changed - it is a wonderful providence her coming to end her days
in New Zealand. John was today at the Cattle show at Newmarket.
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21 November |
Aunts Baldrick and Baird, brothers James and William and their wives
and Sarah Baird and my father and Mother spent this day with us. Robert
Hall and Dorcas came for tea - Sam had rather a severe fit in the
Evening - change of weather approaching.
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22 November |
Sam very exhausted - unfit for any exertion and not caring to converse.
Poor fellow I fear his recovery is very uncertain.
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25 November |
Tead with my mother alone - my father being at Mangarei with the
Papatoitoi people and Aunts Baldrick and Baird. Sam is still very dull,
weak and without energy.
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27 November |
Camp, Hospitals and Stockade - Swimming Match of soldiers of the 14th -
general bathing of the men who seem much more cheerful and contented.
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5 December |
John at Newmarket with sheep today - small market and small prices -
£1/-/- each for fat sheep. I visited at Mr. Wallace's Wymondley
and Mr. Goodfellow's - had the mare Betty with me - Had some
trouble with her - have reason to be thankful that I have such a pleasant,
easily ridden horse as Jack is - he has contributed much to my
bodily comfort - in many other ways have my brother James, his wife and
family been kind me besides the gift of my horse. I wish I could do them
good in return.
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6 December |
Rode to Tamaki to see my dear wife and Sam - found them at breakfast -
Sam is I think better - bathed with him - had our likenesses taken by
Mr. Thomson who works away at Photography most indefatigably without
remuneration - called at Mrs. Fisher's on my way home to see my aunts.
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9 December |
Rode to Tamaki with John - bathed near Panmure Ferry - found Mama and
Sam pretty well - John's likeness taken by Mr. Thomson.
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10 December |
Rode to town from Tamaki this afternoon for Hobson Street Soiree (Sam
and his mother left at same time for home) - very good meeting - Speakers
confined to 10 minutes each - good deal of music - Jos. Cochrane one of
the singers - I spoke on Christian Union.
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11 December |
My wife and Sam had been to Mr. Jas Wallace's - whose wife had been
confined of a daughter on Saturday - and Sam was not the better of the
excitement - having had an attack of the usual kind there and afterward
a lengthened swoon at the Church. Dr. Thomson drove them home - I fear
poor fellow there is not yet much improvement in his health.
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12 December |
Old Mr. Gifford severely gored by a bull today - my wife and I went to
see him and she dressed the wounds.
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16 December |
Saw Mr. Gifford who I am happy to say is better - his recovery is
almost miraculous as well as his escape.
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19 December |
Visiting at Gifford's, Boyd's and Ferguson's. Intended to go through
to Flat Bush but rain prevented me. I was walking and Sam rode to
Otahuhu. John was in town and brought me very unexpectedly a new saddle,
a present from Three Friends at Tamaki - may I be truly thankful
for all the goodness God is making to pass before me and mine.
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20 December |
Proceeding with my preparation for Sabbath - My wife, Sam and I tead
at my Father's with my widowed Aunts, Mr. and Mrs. Baird, and William and
Anne. Sam had been pretty well all day but had a git at his Grandfather's.
Arrangements are not made for the building of my aunt's house greatly to
their satisfaction - S. Baird is proving very kind and friendly to them.
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22 December |
Camp, Otahuhu and Tamaki. Fine day and Good services. It has been
my last service at the Camp for a time - perhaps forever - the Regiments
leave for the Waikato during the week. I am sorry at their leaving as
ministering to them was very pleasant to me.
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23 December |
Rode to Camp and gave a quantity of tracts to each of the four regiments -
I hope they will make good use of them. The 12ths and the 14ths leave
tomorrow - their destination Havelock and Razorback Hill. The 40ths to leave
on Wednesday and the 70ths on Thursday - they are to be stationed nearer to
Drury.
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24 December |
Visiting - spent evening with a few friends at Brother William's.
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25 December |
Christmas. All our family and Brother Thomas and his family, father and
mother etc, spent day in Mangarei - dined at beach - greatly shocked to
hear on our return of Miss Goodfellow's of Newmarket being killed by being
thrown out of a spring cart when on her way with her father to spend the
day at S. Baird's - a sad calamity.
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27 December |
Attended and officiated at the funeral of Miss Goodfellow. Called at
Camp and arranged for the new Presbyterian Soldiers to attend at the
Church on Sundays.
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31 December |
Rode to Town - saw Mr. Bruce returned from Otago - the conference there
very pleasant and satisfactory.
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1 January 1862 |
Breakfasted with S. Cochrane - attended meeting of Presbytery - dined
at Hobson Street where I found Lizzie who had unexpectedly come to town -
called to see Mr. Goodfellow at Newmarket on my way out. I do not at all
feel satisfied that circumstances required me to begin the New Year out
of my own home.
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3 January |
Preparing for the Sabbath - Walked in the evening to my mother's with
my wife and to meet Sam whose stay at Otahuhu made us very uneasy.
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5 January |
Sabbath. Otahuhu and Howick. Congregation not so large as usual.
Preached from 1st Cor. 16.13. - Some persons imagined that themselves
or others were personally addressed - this better than that my preaching
should be wholly pointless - may it do them good.
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6 January |
At home - not very well - preparing for ordination service. Mr. Smales
here in the evening to engage me to preach at the opening of his Church
on Sabbath next. I was unwilling to refuse but I do not like it - indeed
I question whether the church was necessary or his motive very good in
building it. The Smales leave for home next week.
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8 January |
Rode to town to meeting of Presbytery - at the evening
Sederunt
Mr. Corrie was ordained - I ordained and gave the Charge - The first time I
ordained except elders and the second time I charged - the first was Rogers
of Carndonagh. Hobson Street was erected into distinct charge. Mr. Thom
leaves by the steamer for the south tomorrow - I regret his leaving.
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12 January |
Sabbath. Otahuhu, St. John's, Otahuhu village. Good Day - Opening
Service at Smale's church which he calls St. John's and commenced service
at the Village in Hunt's Theatre.
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17 January |
Wife and children at Mr. Robertson's - I in my study. Tead at my
father's.
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20 January |
Visited Mr. West who is ill of Rheumatic Fever. Mr. and Mrs. Robertson
spent day with us - conversation on church matters especially the prospect
of getting Church in the Village.
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22 January |
Visiting - our School - Military - Aunts Baldrick and Baird, R. Robertson,
S. Baird. Held Prayer Meeting - Attendance not encouraging.
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23 January |
Visiting at Styak's and West's - unsatisfactory - grieved that in such
families do not speak more on religious subjects - Mrs. William Macky and
her sister Euphemia dined with us and Mr. and Mrs. Baird and Sarah Baird and
William and Miss Hume and father and Mother spent the evening with us.
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29 January |
General Holiday - Miss Vibert rode out here this afternoon and stayed
overnight. Tead with Dorcas at my father's and attended Pray Meeting
afterwards - a very small attendance - probably on account of Regatta
etc.
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30 January |
This day farms of my brother James were to be sold. I have not yet
heard the result.
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31 January |
Am sorry the sale yesterday was unsuccessful - my poor brother has
many anxieties - Sam returned from town - mail - letter from wife's
father - rumour of war with America.
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2 February |
Sabbath. Otahuhu, Howick and Otahuhu Village - rather thin congregations
this morning and afternoon owing to heavy showers of rain - tolerably good
at the village.
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4 February |
Rode to Tamaki visiting several places on the way - dined at Mr. Ryburn's
with wife and Sam where we met a Mr. and Mrs. Hurst lately from Home - he had
been a broker in London.
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5 February |
Visited some families at Tamaki - rode to Otahuhu - called on Mrs. Gordon
and Mr. John Hall who has been ill for some days - and afterwards conducted
a meeting at Church.
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8 February |
Preparing for tomorrow - Samuel and John in trying a young horse (bought
by my Father) in the cart, narrowly escaped getting severely hurt - the horse
having run away and they were not able to hold him - Thank God there was
little harm done.
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9 February |
Sabbath. Otahuhu, Tamaki and Otahuhu Village. Communion at Tamaki
attendance ordinary with the addition of four or five from Otahuhu. When
I came home found our little Sarah ill with dysentery and feel uneasy about
her.
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10 February |
Our little dear no better today.
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11 February |
At home all day - very anxious about Sarah Rebecca - the disease has
not abated.
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12 February |
Rode in to meeting of Presbytery. Reports on Home and Foreign Missions
and Sabbath Schools - also on state of Stipend Fund, on weak congregations -
the report from Onehunga is particularly discouraging - only £19 of
stipend raised in the district during the year.
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13 February |
Doctor has been to see Sarah and thinks her not in danger - she is
evidently better - thank God for it.
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14 February |
Brother Thomas and S. Cochrane came out this evening - Sarah is still
very poorly but symptoms favourable.
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15 February |
Brother Thomas, S. Cochrane, S. Baird and Brother William rode to
Waikato today - they came home very wearied. I made the necessary
revision for tomorrow's services.
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16 February |
Drury, Papakura and Wairoa. Service at Drury for Military. Remained
at Wairoa at night at Mr. Nichol's - altogether a pleasant good day.
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18 February |
Visited a little - am exceedingly depressed in spirits and I pray God
to instruct me whether it is his will that I should leave this place and
seek among strangers a happier or at least more useful
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and less irritating position. Brother William was here for a short
time today - He is as usual in some respects more plain than pleasant -
but on the whole he is kind, though too censorious.
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21 February |
Visiting at Bush, Boyd's, McPherson's, Spencer's, the last a very
nice family. English and Church of England. He is likely to be a good
settler. They are just beginning.
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23 February |
Sabbath. Onehunga and Whau - An Exchange with Mr. Brown by order of
the Presbytery. Six adult males at Onehunga and 24 women and children -
a better congregation at Whau - Onehunga in the evening.
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24 February |
Visiting at Mangarei in the morning - Old Mr. Robertson has been
thrown out of his gig - not much hurt - my wife and mother, John, Lindsay,
and Sarah at R. Hall's - I rode to Onehunga in the evening, attended a
congregational meeting and stayed overnight at Mr. Brown's - Mr. and Mrs
Brown very kind. They have a small income at present but are good
Christians and good managers of their temporal matters.
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25 February |
Returned from Onehunga in the morning and visited on the way home to
Otahuhu etc - my Aunts have got into their new house and I saw them there -
they ought to be very thankful and may be very comfortable.
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26 February |
Visited Mr. J. Gordon who has had his hip joint dislocated by a fall
from his horse - made two or three other visits and attended Prayer meeting
in the Evening.
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2 March |
Otahuhu, Howick and Otahuhu Village - Very good attendance morning and
evening - very small at Howick - rain after morning service.
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3 March |
Tried to drive with my wife etc to Mangarei today for my mother but
only got to Brother William's before the rain came on - where we remained
till the evening - left little Sarah there and drove home in the rain and
felt nothing the worse.
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5 March |
Visiting at Tamaki, having gone over there the evening before - also
some visiting on way to Otahuhu - attended meeting of session at 6 p.m.
and held player meeting at 7 p.m. Rode home with Sam - John and his
Mama who had been at Mangarei for Grandma, and had driven her home before
dark as she is not very well.
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9 March |
Otahuhu, Tamaki and Otahuhu village. Very good day - severely tried
in the evening by Sam having a fit while I was preaching.
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11 March |
Visiting at Howick and on the way to and from there. Crawford's of
Howick have been severely afflicted by the death of their eldest child,
Annie, of Quinsey - may they be drawn to God. I fear they have been
Godless and worldly.
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13 March |
Drove with my dear wife and John to Drury this afternoon to attend
a Soiree there - got home at one o'clock in the morning. Before we
left for Drury we had a short visit from Captain and Mrs. Pearson.
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14 March |
Very far from well with my head and my throat. Rode over after
breakfast to see my little niece Annie Macky at Mr. Goodfellow's - they
fear she has dysentery and are very anxious.
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16 March |
Sabbath. Otahuhu, Tamaki and Otahuhu village. A very hot day and very
much worn out by its services.
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18 March |
At Mangarei with Sam and his Mother. Dined at Mr. Wallace's -
Visited some families in the afternoon - Mr. Wallace accompanied me -
Tead at R. Hall's and called at Mr. Goodfellow's on way home to see
William's child who is very ill indeed. May God spare her to them.
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19 March |
William's child seems better today.
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20 March |
Sam and John at Newmarket with sheep and lambs. Drove my wife and
mother in the afternoon, first to Mr. Goodfellow's to see the child (who
we found rather better) and afterwards to Aunts Baldrick and Baird where
there were a few friends in the evening - Mr. and Mrs. Thompson
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came home with us in the dogcart. It was a rather wet evening and night.
Found the boys both at home before us and well pleased with the sale at
Newmarket.
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21 March |
Sam went to Town today with our mare Fanny to try to dispose
of her at the sale tomorrow - I would rather not part with her.
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22 March |
Drove to town with my dear wife - met Sam coming home - he has sold
Fanny price £38/10/-. Found all well in town - showery day.
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23 March |
Preached morning and evening in St Andrew's - baptised Mr. Bruce's second
child. Mr. Shaw, a student under the care of Presbytery, preached at Otahuhu
in morning, Mr. Bruce at Tamaki in afternoon and Otahuhu village in evening.
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24 March |
A wettish kind of day - bought some things at Mr. Burnsides - how easy
it is to spend money.
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25 March |
Home from Auckland today - brought Mrs. S. Cochrane and her daughter
Sarah with us.
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26 March |
Visited Mr. S. Baird- ill of dysentery - remained greater part of day.
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27 March |
Visiting Styak's and Goodfellow's.
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28 March |
Visiting at Goodfellow's and S. Baird's in the Evening. Mr. Baird is
still ill - the disease appears to me to be very trying on him.
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29 March |
John and Sam went to town today - John to get new clothes and Sam to
consult Dr. Fischer - Sam, poor fellow, is not getting so much better as
we had hoped. I have not much faith in Homeopathy but it may do good.
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30 March |
Sabbath. Otahuhu, Howick and Otahuhu Village. A very happy sabbath -
had pleasure and freedom in all services.
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1 April |
Rode to Tamaki - visited at Mr. Baird's and Aunts Baldrick and Baird and
Mr. Stables on my way when I saw the Calkwell's. Stayed overnight with
Mr. Burn's.
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2 April |
Rode to town for presbytery - pretty lengthened meeting - rode out in
the evening - called at S. Baird's (who is better) [and] at Aunt
Baldrick's (also better) - held prayer meeting and got home comfortable
but weary.
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3 April |
Attended the Examination of the daily school - very much pleased. Our
own Lindsay acquitted herself very creditably.
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4 April |
Preparing for Sabbath - Visited at Mrs. Fisher's, S. Baird's and Aunts
Baird and Baldrick - sent in answers to queries on Grammar School
Endowments to Provincial Council Committee thereon - commenced teaching
John the game of Chess - Sam gone to town.
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5 April |
Had a call this afternoon from A. McArthur Esquire of Sydney who is
at present on a visit to this country - He is a modest unassuming man -
has a rather care-worn look - his riches are honours do not seem to
have been able to keep away cares or ensure a vigorous constitution -
they never do - may we be satisfied with our lot and bless God that
the only source of true happiness is within reach of all, high, low,
rich or poor - I believe Mr. McArthur is a Christian - my dear wife to
whom he was known long ago, was glad to see him. Mr. John Russell was
accompanying him.
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6 April |
Otahuhu, Tamaki and Otahuhu Village - A good day and had great
satisfaction in all services - an increasing attendance at the Village -
about a dozen soldiers.
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7 April |
This evening attended for the first time as member of the Education
Board. The business was the appointment of an inspector of Schools -
There were 45 candidates - Mr. McCoy at present classical Master in the
Scotch College Melbourne was appointed - our own teacher Mr. Grant was
a candidate.
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8 April |
Returned from town today - last night was a fearful storm and great
damage was done to Shipping at the wharf at Auckland - went with my
wife to see Mr. and Mrs. Jas Wallace who are to leave tomorrow for
England - We saw Mrs. Wallace.
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9 April |
This morning saw Mr. and Mrs. Wallace on their way to the Steamer.
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13 April |
Otahuhu Communion Sabbath - Otahuhu Village - A pleasant happy and I
trust profitable Communion Season. Several members were absent who ought
to have been there among whom were several of my relatives. This is a
great relief to me and shows me clearly
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that they are right who say a Minister should not be located among
his relations as it would be very different if they were truly good
Christians honouring God's day and Ordinances - My Father, Mother and
Brother William were communicants. S. Cochrane who came out this
morning was present at the service.
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15 April |
Rode to Tamaki and from there to town in the evening for meeting of
Presbytery in Hobson St. Call agreed on to Mr. Mason and signed by 22
members - a good many are dissatisfied. I fear if Presbytery sustain
that call it will not be a fortunate settlement - remained all night
at Thomas's.
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16 April |
My wife and John came into town today as I was leaving - I called
with Mrs. Thomas Hall - got to Brother William's before Prayer Meeting -
some unpleasant conversation with him and his wife who blame us very
much for allowing Sam to be so frequently at Mr. Robertson's and say I
am suffering the esteem of the people by not forbidding his intimacy
with M. R. McC. - we shall see.
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18 April |
Joseph came out today being Good Friday - Uncle Thomas and Aunt
Anne (Mrs. Alexander) came here in the evening from Mangarei.
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20 April |
Sabbath. Otahuhu, Tamaki and Otahuhu Village. Rather wintry day
but good attendances especially at Otahuhu and Village.
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21 April |
Brother Thomas, Mrs. Alexander and our dear son Joseph returned to
town this morning. Joseph's affections for his home and home friends
are as strong as ever.
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23 April |
Mama, John and Maggie went to town today - Maggie to return to school
after her Easter holidays.
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25 April |
Very anxious about John - he returned this evening walking - the
mare got hurt in town and was not able to come out. Lost a good deal
of time with Jack Rippey who is fencing but can do nothing by himself -
Sam gone to town - his attendance on Dr. Fischer of
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doubtful advantage. My dear wife is still in town - we are very much
put about by her absence. May we be more thankful for her and appreciate
her as wife and mother.
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26 April |
John went to town to bring home Mama - I was in study as much as
possible - Rippey still being a hindrance. Exceedingly uneasy about Mama
and John who are rather late of getting home when at last they arrived -
found my dear wife had met with a slight accident very near home by the
mangle was bringing falling out and striking her head. Thank God it was
no worse.
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28 April |
John in town for the sick mare and returned without her - Mr. Pollock
the carter has her at his stable attending to her and has shown very
great kindness in the matter, for which I feel very grateful to him.
Her life was in danger.
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10 May |
Sam in town - Lizzie here today - she brought trees and seeds to us
from Waiwera.
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11 May |
Sabbath. Otahuhu, Tamaki and Otahuhu Village. It was expected that
this would be the last evening service at Village as Mr. Hunt was
unwilling to give the place longer. I believe some arrangement will be
made and the service continued.
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13 May |
Rode to Auckland to attend meeting of Presbytery and Education Board.
Presbytery considering call to Mr. Mason from St James which is delayed -
Board examining papers of candidates for certificates as teachers.
Stayed at brother Thomas's overnight.
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15 May |
At home most of day - some visitors in the afternoon - The Misses
Robertson of Mangarei and Miss Thomson and later Mr. Norrie who is again
raising money in Auckland and the neighborhood for liquidating the debt
on Papakura Church - his labours in keeping up the services to the
military have been considerable - he is very indefatigable.
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16 May |
Mr. and Mrs. Jas. Wallace of Papatoitoi spent evening with us - my
father and mother and Lizzie Macky were here likewise.
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18 May |
Sabbath. Otahuhu and Tamaki - good congregations. Heavy rains in
the evening prevented the holding of service at the Otahuhu Village.
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20 May |
Joe Cochrane and Mr. Aitken out here today looking at one of James's
farms.
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21 May |
Visited school - returned to meet brother William and his wife and
sister Dorcas who came to my father's today. Held prayer meeting in
evening - very few present on account of darkness and badness of roads.
Brother William and wife, Mary Robertson and Mrs. Findlay here overnight.
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22 May |
Rode to Howick to perform a marriage ceremony - Visited at Rattaway's,
one of whose children died of Diphtheria since I was there.
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24 May |
Preparing for tomorrow - brother Thomas, Mrs. Alexander and Mary and
our Maggie and Joseph came out this evening - may the good God bless my
children.
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25 May |
Sabbath. Otahuhu, Howick and Otahuhu Village. A fine sabbath and
very good attendances - there were 73 at the service in the evening in
Hunt's Theatre. This record may be of interest in some future day to
indicate the progress Presbyterianism and the Village itself will have
made. Many of the present congregation are not Presbyterians and there
were some soldiers.
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26 May |
Queen's Birthday and a General Holiday - Brother Thomas and Mrs
Alexander went to Mangarei - We had Maggie and Joseph and Mary Alexander
here.
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30 May |
Rode to town - Attended meeting of Board - whom Mr. Valentin was
appointed Inspector - Mr. McCoy declined - plea of ill health - the
meeting was late and Mr. Goodfellow accompanied me to Hobson St where
we both stayed.
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1 June |
Sabbath. Otahuhu, Tamaki and Otahuhu Village.
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2 June |
At Mangere today - called on Mr. Jas. Wallace on my way to see John
Lammie who has broken his leg - My brother James and his wife and
Lizzie and my parents also at Mangarei - Robert Wall and Dorcas expect
to leave there in a few days and go to Remuera - I trust the change will
be a good one - my mother, niece and I stayed all night - the others
drove home. My wife had accompanied my brother etc in their dogcart
and consequently could not well remain behind them.
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3 June |
Rode home from Mangarei and called on Mr. and Mrs. Potts who have
lately been married and come to reside at Otahuhu - She was a Miss Stewart
and came from Matakana.
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6 June |
At Otahuhu to arrange recommencement of services at Camp - saw Robert
Hall and my sister on their way to Remuera.
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8 June |
Sabbath. Otahuhu, Tamaki and Otahuhu Village. A very good morning.
Small attendance at all services - the excessive muddiness of the roads
and streets in the village a great hindrance to the attendance of the
evening service there.
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11 June |
At home most of the day - a short time at my fathers - More troops
returned to Camp at Otahuhu today - fearful roads.
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12 June |
Rode to the Camp - saw Sir James Alexander and other officers - he
is going to see about getting shelter on the Sunday Mornings for our
services - the Church of England soldiers are to have Hunt's Canteen -
visited Mrs. Smart and Mrs. Waters who have been both confined lately and
have borne sons.
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15 June |
Otahuhu, Tamaki and Otahuhu Village. Attended at Camp but from some
neglect of the Camp Adjutant or Brigadier General no arrangements made
for our services.
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18 June |
Visited at the Camp and Hospitals - no Presbyterian prisoners in the
Stockade - saw Sir James Alexander about my expected allowance for
services. Dined at brother William's and was too late to make other
visits.
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20 June |
A letter from Revd. Barclay of Napier wanting me to exchange with
him for some time next summer - were it not for the expense I think
I should accept the invitation.
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22 June |
Sabbath. Otahuhu and Howick. Morning so wet could not have service
at Camp - had expected evening service as usual in the village but was
informed that Hunt could not let us have the place any longer - I feel
a good deal disappointed - though the labour of four services might
after all have been too much for me.
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24 June |
Maggie is still here - She promises to be a wise good girl - May God's
renewing grace be largely imparted to her and all my dear children - in
worldly things my expectations concerning them are not so great as they
once were - Sam's illness which still continues - though he is decidedly
better - has had the effect of causing mew to hope less about their
temporal prospects. I do feel anxious about John's education.
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25 June |
Signed the necessary papers to obtain allowance for my services at
camp.
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27 June |
Visited at brother James's - Mr. and Mrs. William at my father's this
afternoon - my wife and I took tea with them there.
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29 June |
Sabbath. Camp, Otahuhu and Tamaki. Roads extremely bad rendering
travelling very laborious for man and horse. Attendance of soldiers at
camp smaller than last year. A good attendance at church in the
morning - returned from Tamaki.
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1 July |
On this day 12 months ago Sam met the accident which has rendered
him an invalid ever since. Although his perfect recovery was long
doubtful we are not very hopeful and altogether our circumstances on
this 1st July are much brighter than on this day last year. Rode to
town this evening for meeting of presbytery tomorrow.
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2 July |
Found all well in town - paid Miss Vibert for present quarter
£5/6/- for Maggie's tuition and as we are thinking of sending her
to Mrs. Colclough told Miss Vibert she would leave at end of term.
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6 July |
Sabbath. Camp. Otahuhu and Tamaki. Did not preach in open air at
camp but in a Hut - soldiers appeared more attentive seated comfortably
then when standing on wet grass. The road to Tamaki exceedingly bad -
remained all night at Mr. Taylor's.
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7 July |
A new family, Pilkington behind Mt Wellington - so called English
Presbyterians - but I fear have been little accustomed to Church going -
tead at William's.
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13 July |
Sabbath. Otahuhu, Camp and Tamaki. Rode into Remuera in Evening.
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14 July |
Walked Remuera into Auckland this morning - called at Mr. Goodfellow's
at Newmarket - Mr. Bruce accompanied me to the Commissariat Office where I
was paid £45/15/3d for my services to the Military for seven
months ending December 31st. Attended meeting of Bd of Education -
overnight Brother Thomas's - my mother is there.
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15 July |
Walked out this morning to Remuera where I had left my horse - R. Hall
and Dorcas treated me with great kindness - rode to Otahuhu and performed
my camp duties.
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23 July |
Brother William's family is increased by the birth of another daughter
which took place on 21st - I saw Mother and child today - both doing well -
William is very hopeful and very busy - May God prosper him.
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25 July |
Sam has bought 150 sheep from Woolfield at 28/-. It is a speculation
about which I have many fears.
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27 July |
Sabbath. Camp, Otahuhu and Tamaki. Roads fearfully bad - returned
from Tamaki - horse and myself excessively wearied.
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28 July |
Uncle James and the boys brought home the sheep alright - there was a
ploughing match at J. Fischer's.
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29 July |
Rode to Remuera this evening.
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30 July |
At meeting of Board today - examination of teachers - Mrs. Burns among
the candidates. Stayed all night at Hobson St.
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31 July |
Meeting of Board again - Mrs. B. has passed
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with great success - first class, second grade. Rode out to Remuera -
stayed there all night - received very kindly by Robert Hall - I am very
thankful for kind treatment - life would be insupportable otherwise with
my heavy burden.
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1 August |
Rode home this morning - Lizzie Macky who has been staying some time
at Remuera rode out with me - Stayed at William's and S. Baird's till
this evening where my wife spending the day - assisted John with his
Latin in the evening - some comfort.
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3 August |
Sabbath. Camp, Otahuhu and Tamaki - Communion at Tamaki - remained
overnight at Mr. Burns' - they are very kind.
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4 August |
Rode to Otahuhu to perform Marriage ceremony - Mr. J. G. Ryburn and
Miss J. H. Main - Meeting of Church Committee at 4 p.m.
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7 August |
Visited several families - I am sorry to hear from Mrs. Wallace
Wymondley that her son-in-law Mr. Stables's affairs are in a rather
involved state.
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8 August |
Writing a letter for the Press on the subject of Education in Private
Schools. This helps to divert my mind from its misery which been unusually
great during the whole of this week except Sabbath.
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10 August |
Sabbath. Camp, Otahuhu and Tamaki. Had good deal of satisfaction out
of all services today but found the roads worse than ever I saw them
before.
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28 September |
Communion, Sabbath. Camp and Otahuhu.
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29 September |
Meeting of Session and Committee appointed to ascertain minds of people
about building new church, held in Mr. Jas Wallace's - not very pleasant
meeting - Mr. D. Thomson expressed himself very strongly about his
determination to leave the church if we moved to village. The Committee
are to go round all the people next week.
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1 October |
Rode into town to meeting of Presbytery - called for an hour at Remuera
where I found all well - pretty full meeting of Presbytery. Mr. Brown
preached and I was appointed Moderator - a good deal of talk about the
basis agreed on at Dunedin - remained at Hobson St. all night.
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2 October |
Attended meeting of Board at 9 o'clock this morning for examining
teachers - went out to Remuera in the evening and stayed all night.
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3 October |
Dined at Mr. Bruce's - visited prisoner (Allison) at Mt Eden Stockade -
attended meeting of Board at 2 p.m. - rode home in evening, found all well -
spent an hour with John - too tired to study.
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4 October |
Mr. McKinney has come out to preach here tomorrow. It is a very
unusual relief for me but I hardly realise it as such - I think it better
to be doing our accustomed work.
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5 October |
Camp and Tamaki - Mr. McKinney preached here - I was a hearer and
enjoyed the service though I feel more at home when conducting it myself.
E. Hall rode with me to and from Tamaki - he seemed interested in the
place having resided there when a mere boy and not having been there for
8 years - S. Cochrane and Charles here last night - he brought me as a
present a very nice book Many Thoughts of Many Minds - he is
altogether very kind to us.
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8 October |
Rode to Town to adjourned meeting of the Board of Education - am very
glad to have been instrumental in steps towards enlarging the present
Church or building a new one. After Congregations meeting held a prayer
meeting - attendance pretty good - Rode home with Sam - Lizzie Macky
and her Aunt walked home together.
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19 October |
Sabbath. Camp, Otahuhu and Tamaki - Expected to have service at the
village this evening but they had not completed the arrangements -
Returned home from Tamaki in the evening.
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21 October |
Lizzie rode to town to bring home our Servant and return with her.
My wife seems to be somewhat relieved by her return. She a very heavy
fat Woman and I got her on Jack at Otahuhu and walked beside her,
she being elevated in more ways than one. It was Agnes's first ride and
she does not wish to have any more.
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22 October |
Morgan the carpenter was out today seeing whether site at old church
would be sufficient for a new one - Meeting of Committee in the Evening -
'Plan' to be obtained and subscriptions asked.
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26 October |
Sabbath. Camp, Otahuhu, Tamaki and Otahuhu Village - very good
attendance at my four services.
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27 October |
My dear Rebecca's condition appears similar to what it was coming
to New Zealand. Alas She can get no sleep without means being used to
induce it and even then not sound or refreshing.
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31 October |
Preached at Drury and baptised Mr. Norrie's child. Rev. Mr. Reid
or Waipa an unexpected hearer - he was on his way from Waikato - Natives
very unsettled.
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1 November |
S. Cochrane sent out his carriage for my dear wife today - she is
very poorly indeed and I am very depressed. I also went into town this
afternoon - my services being from home tomorrow.
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2 November |
St James & Onehunga - Mr. Mason took all my services - I his -
and Onehunga in the afternoon.
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3 November |
Received payment for services to the soldiers - £22/10/- -
returned home from Auckland visiting hospitals etc on my way - Left
my dear wife very very far from well - God pity her and us.
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6 November |
Attended meeting of Presbytery at Onehunga - could not stay for Soiree
but rode to town. Alas found my dearest Rebecca no better - her state
is most lamentable.
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7 November |
Remained in town with my poor afflicted one till afternoon and came
to my desolate home most wretched.
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8 November |
Making what preparation I could for tomorrow - God help me.
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9 November |
Sabbath. Camp, Otahuhu, Howick and Otahuhu Village.
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11 November |
Rode to town - no change on my dear wife - it is very sad. Attended
meeting of Board - rode to Tamaki - held Prayer Meeting and stayed at
Mrs. Burns's.
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12 November |
Returned from Tamaki visiting on way - tead at S. Baird's. Saw plan
of new Church - Mrs. Baird suffering from influenza - held Prayer Meeting
and Class and found my dear wife at home on my arrival and alas No Better.
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16 November |
Sabbath. Camp, Otahuhu, Tamaki and Otahuhu village. Mrs. Burns proposes
most kindly to take both Maggie and Sarah to educate them but I cannot yet
see my way clear to accept this great favour.
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19 November |
Visiting at Otahuhu, Camp, Hospitals and Stockade.
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21 November |
Meeting of Convocation at Auckland - Chosen President of it.
Ministers from Otago, Wellington, Napier and Taranaki.
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22 November |
Got home and commenced writing Address for Assembly - my dear wife
Alas no better.
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23 November |
Sabbath. Preached at Camp - Rev. Mr. Duncan of Wellington preached at
Church and Otahuhu Village - Rev. Mr. P. Barclay of Napier in Tamaki.
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24 November |
Very busy all day till midnight at my address and Loyal addresses to
the Queen and Governor - Greatly Fatigued.
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25 November |
Rode in early to town - meeting of Convocation at 10 a.m. and of
Assembly at 11 a.m. I preached from Eph. 1.22 and was chosen Moderator
of Assembly - delivered opening address and constituted the First
General Assembly of the Presbyterian Church of New Zealand.
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26 November |
Meeting of Assembly and Lord's Supper.
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27 November |
Meeting of Assembly and Assembly's Supper.
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28 November |
Meeting of Assembly brought to a close - vote of thanks from my
brethren - their expressions most kind concerning me. I felt overwhelmed
at all this - grateful to God and deeply humbled in his sight on account
of my personal unworthiness - Oh God, Why would I
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feel otherwise? Save all vain thoughts. This would have been to me a
very pleasant time but the illness of my dear wife. Wrote Revds. McClure
and Bellis and Mr. Drummon.
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29 November |
Came home on Mr. Smart's dogcart to Otahuhu and from there with Mr.
Thomson.
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30 November |
Sabbath. Preached at Camp and Tamaki - Rev. A. Todd preached at
Otahuhu and Rev. J. Hogg at the Village both of whom I heard with pleasure
especially Mr. Todd whose sermon on Phil. 4 'Be careful for nothing etc' was
most appropriate to my own case. It is strange Providence that on account
of the illness of my dear wire I will not be able to have any of these
dear brethren at out home. I believe we have their deep sympathy.
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3 December |
At village - Camp and stockade in afternoon and public meeting in
church in the evening - addressed by Revs Hogg, Todd, and Will. Married
Ellen Gollan to Bell of Wairoa today.
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7 December |
Sabbath. Preached at Camp - Howick - and Village. Rev. P. Barclay
at Otahuhu and Rev. Mr. Todd at Tamaki - Heard Barclay and was very
much pleased with all his services as I am also with himself. He is
I believe a very superior man and a true Christian minister. May God
bless to the people in all our churches the faithful services of these
Ministers who have been sojourning among us.
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11 December |
My brother William and his wife here.
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22 December |
Sabbath. Otahuhu, Tamaki and Otahuhu Village. Very good congregations
and far beyond what I could have expected. I expected to have seen my
brother Thomas and S. Cochrane who came out last night at some of the
services or after the evening service at S. Baird's but was disappointed.
What a terrible aggravation of my affliction to be forsaken by friends from
whom I expected different treatment. Thank God for the friends who remain
steadfast. May I always be grateful for their sympathy.
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23 December |
Visiting on the way to Howick and at Howick - saw Miss Wilks at her
cottage - a clever but eccentric person - wishes to join our Communion
from her objection to kneel at the Sacrament of the Lord's Supper.
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25 December |
Christmas. Invited to Mr. Wetherell's - declined - saw Mrs. Thomson
who was poorly after breakfast - dined with all our children except Sam
and also my mother and Brother Thomas's two boys. Lizzie prepared our
Pudding etc but dined at home - boys and Maggie at Mr. Grant's party in
the evening.
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28 December |
Sabbath. Otahuhu, Tamaki and Otahuhu Village.
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31 December |
Rode to Otahuhu - dined at Mr. Hall's - visited Stockade and Hospital
and Mr. Gordon (lately arrived) - tead at Brother William's and afterwards
held Prayer Meeting.
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1 January 1863 |
Married a couple in Otahuhu today - dined at home - Children at Mrs.
Baird's, the girls at Uncle William's, John and Joe in the afternoon -
Sam and I bathed in the evening - my dear wife Lizzie and I went down
to my father's after tea.
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4 January |
Sabbath. Otahuhu and Howick. Mr. Bruce preached for me at Village -
came home from Howick - would have been better pleased had I been at
the village myself but had feared my inability on account of continued
earache during last week.
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6 January |
Rode to Tamaki, visiting on the way, held Prayer Meeting in Evening
and stayed at Mr. Burns's overnight. The children are to come to Mr
Thomson's tomorrow and leave Sarah with Mrs. Burns.
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7 January |
Rode into town from Tamaki to attend meeting of Presbytery - then
meeting of Bd, of Education which was adjourned till Thursday next.
Stayed all night at Hobson Street - Samuel went to Canterbury today
with reaping Machines - God be with him.
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8 January |
Came out of town by Epsom, calling at Mr. Potter's and two or three
other places.
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9 January |
Dorcas at my father's - she was up with us and we with them for a little
in thr evening - Lizzie is working very diligently and doing all she can for
us - May God reward her.
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11 January |
Sabbath. Otahuhu, Tamaki and Otahuhu Village. A good day - congregations
very full and the services very pleasant. Our dear little Sarah at Tamaki -
Delighted to see me.
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12 January |
Drove to work to meeting of Bd. of Education and to my great joy
my dear wife consented to accompany me - Lizzie was with us.
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13 January |
Drove out by Mr. Potter's where we were regaled with Gooseberry Wine etc.
Got home before Sunset.
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14 January |
Visited Camp etc and Uncle William's (where Lindsay has been for a
day or two) and S. Baird's.
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15 January |
Studying for Sabbath which is to be Communion both here and at Tamaki -
Load of Timber came - ordered for lining part of our house and building
Dairy.
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18 January |
Communion - Sabbath at Otahuhu and Tamaki - Mr. Thom Preached at Village
in the evening.
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20 January |
Went to Howick after breakfast and visited till evening - met two or
three about the alternations in the church at 5 p.m. and held Prayer
Meeting at 6 p.m. - rode home alone after meeting.
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21 January |
Rode early today to Presbytery which sat till 3 p.m. - rode home
after dinner with Mr. Bruce and was just home in time for meeting at
7 p.m.
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22 January |
Assisted John all day at the ceiling of Parlour, renailing of canvas
and papering - Lizzie and my dear wife also rendered assistance.
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23 January |
Finished papering ceiling.
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24 January |
Leg slightly scratched on 19th - very painful today.
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25 January |
Sabbath. Otahuhu, Tamaki and Otahuhu village. Suffering a great deal
with my leg - still I was able to perform all my services as usual.
From this date till 10th February I was confined yo my bed nursing with
the utmost care what threatened to be a tedious and disabling leg. Thank
God it is much Better - my dear wife was very kind but as she is still
very poorly, my dear Niece Lizzie Macky was my principal nurse. Mr.
Comrie preached on the first February, and Mr. Johnston, student and
second master, at the High School on the 8th - the latter stayed here.
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10 February |
Was up a little today - Mr. Thomson of Tamaki here a second time to see
me - He and Mrs. Burns were here formerly and were very kind in their
attentions - Mr. Norrie called on his way from Town.
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11 February |
Sarah Baird who was here for two or three days last week returned
this evening - She is very kindly disposed.
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12 February |
My leg - progressing slowly - alone greater part of the day - Sarah
Baird, Lizzie and my wife having gone down to S. Baird's. Preparing
for the Sabbath - hoping to be able to improve on the wreck of The Orpheus.
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15 February |
Otahuhu, Tamaki - Mr. McFarlane officiated at The Village.
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22 February |
Sabbath. Preached in Auckland - my dear wife with me - she seemed
very well.
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25 February |
Returned home leaving my dear wife in Remuera - Joe going home with
me to stay and build a Dairy etc for us.
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26 February |
Spent a miserable night thinking of my poor wife Rebecca and sent
in for her and got her home.
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27 February |
A most miserable morning - thought my poor wife would die - towards
afternoon most grateful for her safety and cheered wonderfully
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by a perceived marked change for the better on state of her mind.
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1 March |
Sabbath. Camp, Otahuhu, Howick and Otahuhu Village. Showery kind of a
day and I was most fatigued - open air service in Howick. My dear Rebecca
still continuing better and I am now, Thank God, able to entertain a good
hope of her ultimate complete recovery - she can now look and pray to God
as she was wont to do.
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8 March |
Sabbath. Auckland Morning and Evening - Mr. Thom indisposed - Mr
Johnston officiated for me at Camp and Otahuhu - Tamaki left without a
supply for which I was very sorry - it being the second sabbath in succession
in which it was so treated.
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9 March |
Returned from town with Brother James, his wife and Lizzie - found
all well at home - Mr. Clarke of Tauranga and Mr. and Mrs. Purvis had been
visiting here during the day.
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10 March |
My dear wife, John, Joseph, Lizzie and I went to Papakura Soiree this
evening - a pleasant evening upon the whole though I did not feel at home
at the meeting - got home about 1:30 a.m.
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12 March |
My wife, Lizzie and I at Mangarei today - just as we were preparing to
leave here, heard of Little Thomas Smart being drowned in their well -
called there and remained for three hours assisting in vain attempt to
resuscitate the body - Ah how severe a trial for poor Smart and his wife.
May God help them to bear it with Christian certitude and resignation.
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14 March |
Preparing for tomorrow - a fine day - John and Joe carpentering - Sam
ploughing.
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March, April to 15 May |
No entries in Journal - Much harassed in many ways and greatly
disquieted in mind. My poor wife's state of mind very changeable and
my hopes of her recovery again and again disappointed. The principal
things worth noting in addition to my work of preaching, lecturing,
visiting the sick, etc, have been —
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2 April |
Reunion at Tamaki and presentation to me of Tableau (by Mr. Thomson)
containing the likenesses of all the members of my congregation there.
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3 May |
Opening of New Church near Otahuhu - Mr. Bruce officiated - would have
been to me a very joyful occasion but for what took place next day.
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4 May |
My son Samuel married this day to Mary Robertson McGregor. This was
a grief to me on account of his extreme youth - not quite 19 - but I could
not find a way of preventing it. Some of my friends blame me for not
with-holding my consent but so far as I could judge after much prayerful
deliberation I could not have done so with propriety. I performed the
ceremony in Mr. Robertson's house - his mother, sisters, and brothers and
grandfather and grandmother being present. May God bless this union
formed under rather unhappy auspices. Samuel and Mary left today, to
embark tomorrow for Napier to enter thereupon the cares and duties of
life as God may enable them. They went out scarcely knowing whither
they went. At God's call we hope.
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5 May |
Opening Soiree in our new Church - very large attendance - speaking
tolerable - band of 70th Regiment performed several pieces - reporters
from Southern Cross and New Zealander - Speakers beside myself -
my brother William, Mr. Adam, Revds. D, Bruce, Norrie and Buttle - Mr
Burns, Revd. Mason and Mr. Stables were also present
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5 May |
to speak but there was not time to [hear] them - The Church gives
great satisfaction.
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13 May |
This morning John Carruth aged 14 years, second son of Carruth,
departed this life. He was a very sweet boy and I was greatly interested
in him. His disease was Dysentery - and his illness was of nearly five
weeks continuance - I trust and hope that he sleeps in Jesus. God
comfort his poor mother, she and all her family were ill of Dysentery
at this time - the youngest is still in danger.
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27 May |
Wrote to Mr. McClure and Jos. Wilson's Father, from both of whom I
had Letters by Mail. Wilsons sent me Power of Attorney to sell his
farm.
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30 May |
For the last fortnight my dear wife seems to be almost quite well -
I trust I shall be truly thankful to God for his great Mercy. As an
instrument Mrs. Burns of Tamaki appears to have done her much good - she
has done a great deal of work for her and thus lightened her anxiety and
I think her wish to have Maggie as well as Sarah with her will be a good
thing for both Maggie and her Mams.
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So ends the journal of John Macky as recorded in a copy taken from
the original that has been lost.
It may well be that that original will show up. It was understood
[to have been] made available to Neil Lloyd Macky about 1939 when he was
preparing the Family History for The Auckland City Centenary.
In September 1969 a Committee representative of the four remaining
Families - those of the brothers John, Thomas and William and their
only sister Dorcas - organised a Reunion of The Macky Family in New
Zealand .
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This Committee published
- An History -
The Macky Family in New Zealand - 1845-1969 .
This is the History written by Neil Lloyd Macky, a grandson of
Brother Thomas . Therein as an Appendix is published copies
of a number of letters that passed between members of the pioneer
family between 1848 and 1855.
The Macky Family in New Zealand Tables of Descent . This
publication was produced by Photographic Reduction from a Chart (80
feet long and 3 feet deep) displayed at the September Family Reunion
held at Newmarket Inn , a reception Room at
Ellerslie Racecourse
Auckland. The chart containing The Tables of Descent was made
up and compiled by William Keith Macky O'Hara, a grandson of Brother
William .
The Macky Family Descendants owe a debt of Gratitude to Neil Lloyd
for his History and to The Family Reunion Committee for its publication.
Since the Reunion quite a bit of information has become available and it
is hoped that some member or members of the Family can make some attempt
to piece together the various pieces of information for the sake of
posterity.
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